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a-tuath · 6 years

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Solo || OOC

This is an OUT OF CHARACTER challenge. In this challenge, you are to write about the similarities and differences between you and your character.

Disclaimer: There is a lot of things I realized about this challenge, like literally I have never felt something this deep before in regards to RP’ing, so I’m having hard time on how to do this without looking bad lol. This is such a challenging, well challenge. But I’m definitely having fun with trying to find ways on how to answer this lol.

She’s totes beautiful and ... I’m well, me.

Kidding aside.

I took a few personality tests, because I’m honestly out of words on how to just describe it haha and a few other personal stuff once I get the hang of it.

She’s a really strong character. She’s the queen how could she not be strong in the face of adversity? I would have balked if I were in Arain, or taken refuge in a really really sad and desolate place. She has more worth in her pinky finger than my whole existence tbh. Or at least that’s how I see or play her. Every time I read one of her paras or other people’s paras, the fact that I play Aibell gives me strength to work things out properly because I’m such a wuss in real life. It would have been fun if Aibell had a sadder life than me, and I play someone whom I can find that fun in playing. Sadly, I have a sadder life than Aibell, personal wise. No my sister didn’t turn out to be evil incarnate and want to kill me, but I did/do want to kill myself, and that personal haunt is harder. I play Aibell, because I find security, a sort of ledge I hold on to when I’m feeling low. I play Aibell for confidence and to develop ooc and ic connections I don’t really well... embarrassingly so, in RL. Yes. I am such a hermit tbh, but when duty calls (like in my case here, plotting and so) I’m game for game and I mean it when I want to plot with anyone whether it’s a sneeze or a murder. Aibell is more likely to be chill during parties and such, because well, she’s the queen, she didn’t get there just by hitting the books. Adversity makes her stronger.

She exudes confidence. Aibell is beauty, grace and will slap you in the face. anywhere else is for naughty tendencies. She is an idealist in her downtime, but a very different person when on the throne / in court, where with Seelie, duty matters. There is a distinct difference in her personalities when in those two modes. She will tell you if you offend her, and will take action for that. I will hide my feelings and eat them and vomit them and eat them again just because I don’t want anyone to see them, vomit because it’s sometimes not easy to hide things and sadness and emotions get out. Just like her though, I prefer to be unbiased and pragmatic when it comes to duties and needs, and only chill when I’m not under spotlight to do things. Unfortunately for her, she is always on guard, things she do or say will affect her whether as collateral or direct. Wherein, depending on the subject, I can just let things go, bec I’m either lazy or not caring if I get affected, for her, she can’t. Things has to go her way. Every single thing must be in details and the means must justify the end. Even if the ending everything would be fine, and she is aware of that, Aibell would rather pull out her beautiful hair than let herself be complacent. I would pull my hair too if I was a queen, but I’m not though, I wouldn’t mind, you know?

Both of our personalities stem from the fact that we need to be better, me because my family told me to be, this was very draining because I had to be someone I’m not, but I was “nurtured” to be. Her, because she was driven by her own ambitions, as what is in her “nature” to be. This is why as I grew up I tend to now be lax since my family doesn’t have much of a hold on me compared to Aibell where she’s the only one who can find her own way to relax. I have more heart than her, I believe she has that too, but age, and experience change things.

Lastly. Aibell keeps everything in check. Because anything / too much / is out of the range of duty and becomes a passion for her. She has always tried too hard to be of Seelie that passion in a good (love) or bad (hate) eats her inside out. Though most times, she is able to control herself. I am too much of a passionate person, and before I even get a concrete way to do things I’ve already exhausted myself out. hahaha In which overthinking despite normal for both of us, she can handle it well. I can’t... even. Lol There’s probably a lot more, but I’m not really sure how to place them here now. When this challenge came out I was already starting on my drafts, but I couldn’t go past “She’s beautiful and I’m not”. I guess I had to work out on my insecurities and so on before I could write this down.

For information on personalities and so on;

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To find more info on the tests click on their names :) Aibell is Bolded / I am italicized MBTI / 16 Personalities: ISTJ - A|| INFP/J - T

I, Introvert.

S/N is Sensing / iNtuition.

T/F Thinking / Feelings

P/J is Perceiving / Judging.

The extra A and T is for Assertive and Turbulent

Enneagram: High on Type 1 w/ slight 3 and 8 || Type 6 or Type 4

1 is for Reformer (Perfectionists / Responsible) / Fixated on Improvement

3 is the Achiever (Focused on the presentation of success, to attain validation)

8 is the Challenger (Taking charge, because they don't want to be controlled)

6 is the Loyalist (Conflicted between trust and distrust) / (Security)

4 is the Individualist (Identity seekers, who feel unique and different)

5 Big Types (Ocean): Highest in O, then C, moderate on E/ A and lowest on N || Highest on O / N /. Moderate on C /A. Low on E

O is Open in Experience (Openness describes a person’s tendency to think in abstract, complex ways)

C (Conscientiousness describes a person’s ability to exercise self-discipline and control in order to pursue their goals. High scorers are organized and determined, and are able to forego immediate gratification for the sake of long-term achievement.)

E i(Extraversion describes a person’s inclination to seek stimulation from the outside world, especially in the form of attention from other people.)

A (Agreeableness describes a person’s tendency to put others’ needs ahead of their own, and to cooperate rather than compete with others.)

N (Neuroticism describes a person’s tendency to experience negative emotions, including fear, sadness, anxiety, guilt, and shame)

#is being a lousy shit tw?#tw suicide #then i guess that works #crumbchallenge #actually should be suicidal #this challenge makes me feel things but not bad just really sad #but in total i like making it #Shoutout to Cait for doing this challenge its a big big thing

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themanicgalaxy · 3 years

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SPN 5X19 Hammer of the Gods

dear LORD I ate too much

ok we're back on track whee

oho creepy plant

this poor guys is DEAD

oh it's an angel?

ooo a nice motel?

boy they look so wrecked haha

ah the PIE

there's something off here, right?

RIGHT?

Sam's not sleeping either oof

"night off" uh are YOU SURE aBOUT THAT

"I'm young at heart" HAHA

well that was quite the THUNK

"the elysian fields" wait

right so they're greek

basically a nice garden, it's like the afterlife

this feels like that one hotel in percy jackson

the same nick as Dean hm

heh the disappearing elephant

ah of course she's evil

~you can check out anytime you like BUT YOU CAN NEVER LEAVE~~

"please be tomato soup" *sees eyeballs*

the unison grimace was fun

ah yes the ages old "somebody behind me"

oh lovely it's gods

there's NO Way this goes poorly

"gods?" AHAH

oh yeah you're screwed

ah they don't want the apocalypse either, because they get fucked over too

THEY ARGUE OVER WHO'S APOCALYPSE IS RIGHT AHAHAHA

that was a good effort guys

you try reasoning with angels just try it

GABRIEL!!!

HE SHUTS THEM UP SO HE CAN DO THE TALKING I LOVE HIM

Baldur..OH THE GUY HE KILLED

THEY'RE SO SHOOKEN UP OH MY GOD AHAHA

AHAHAAH

Gabriel is such a little shit

him and Dean are fun

"I don't care" ha sure

OH WAIT T H A T ' S KALI?? THAT'S THE KALI FROM THE FANFICS??

KALI THE D E S T R O Y E R ?

yeah ok no she's SO hot

ah he's trying to save her

ooo LEVERAGE

boy they're so chill with him

aw Gabe gets his romance

ah she got him Damn

the GHOSTFACERS? WHAT THE F UC CK?

is this..Gabriel processing? what the fuck?

WHAT THE FUCK WAS THIS W H A T

WAS IT AN ACTUAL CW AD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE EPISODE?

Gabriel...oh god ur so screwed

all of you are so screwed

"you're the youngest religion, what do you mean you're tearing the world apart"

NO GABRIEL NO

SAM IS PANICKING TOO

yeah this is clearly supposed to be the end

ah summon into the vessel and then kill ok

hey at least he got them out

GABRIEL!! HE'S ALIVE

I am way too attached to this fucker

GABRIEL AND DEAN! SAME COPING MECHANISMS!

"they're your family" o p e

oh there's lucifer

boy he does NOT Look good

...of course he doesn't like the pagans

jesus christ Lucifer is actually iNCREDIBLY THREATENING

rights are taken not given huh

oh jesus Baldur's fucking dead

KALI! FIRE POWER!

GABRIEL

L U C Y

I love squad

you puritanical BASTARD

"I love you but BOY DO YOU SUCK"

..that'S DEAN'S LINE HOLY SHIT

the "they're flawed but a lot of them try to do better instead of covering it up" is SO COOL

"I'm loyal to people" YES GET EM GABRIEL

"don't make me do this" "no one makes us do anything"

no NO NO COME ON NOT AGAIN

NO THE WINGS

no THAT MEANS IT WORKED NO BUT HE COMES BACK?

THERE ARE FIVE MORE MINUTES LEFT?

oh it's Gabriel's recorded DVD version

w h y

he hid it

"if you're watching this I'm dead" and it doesn't even feel like that cliche

THE RINGS A H

he gives them the intel

THEIR FACES

pestilence and death huh

Death's the big boss so it's pestilence next

new flu virus huh

yeah this one isn't gonna be pretty huh

e w

his license plate is sick n tired

lovely

1. GABRIEL and Dean! Ok so I feel like they have similar responses to family, or something like that. Like Dean's a lot better at understanding the dealing with complicated relationships with family members, and both mask it with jokes and they both care about a lot of people but are bad at expressing it. Like ok, back to Dean's charisma. He's got like...no social skills, but he has faith in...people? the concept of family? and that wins people over. It got Gabriel to repeat the words and stand up to his family at least. (also yeah could be lazy writing but I feel like they're written to be similar on purpose?)

2. religions. Ok yeah, I feel like there's something to be said about the other religions, and about how judeo-christianity kinda tried to take everything over, and how there's a lot of stuff still there. Hell, you can make everything a Tulpa and say that they're no longer as believed in so that's why they're so weak. And they clung to the vestiges of their power, while the other guys managed to get ahold of power and Spread.

...huh that "take power" line really escalates huh.

3. I feel like siblings in there. Like that idea of "I love you but you SUCK." the sibling bickering, the "grow up." like...I don't know, that death scene was painful, and a lot of it feels(is) sibling rivalry. Like that's what pushed the angels to this, but since they refuse to accept that they can get better, they never change. I think that was Gabriel's point.

4. something about the horsemen. Like this is just a classic Chekov's gun thing, but also the way they've stylized every horseman is...like Very Supernatural, but it's interesting. Like it's very clear what they're doing and I can even see the good omens inspiration(red vehicle for War is the best example) but it's interesting to see how the vibe of the show impacts their visual style. Because they're there to be antagonists and not much else, so it's vibe we go for I think.

5. GABRIEL. I LOVE THIS CHARACTER! TRICKSTER ARCHETYPE THAT KEEPS RUNNING AWAY! HE HAS ALL THESE IDENTITIES! HE EVENTUALLY EMBRACES THE OTHERS BECAUSE THEY TRY AND CHANGE AND ADAPT! HE STANDS UP TO HIS BROTHER! TELLS HIM TO GROW UP! TELLS SAM AND DEAN INTEL AND GIVES THEM A CLEAR GOAL TO FOLLOW THE REST OF THE SEASON WHEN THEY HAD NO PURPOSE! GODDAMN I L O V E GABRIEL!

6. The way they weren't able to deal with the pagans at ALL, and how they panicked, and the cool as hell visuals with the name tags. God I want more pagan imagery, that shit was COOL, and it makes sense! all these different cultures in America, where are the pagans? and then of course they got taken over because apocalypse

also funny, this episode was funny

actually

7. you can tell this was the planned final season. Gabriel dying, the pagans being introduced to establish stakes, the just...sheer...done-ness of the characters. Everything's being wrapped up in it's own way. Also, it makes me sad we didn't get any before this. There's so much stuff there.

EDIT: OK I FIGURED OUT WHAT I WAS TRYING TO SAY WITH THE PAGANS!

Other than like…the same reason for Dean and Sam, and then ig cas but that’s mostly daddy issues, we don’t have any non nebulous ideas as to why apocalypse bad. We see all the angels give their two cents, and all with varying degrees of belief in that cause(or just going absolutely batshit), and then here we had the pagans(and Gabriel) giving clear, tangible reasons as to why not, they had their own two cents to give, and they were their own form of compelling/washed up. Like…one of them! Maybe kali shows back up again! They were a new perspective, that clearly said no apocalypse, like Gabriel but slightly not! It would have been cool!! They had an interesting plot that ties in with the themes of abandonment, and there wasn’t enough in there! More Gabriel and the pagans would have been Epic!!

This is incoherent I'm sorry

#pawswatchesspn #5x19 hammer of the gods #the gist is there is so much cool shit here they could have done with pagans #and also with gabriel #and the realization that I think Gabriel is my favorite character #Gabriel and Bela #don't read into that

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