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#not a lot of chances. dependent on others to provide chances. autistic hyperfixation on little scraps of the score
prudencepaccard
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didn't get cast in ensemble. they did cast a girl at callbacks I literally taught the harmony to though. fucked up
#spent a year thinking about the audition
#have actively waited for an opportunity to audition for at least seven years
#show on my radar for at least 14
#love to be good enough at the audition that they call you back and then have them be like
#actually never mind we don't want your voice even with the other voices.
#we have no place for your body on stage with the other bodies
#this is what I was afraid of. this is why as soon as it was announced like two years ago this might be produced I was as
#stressed as I was excited.
#it's not about ego or rejection it's just about getting to do a dream there aren't many chances to fulfill. I just get fixations you know?
#rehearsals start tonight without me!
#only thing helping me hold onto my sanity is an inside source telling me that the director is horrible
#it's hard for grapes to be sour enough for me to not to hurt bad bad bad
#but it takes away a little bit of the grief
#as does the fact that a friend has the kindness to try and comfort me like that
#mensch behavior
#I have othr things to look forward to this was just high stakes you know
#not a lot of chances. dependent on others to provide chances. autistic hyperfixation on little scraps of the score
#most passionate out of anyone who auditioned for sure
#and I'm not even bad
#I fucked up at callbacks a little but I was hoping they wouldn't be insane about it
#but holding my breath until I could get the relief of knowing I was in
#which would also have been incredible news in other ways too––being in any show has been a long-term goal and I would be like okay I've hit
#that milestoone and should actually invest in a headshot
#but I guess not!!!!!!
#going to try and not be angry at myself though
#I'm good and will throw myself into my work
#which I have much to do of and talent to apply to
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