When You’re Ready Ch. 17
Pairing: Bryce Lahela x f! MC (Eleanor Bloom) x Ethan Ramsey.
Word Count: 6.6k (Am I sorry? Absolutely not.)
Warnings: Angst and cussing.
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Chapter 17: Truly, Madly, Deeply.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong
I will be faithful
'Cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah
“I’m an asshole.”
Aurora stared at Bryce leaning against the wall with his face buried in his forearm and his shoulders slumped. Defeated. Ashamed. Mortified.
“Bryce, if I told you this is not to make you feel worse than you already feel, it’s because you had understandable reasons to be mad. This whole situation between Eleanor and Ethan is… complicated and adding the information Elijah gave it to you only made things worse.”
Bryce stood straight and faced his friend, his eyes glistening.
“Understandable reasons. Thinking that Eleanor slept with Ramsey and she would dump me it’s an understandable reason to ignore her even if she had never given me any reasons to distrust her? I think not. It’s awful.”
His voice was full of regret and desperation, and even if seeing Bryce like that was painful for her, she didn’t regret her decision.
“You got caught in a misunderstanding. I bet you thought the worst because you’re afraid and that’s understandable. Now you know the truth and you can move on.”
“Move on?—He turned around and started pacing around the hallway trying to contain his anger.—"How can I move on if I know the last three days could’ve been so much different and I…”
“Bryce, stop there.”—Aurora snapped, serious. —"You have to stop wallowing in what-ifs and should’ves right now, because is not going to lead you anywhere, and is not going to help Eleanor either. She needs you. You’re the person she needs the most now, so you have to be in your best shape and mood to help her. Your feelings are important, but right now you have to focus on her.”
Bryce stopped in the middle of the hallway and sighed loudly, then he nodded and looked up at Aurora.
“You’re right. I’m sorry. I’m not usually like this, I don’t lose control this easily, it’s just…”
It’s just that he couldn’t imagine a life without Eleanor, and he couldn't live with the fact that he could've held her, and kiss her, and love her the last three days but he didn't because he was blind and scared.
His breath started raging and he winced, trying to contain the emotions that were overwhelming him. The idea of losing her was becoming more palpable than ever.
“It’s okay, Bryce. You love her, she’s your girlfriend, I’d be more worried if you hadn’t lost your shit by now. Come here.”
Aurora pulled him into a hug, and he wrapped her instantly as if holding her was like clinging to the last drop of sanity he had left.
Guilt had always been his weak spot. He learned it when he left Keiki in Maui and never came back, and to this day he was still dealing with the consequences and trying to make up for the lost time.
And now he was dealing with another kind of guilt, and facing death was making everything worse. The effects were instant, devastating, and maddening.
After a minute of herculean effort to not crying his soul out, Bryce pulled away from Aurora, feeling more serene and like a lot of weight had been taken off his shoulders.
“Thank you, Aurora.”—He muttered, staring deeply at her chocolate eyes, trying to convey his feelings.— “You’re an amazing friend.”
If it wasn’t for her, Bryce would’ve drowned in guilt, shame, and self-loathing to a depth so dangerous, it would've taken an impossible effort to come afloat by himself.
Aurora smiled at him and shook him by the shoulders.
“Anytime you need, I’ll be there for you. You’re not alone.”
“Likewise.”
“Dr. Lahela?”
Bryce turned around and found a nurse a few feet away, looking at them cautiously, almost sorry for interrupting the intimate moment.
“Yes, Marlene?”
“I’ve been trying to contact Eleanor’s family for a couple of hours, but no success. Dr. Ramsey told me you probably have an alternative number? Or maybe you could have access to Eleanor’s phone so we could get another number?”
“And what numbers do you have?”
“Her family emergency contact was her mom’s cellphone and a landline in Cincinnati.”
“And none of them works?”
“The cellphone is out of service, and no one answers in her house.”
Bryce frowned, thoughtful, and after a few seconds, he nodded.
“Oh. Of course. Eleanor’s parents aren’t in the city. They went to Chile to spend the national holidays with her mom’s family. We should try with her brother, he’s in college in Michigan. Where’s Eleanor’s phone?”
“It’s at the Diagnostics Office, with the rest of her belongings.”
Bryce and Aurora entered the empty office. In the center of the round table was a plastic bag with Eleanor’s clothes, shoes, and her phone. Bryce grabbed her phone and unlocked it with his fingerprint without a moment's hesitation.
Aurora chuckled without hiding the surprise in her eyes.
“What?”
“One thing is knowing her password, but adding your fingerprint?”
“It’s faster when you wanna put a song on Spotify.—He shrugged with a nonchalant expression on his face.—"She has access to mine too.”
Aurora and Marlene shared a knowing smile, but he didn’t notice it.
Bryce scrolled through Eleanor’s contacts list. When he found “Benja”, he dialed instantly. After several rings, a whispering voice was heard on the other side of the line.
“Hello? Andrew? I’m in class right now.”
“Um, hello Benjamin, this is Bryce Lahela.”—He said softly.
“Bryce Lahela… oh, shoot. Hello. You’re my sister’s boyfriend, right?”
“Y… Yes. Can we talk? I have something important to tell you.”
“Okay, wait a second.”
While he was waiting, Bryce couldn’t help but feel shivers down his spine. It was the first time he was talking to a member of Eleanor’s family, and even if he knew her family was aware of their relationship, it made him feel nervous reaching this milestone, especially under terrible circumstances, and after the doubts he had been feeling the past few days.
“Okay, I’m out. Something happened?”
Bryce tried to balance the concern of a boyfriend with the calmness and professionalism acquired in his medical career to not shock Benjamin more than necessary.
“Unfortunately, yes. There was an assassination attempt on a Senator here in Edenbrook, it was Eleanor’s patient, and she was caught in the middle. The hospital tried to contact your mother, but as she’s in Chile, I decided to contact you directly.”
“Shit. Yes, you did the right thing. How is she? What happened exactly?”
“She’s stable at the moment. This assassin used a canister with an unknown substance, so the hospital is working to figure out what was inside as soon as possible. It already killed a man, and there’s a nurse in a coma."
“Oh my god, no…”
Bryce could sense the pain Benjamin was feeling even if he couldn’t see him. He knew how much Eleanor adored her brother, so it was natural that Benjamin would feel the same way about her. And knowing his sister was in danger of course would cause this type of reaction, especially being away.
“Is she awake? Can I speak with her?”
“She’s in quarantine, so is kind of difficult to let you talk through the phone, but I can try.”
“No, it’s okay. Don’t worry. I… I’ll fly as soon as I can to Boston.”
“Do you have a number so we can call your parents?”
“I’ll do it. I have my grandma’s landline, that’s the quickest way to contact mom.”
“Okay, then. Let me know if you need anything, alright? Do you have money to fly here?”
“Yes, I have a credit card to use in case of emergencies. Thank you, Bryce.”
“No problem.”
After a few more questions and Bryce giving him his number, Benjamin hung up. If he was lucky, he would be able to land in Boston in three hours.
“Okay, Benjamin is going to contact Eleanor’s parents and once he's here, they'll have a video call with the Team so they can inform Eleanor’s state more detailly.”
“Understood. Thank you so much, Dr. Lahela. I’ll let know Dr. Ramsey.”
“No problem, glad I could help.”
When Bryce grabbed his own phone to save Benjamin’s number, he noticed he had several missed calls and messages from Keiki.
“Bryce, I read that something happened at the hospital. Please answer me.” “I know you probably are in the OR but please call me when you see this” “Are you okay?”
Bryce sighed and dialed her number.
“Bryce? Oh my god, how are you? Why you didn’t answer!”
“I was at the surgery, Keiki. I told you it would last long”—He lied, but regretted it the second he let out the words.
“I know, but… I was worried, the news are saying the police is in the hospital, that someone tried to kill a Senator. Is that true?”
Bryce pondered his words. There was no point in lying, sooner or later she would find out, and it was better if it was from him. So he told her the truth. That the rumors she saw on the news were true, and that Eleanor was in danger. Keiki was desperate and wanted to come over to the hospital to see her, but even if he needed his sister here, he had to play the responsible and serious older brother for once in his life.
“Keiki, it’s better if you stay at home. Is too dangerous here and I think Eleanor would kill me if I let you come over.”
She chuckled.
“That’s true. Better not give her a hard time.”
“Exactly.”
“Okay, but please, keep me informed.”
“I will. And if you need anything, please call me, and stay safe. I’m probably staying here tonight.”
“Don’t worry, I’ll be fine. Please send Ella all my love if you see her, okay?”
“Sure, thank you, sis."
Three hours later, Bryce was deep in thoughts sitting in a chair near the atrium, when he saw the vivid image of Eleanor walking towards him. He had to blink several times.
“Damn, pictures give you an idea, but I didn’t know you and Elle were so alike.— He joked, standing up from the chair and offering his hand to the guy in front of him. —"Hello Benjamin, nice to meet you.”
The situation wasn’t appropriate for jokes, but somehow Bryce felt like he needed to kill the tension from the start. Eleanor had told him her brother was ongoing and nice, and it just felt right to act that way with him, instead of serious and gloomy.
Benjamin returned the handshake and smiled.
He was way taller than Eleanor but not taller than him, and he had an athletic body, even if he wasn't on any sports team at college. He was just a soccer and basketball aficionado, or at least that’s what Eleanor had told him.
“Nice to meet you too, Bryce. For what it's worth, you’re as handsome as you seem in Ellie’s Pictogram. Thought you were using some Ken filter, but nope, that’s really you.—Benja teased, containing a laugh.
Bryce couldn’t help but chuckle.
“100% real, no weird filters, I promise.”
“Any updates?”
“None. She’s stable and was sedated right after we spoke the first time, so she should be awake by now. The rest is working in the labs trying to find out what could’ve been inside the canister.”
“And you’re not going?”
“I was hired as moral support. My friends are more expert in that field than me, I’m just a surgeon.”—Bryce replied sheepishly, shrugging.
“But the best surgical resident or that’s what I’ve heard.”
His eyes widened for a second, but then Bryce shook his head, amused.
“She told you that?”
“That and other fangirly praises like “oh, he’s so cute, so charming, and talented, the best surgeon, he’s amazing.”
His heart did a flip. He never expected Eleanor would talk about him like that to her brother. Or that she would talk about him at all.
“You must be really impressive to have my sister babbling like a teenager at the age of 27.”
“What can I say? I’m a total catch.”—Bryce gave him his characteristic charming smile, feeling somehow relieved for a moment. It was like Benjamin was giving him the same relaxed and nice vibes he always felt around Eleanor.
Benjamin laughed and Bryce’s heart did another flip as he saw traces of Eleanor’s smile in him. She was everywhere. In the shape of his eyes, the way he quirked his brows, in his grin, even he could hear her in his still marked Ohioan accent.
“Yeah, I’m pretty cocky too, ask my friends and everyone will say a round yes, but your sister doesn’t deserve any less.”
“I agree completely.”
After a few minutes, Bryce and Benjamin stood in front of the quarantined room. Eleanor was half-asleep staring at Rafael, who was sleeping.
“Andrew”—Benjamin muttered.
Eleanor was extremely pale, her eyes were puffy, and her lips parched and cracked, but the moment she opened her eyes and recognized Benjamin, her whole face brightened with love and surprise.
“Benja! Ohmygod! What are you doing here?”
“Bryce contacted me so I had to come to see you. How are you?”
Eleanor stood up with difficulty. When she reached the door, her eyes were full of tears.
“Bebé… I’m… well, I’ve been better, but right now I’m so happy to see you.”
“Me too, sis.”
Both siblings shared a smile, the same kind smile, and Bryce couldn't help but mirror them.
“Well, I leave you to it. I’ll let Dr. Ramsey know you’re here so you can have the meeting with your parents.”
Bryce turned to leave but Eleanor stopped him.
“Bryce, wait.”
“Yes?”
“Thank you, thank you for calling my brother.”
Eleanor gave him a tender smile, full of thankfulness and adoration.
“Yeah, thank you, Bryce, for all you’ve done for my sister.”—Benjamin added, earnestly.
“It’s nothing. Let me know if you need anything.”
And he left the siblings catching up with their lives, the younger trying to cheer up the older with the usual jokes and mocks siblings have.
Hours later, Eleanor paged to report a new symptom Rafael had manifested before falling into a coma. Hopefully, it would be the key to find the answer they’ve been trying to reach all day.
“Bryce?”—Aurora murmured, approaching him in the hallway. “Dr. Ramsey wants to talk to you, he’s in his personal office.”
When Bryce turned to her he didn’t need a second glance to read the panic in her eyes. He gulped and then forced himself to smile at Eleanor.
“See you later, gorgeous.”
Bryce walked to the office as fast as he could. When he reached Ethan’s office, he breathed deeply before getting in. As he opened the door, he found the attending looking at the window, pensive. He looked small and fragile, and when Bryce stood behind him, he saw how haggard he was in the reflection of the window. After a few moments, Ethan turned to face him, and he didn’t even bother to hide his feelings.
“Do you know what’s in the canister?”
“Yes. June was right. It’s…”.—Ethan cleared his throat, brows knitted in worry.—“ It’s a maitotoxine.”
“Maitotoxine? I think I’m not familiar with the name.”
“It’s an extremely potent toxin commonly found in fish, but this… this toxin is something I’ve never seen before. Not June, not Baz…”—Ethan shoved his hand through his hair, evidencing his frustration.
“What does this mean?”—Bryce said in a tiny voice, already knowing what Ethan was about to say.
“There is no antidote for this, Bryce.”
For a moment, Bryce felt like he would faint, his mind went clouded, and lost track of space and time. His body wasn’t strong enough to process such information. Such undeniable and hurtful truth.
What he had been fearing all day was now materializing.
“And what are you going to do? Can you create an antidote or modify another one with a similar molecular structure? That has been done lots of times.”
“Yes, that’s what we are hoping to do. Aurora informed me that a group of doctors from Mass Kenmore is coming to Edenbrook to help, so we’ll have the best minds working on an antidote.”
But they had to have it before it’s too late.”
“You have to… you have to find the antidote, Ethan. She can’t die… She…”
Bryce suddenly got out of breath. The desperation was brewing again. The pain was inexorable. He couldn’t hold it anymore.
“I can’t lose her. Ethan, please… You have to...”
He couldn’t tell when happened, but all at once, he found himself drowning in sobs and with large tears streaming past his neck, reaching his chest.
He did his best to not succumb to his feelings in the OR because Kyra needed him, and he couldn't fail her nor Eleanor.
He managed to hold it while he was with Aurora because there was still hope and Aurora forced him to focus on Eleanor.
He was doing fine keeping his hopes high, trusting they would find out what was in the canister and then set a treatment and everything would be alright.
But there was no cure, no antidote.
Even if one hundred doctors were working on it, no one could assure him that they could do it before it’s too late. Before she’s gone.
He didn't even want to think in a world without her, but the sole draft, just a slight hint of it was devastating, unbearable.
He started gasping for air. His guts were shaking uncontrollably. The lump he felt in his throat at OR was now bigger and even more painful. His entire body was numb.
This was a living nightmare.
After a few seconds, Bryce took a chair and sat down before his legs could fail him. Ethan did the same.
“We have to stay positive, Bryce. Many of us have experience with research and with the help of Mass Kenmore and your friends, I’m sure will be on time to fight the toxin.”
“I wanna believe that, I’ve been believing this shit all day, Ethan. But… if it’s too late. I…”—He rubbed his face with both hands, his face red and wet with tears. Then he buried his face in his hands.—“She doesn’t deserve this… She can’t die… Please…”
Ethan patted him in the shoulder, comfortingly, his eyes haunted with fear and sadness.
“Bryce, I won’t let anything happen to Eleanor ...”—He hesitated for a moment, pondering his next words.— “You know what she means to me. I know you do. And I’ll do everything I can to save her, I promise. Whatever it takes. I won’t let anything happen to her. "
Bryce looked at him defeated.
“If I could, I would do it too, but I’m so useless. I feel so useless.”
"No, Bryce, on the contrary, you have done for her more than any of us could. If she’s still able to have a smile on her face despite the hell she’s living, if she’s still standing is not only because she’s incredibly strong. It’s because she has you. You’re part of the reason she hasn’t fallen into a coma yet.”
There was a painful rawness in those words. In another time and circumstances, Ethan would have never been able to say it aloud, mostly for pride and because he didn’t use to open to anyone. But not today. His love for Eleanor was selfless enough to let him recognize that if she was doing good was because of Bryce, and she had given him enough bravery to accept it out loud in front of the person she had chosen over him. Because Ethan only needed one second of watching Eleanor looking at Bryce to realize she was in love with him.
The only person Eleanor needed, was Bryce.
Ethan’s words felt like an absolute and relieving certainty to Bryce, mostly because who was saying it was the person he would expect it the less, and it gave him the strength he needed to keep going. To keep being there for Eleanor in this difficult night.
“Thank you, Ethan.”—Bryce said after a while, regaining breath and clarity.
The attending nodded and then stood up from the chair.
“Come on, we have to speak with Eleanor, and she’ll need you by her side.”
Eleanor was hopeless. Bryce could tell how the slight hope she had inside her had vanished with the news.
“We’ll do our best to find the antidote. Just keep fighting Eleanor.”—Elijah reassured.
The doctors from Mass Kenmore and the rest of their friends started to go. Sienna was heading Benjamin to the fifth floor so he could have some rest. He didn’t want to leave the hospital in case something happened.
And then, there was only Ethan and Bryce outside the room.
Eleanor smiled at Ethan, noticing how troubled and scared he was, as if he didn’t want to leave her there, knowing things could go wrong anytime and he couldn’t say goodbye. But he knew it wasn’t his place to be anymore. He knew it was Bryce’s.
“Thank you, Ethan. For everything.”
“We’ll make it, Eleanor. Keep fighting just as you’ve been doing until now.”—He stared deeply into her eyes for a moment, before turning around and leave Bryce alone in the hallway.
Bryce watched him leave, and when he looked at Eleanor, her swelling eyes were already on him, clinging onto him even if she couldn’t touch him. Like his eyes were strong and powerful enough to hold her to life.
She was tired. She was giving up.
“It’s gonna be okay, Elle, I promise.”
“It won’t. How they’re going to create an antidote in just a few hours? Raf and Danny are in a coma, they could go at any moment, so do I."
“Yes, it could happen at any moment, but that moment could take hours, even days, and I’m sure the team will have it on time. They have a lot of brilliant people working on it, with tons of experience. They’ll make it, I know.”
Eleanor shook her head hastily, sobbing.
“It’s just I’m so tired, Bryce. I… I can’t take it anymore, I’m tired of being strong and show hope and shit, I want this to be over, I’m done.”
“I know you are, babe. You have been so strong and brave, it’s understandable that you want a break. You deserve it, but you have to keep fighting, okay?”
“The only reason I’m doing it it’s because of you. Because somehow you don’t let me fall. If it wasn’t for you, I don’t think I would be still standing. I don’t know I’d be here. I wouldn’t be that strong.”
Bryce smiled tenderly at her puffed eyes.
“You would. Don’t you know it already, Eleanor? That strength that you have is all you. You have it inside you. You always have.”
“Don’t you know it already, Bryce? You make me stronger. You know it’s true.”
“Glad to be of service.”—He flashed her a smile that made her smile too.—“But this is mostly you.”
“I wish I could hold you right now. I miss you so much.”
“Maybe you can.”
“How?”
“There’s another hazmat suit out here. I could go inside and make you company for a while. I hate the idea of you being alone in a moment like this.”
“Would you do that for me?”
“How dare to ask that, Eleanor Andrea Bloom? You know I would do anything for you.”
Eleanor bit his lower lip, compassing her sobs for a moment.
“I’d love to have you here with me.”
“That’s it, then.”
A few minutes later, Bryce entered the room with the hazmat suit on, and a dashing smile adorning his face.
“Well, what do you think? Am I still handsome? Or am I somehow more handsome? Be honest.”—He said flirtily.
She shook her head, chuckling.
“God, how I missed you, Johnny Bravo.”—She said looking at him from head to toes.—"I think it’s your best look yet. You’ll catch a lot of babes with that.”
“Ah,”—He growled, taking slow steps towards her— “but you know there’s just one babe I want, and I have it right here in front of me.”
Eleanor looked up at him, almost not believing he was in front of her, that she was able to touch him.
In an intent to believe it, she cut the distance and wrapped Bryce in a tight embrace.
“You’re here, you’re really here.”
“You’re not the only one who was dying for a hug, you know? Especially after all the opportunities, I wasted in these few days."
Bryce tightened his hold, almost scared that Eleanor would vanish into thin air any second now.
“Elle, I’m…”
“Shhh… Not now.”
He nodded and both remained silent, savoring the embrace, the sweet feeling of having each other in their arms. Even if they couldn’t feel the warmth and smell they loved so much, feeling their arms wrapped around those so well known curves was sufficient. It brought them joy, peace. A sense of reality in the middle of that living hell.
After a minute, her limbs started trembling and her breath got short.
“Come on, babe, let’s get you to bed.”
Bryce took her hand and helped her laid down. Then, somehow, he managed to squeeze in the bed beside her.
“How’s that?”
“Much, much better.”—Eleanor placed a hand over his waist and then added: —“My brother really liked you. A lot.”
“I know. I liked him too.”
“You know?”
“I told him I was a total catch, cause I am, and he agreed with me. That totally means that he likes me, right?”
“Bryce…”—She laughed, rolling her eyes.
“What? It’s the truth! I didn’t force him to agree or anything! I mean, you did half the job by telling him all those incredible things about me.”
“He told you that? Oh, that brat!”
Bryce shrugged, amused while Eleanor shook her head.
I’m glad you finally get to know each other, and you actually liked each other.”
"I mean, it's hard not to. He's really nice and you've told me so much about him I feel like I've known him for a long time."
“I think something like that happened to me with Keiki, even if I had absolutely no idea about her existence before I met her”—Eleanor teased, feigning annoyance.
“Keiki… She’s been worried about you all day. She was crazy to come up here, but I told her you would kill me if she came. But I’ve been giving her updates every hour.”
“Oh, yes. I would’ve been so fucking mad, Bryce Lahela. I’m glad you kept her safe.”—Then she sighed.—"The poor thing, must be all alone. You should go to see her.”
“I know, but I can’t leave you here, Elle.”
“Would it be too selfish of me if I tell you I don’t want you to leave?”
“No. Not at all.”—His look softened.—“I don’t want to leave, either. In fact, I won’t leave your side, Eleanor.”
Bryce gave him a tiny smiled and they stared at each other, savoring once again the moment of being together. After a while, Eleanor laughed.
“What is it?”
“You look so fucking handsome, Bryce, it’s ridiculous, and I look like shit. I’m done a complete mess.”
Bryce chuckled, spotting the dark circles around her eyes, her tousled hair, how pale she was. He really hadn’t noticed how bad she looked.
“Yeah, you look like shit”—He teased.—"But you know what? You’re still the most beautiful creature in the universe, princess.”
Her eyes were swelling with tears, and a moment later, a sob escaped her mouth.
“Okay, okay, I take it back,”—He added seconds, later, noticing her swelling eyes. “you don’t look like shit, you look amazing, babe, incredible. Ready for a Vogue photoshoot. Ready for the Oscars.”
Bryce couldn’t tell if what escaped her mouth was a sob or a giggle, but her face had lightened somehow.
Somehow, he managed to end her anguish and ease her pain.
Somehow.
He didn’t know how.
As if it was pure luck.
But she perfectly knew it wasn’t luck.
“Gosh, Bryce…”—She couldn’t continue. It felt like she was out of breath.—"Bryce I…”
She brought her hands to the side of his head, her thumbs over the face shield as if she was caressing his cheeks.
She locked eyes with him, and that look, that adoring look made him feel millions of shivers through his all body. Those dreamy tender eyes managed to convey all the emotions that were brewing inside her.
And Bryce was finally, finally able to see it, after missing it so many times that day.
“Te amo.”
He was at last, at last able to hear it, after longing for it for so long.
Her eyes were looking directly into his soul, into his heart, pouring everything she had inside to fill him with the most sincere and sweet love. With adoration, admiration, tenderness. With the purest feelings anyone could imagine.
And those two words sounded like relief. Like she had been choking and those words out loud were acting like the air she had been needing for so long.
“I love you so, so, so much, Bryce.”
And her eyes now were even fuller with adoration and candor. Full of happiness and life, even if ten minutes ago she had been feeling ready to die.
“I… I wish I had realized sooner, and these weren’t the circumstances where I’m able to say it… but if I don’t make it, I don’t want to go without you knowing what I feel about you.”
“Babe, you’ll make it, you don’t need to do this just because you’re here.”
“I’m doing this because that’s how I truly feel. I’m in love with you.”
“You really are?”
Even if he had been waiting for those words for months, he couldn’t believe it. Even if he had been receiving signs all day, from different people, he still couldn’t believe it.
“Yes. Yesterday I was finally able to see it, but it has been there for a while.”
“How so?”
“I’ll explain it later. You need to know some things first.”
“Okay.”
“As you know, I went to Ethan’s apartment after the game.”
“Aha.”
And she told him everything that happened that night. She didn’t keep anything. Well, except the personal stuff Ethan had shared with her, but the confession, the things he promised her, the kiss, how she felt after that, what she talked with Aurora. Everything. Because she had nothing to hide and he deserved to know everything, just as it always had been.
“And I just like that, I realized that I was over him. Just like you said. I was in front of the Ethan I used to love, telling me he loved me, offering me everything. But it turned out I… I didn’t want him anymore.”
“I’m sorry it had to be this painful to you. I had no idea you had been hurt so much.”
“Yeah, I had it blocked, but I’m sure I would’ve told you if it wasn't the case.
Bryce stroke her hair in the most tender way he could, his eyes haunted.
“I’m sorry, babe. I’m for being so distant and an ass with you. I should’ve let you talk, but I was afraid of what you would tell me”
“I know. I know and I completely understood it. But I can’t deny that at some point I was afraid that… I hurt you to the point of you not wanting anything to do with me anymore. That going with Ethan that night was the last straw and that no matter what happened between him and me, you… you would want to break up."
“No, of course not. How could I decide something like that without a warning? And with something I pushed you to do? No. I was just… trying to delay the inevitable. The suffering of knowing that you gave him a chance.”
“Well, I didn’t. And I realized that I was in love with you instead. At last.”
“Are you sure about that? You know there’s no need to hurry…”
“Bryce, why is so hard to believe it? Should I shout it with a megaphone, or maybe post photos and stories on my Pictogram telling that I’m truly, madly, deeply in love with you so you can believe me? Because I’m willing to.”
Bryce laughed, incredulous.
“Truly, Madly, Deeply. Damn. Just like that Savage Garden song?”
“The very same. I like the 90s.”
“A woman after my own heart.”
She bit her lower lip, smiling.
“I cannot believe how blind I was. It has been there, the whole time!”
“I’m listening.”
“It’s…”
Her whole face lit up with that sunny smile he loved so much. For a moment, he forgot where they were.
“It’s in the way I look at you, like a fool. Like I was fifteen. It’s the fact that you’re my first thought in the morning and my last one before going to sleep. You’re the first person I think of when something good happens, or when something bad happens too. In your arms is where I feel safe, and I know there's no other place I'd rather be. And god, I laugh with all your jokes, even the bad ones, and I don't find you cocky anymore because all that you say about yourself is true, and I think about you all the damn day, Bryce. I’m all day wanting for the day to end so I can see you and kiss you. And…”
Eleanor stopped for a moment, trying to catch some breath. Bryce shook his head. He had the stupidest smile she had ever seen on him. The same smile she was sure she had on her face right now.
“Another example? My brother. I haven’t been able to stop talking about you. It wasn’t like this from the beginning, but now I’ve just realized that the last few weeks I haven’t done anything but tell him, or my mom, how happy I am with you. I’ve been even imagining how it would be if I ever introduce you to my abuela. I bet she would adore you the moment she meets you, and she would love you more than me, and would cook your favorite meal, and would give you the last spoon of ice cream and… and I really don’t care, because you deserve it. You deserve the last spoon of ice cream, and my grandma’s meals, and … Everything. You deserve everything, Bryce. I don’t know what else to say. I’m in love with you like a teenager, and I feel like never before. What did you do to me?”
He smiled, tears of joy streaming down his face. That slump in his throat hurt again, but for different reasons. It was for the absolute tenderness and adoration he was feeling inside his chest. Admiration. Love. God. He couldn’t understand how he could love her so much. How much she meant to him. How happy and complete she made him feel. He had never felt this for anybody before, he knew it already, but now he was realizing he would never feel this way for anybody else, ever.
“I’m crazy about you too, Eleanor. I’ve been holding these feelings for so long to not scare you or pressure you, but god, I feel the same way. I think about you all day, and every time I think about the future, you’re in there.”
“That’s a relief, because for a moment I thought I was being too cheesy and clingy.”
“Babe, you’re always cheesy. You can’t help it around me.”
“You created a monster, Bryce Lahela.”
“I like cheese. I would eat cheese all day. And for the record, I would definitely share the last spoon of ice cream with you"
Bryce winked at her and then pressed her body against his.
“God, I wish I could kiss you.”
“You will.”
“But I want to kiss you noooow."
Eleanor pouted and butterflies fluttered ferociously in his stomach. She made him feel like fifteen too.
“Well, miss impatience, is nice to finally meet you.”
"Tell me that you're not dying to kiss me right now."
“I am. But we’ll have to manage with what we have for now.”
“How so?”
“Imagination. How would you like me to kiss you the next time?”
“If there’s a next time.”
Bryce scowled her and squeezed her waist.
“There will be. You’ll get through this, babe. I promise.”
She gave him a sad smile.
“So?”
“So what?”
“How will you want me to kiss you after you get out of here.”
“Mmm… I think… Slow and sweet, just like our ‘first kiss’ at Isabella’s”
“Mmm what a good kiss. Cute and romantic.”
“Or maybe passionate and breathtaking, just like that kiss at the beach, on your birthday. God, I can’t decide!”
“Don’t worry, we can always try both.”
“I hope so.”
“We will. You have to believe me.”
“Okay. I believe you. If I die, I’ll come to visit you every night, Bryce Lahela.”
“Lucky for me you won’t die. I would hate to have your ghost every night by my side and not being able to kiss you and do you dirty things.”
“Bryce!”—Eleanor giggled. “Okay, okay, I believe you. Bring me that dreamy kiss now!”
“Close your eyes.”
Eleanor obeyed and closed her eyes.
“Remember that night at the Museum?”
“I could never forget”—She muttered—.
Bryce took her hand and with the tip of her fingers, he brushed her lips delicately, exposing her inner lip for a moment. Then with her thumb, he caressed her mouth.
“I will kiss you sweetly and delicately while I hold you by the waist, transmitting how much I love you, how much you mean to me. How happy I am to have you in my life.”
After a few seconds, she opened her eyes, smiling.
“That night was perfect.”
“Yeah, and you looked gorgeous.”
“But you, you were stunning in that silky pink shirt… And the night was so nice. Warm and starry. Oh, and there was music playing.”
“Yes, that slow jazz… When I fall in love… It will be forever”—He sang slowly.
“Or I’ll never fall in love…”—She continued.—“You remember the song?”
“Obviously. It played on my mind on repeat for like two weeks.”
“Oh. That means you had that kiss playing on repeat on your head for two weeks?”
“I plead the fifth.”
She chuckled.
“Well, I, for one, thought about that kiss a lot in the following days. Another example of how goofy you leave me.”
“Good I wasn’t the only one.”
Suddenly, her smile faded, and Eleanor looked at him earnestly.
“Thank you for taking a chance on us that night, Bryce. Since that day you’ve given me nothing but happiness. And I’m sure that from that day there was no returning point for me. Sooner or later I would fall for you, and I’m glad I finally did.”
“I would do it a million times, in a heartbeat, Eleanor.”
“And I’d choose you a million times, over and over again. I only wish that none of those million times had to involve me dying just when I realized I was in love with you.”
“You’ll make it, babe. I have so much love to give you, that I won’t let you go so easily.”
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A/N: Hello! If you make it this far, I have to thank you! I know it was a super long chapter, but it was really important (for the story and for me) and I honestly didn’t want to save words, nor split it in two chapters.
If I had to resume Bryce in this chapter in two words those would be: Husband material. And next chapter will be husband material x3264546.
Thank you for all your support, I hope you liked this chapter. I’d love to hear your opinions in the comments.
A big hug to each and every one of you!
A/N2: *spoiler* Graphic description of Eleanor after chapter 17:
I think it works the other way around too 😂
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