#penelope is the grey in an otherwise colorful photo. solavida is the colors in an otherwise lightless one.

[depresseddepot]

I'm chewing on the walls bc my dm hasn't seen my question about my character's backstory yet and I am trying SO HARD to keep myself on the rails and not run off with something I'm not even allowed to do yet

#also. i didn't expect my 4e AND 5e characters to both be gothic but here we are #shadar kai penelope still 🤝 (hopefully) haunted one solavida greycastle #anyways uwu even if i can't do haunted one the vibes are still there (solavida just wont have a cool ghost haunting which i want very badly) #she's a gothic movie heroine with full plate armor and a warhammer and she can see in the DARK bitch!!! #anyway im a lil disappointed bc i couldn't play tabby (we're sticking with basic racial modifiers so no tashas this time) BUT #as per usual i find one or two songs that get me vibed for the character and all of a sudden i love them with my whole heart #oddly enough for BOTH characters its a mountain goats song and a metal song back to back lmfao #for penelope it was heretic and kickstart my heart #for solavida its broom people and we're not gonna take it #both playlists have love love love and this year for emotional support reasons to beat back the anxiety but. my playlist shall grow slowly #edit: i listened to broom people about 40 times in a row. idk if im going to make it to sunday yall #solavida greycastle my absolute beloved. i would die for you and you would never let it happen #penelope would be so ridiculously attracted to solavida and vida would just think penelope was obnoxious lmfao #also i didn't even realize this but they're like. opposites in terms of aesthetics #penelope represents the sun when it rises and solavida represents the sun when it sets #penelope comes from a life of eternal night and revels in the sun #solavida comes from a sunny countryside by the ocean and purposefully traveled inwards to face the dark and the unknown #penelope is the grey in an otherwise colorful photo. solavida is the colors in an otherwise lightless one. #UGH. THEM