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meanwhile I can’t stop holding grudges or let go of feelings. I don’t want to cooperate with people and I don’t sit and talk to them. Instead I distract myself with my phone or mindless topics

#rymacore

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I don’t believe in astrology but aquariuses are never normal!! and geminis are not to be trusted

#rymacore

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time to make unfounded and possibly unhinged predictions of the future

#rymacore

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i am unwell 🐣

#rymacore

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vixx seems to be going thru a seven year curse or smt since scentist lol. unlike some of their more delusional stans with parasocial attachments to the ex-members, i don’t mind the smaller lineup but I still hav to admit the recent music doesn’t hit the same partially because the contrast of different vocal tones isn’t there as much. and it’s also harder ofc when the remaining members are doing 2x work.

#rymacore

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everyone swears up and down their fav idol is about to release the most revolutionary rnb infused record of the year and has whitney houston level vocals godlike stage presence and dance ability and is also angelina jolie’s twin

#rymacore

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saw a post about dating on here and how people put romantic relationships on a pedestal. it’s a good post. but also I realized my specific background means that my views on dating are on another plane of existence entirely in which convincing elders that dating is in fact not the society-crumbling bane of our existences and that holding hands will not cause a divine collapse means that I really couldn’t relate to that post in the first place. Relationships are not a priority or on any pedestal at all because they were never an option in the first place lol.

#rymacore

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it’s so sad that I was in like 4th grade when all the best kpop groups were at their peak

#jealous of the people who grew up with them frrrr. #rymacore

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just now really learning about the burning sun scandal and wow all men do is protect other men

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theater dance scene in Joyland (2022), dir. Saim Sadiq

#rymacore #flashing lights cw #photosensitivity warning #biba #joyland 2022 #south asian cinema #lgbt film #vid

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hopped into the Uber and the white lady changed the song selection from like rock or metal to Bollywood soundtrack and t series music nigh immediately… what does this mean

#rymacore

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am i just missing smth or does the main romance in castaway diva feel lacking in the development/chemistry department…

#smth about it felt sorta contrived #also the ceo plot. booo i wanted to throw my shoe at him #castaway diva #rymacore

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also parents are so funny cuz they will help instill the religious shame in you about sexuality and even standing next to a dude and then on top of that have a misogyny 101 marriage and then ask why I don’t care about getting married. well first of all I’ve never stood next to a dude without feeling like there’s a black void in my brain and second of all I’ve never liked doing that either

#rymacore

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and I keep thinking about what I will do in the future. I don’t want to be lonely. Sometimes I do worry about the who will take care of you when you’re older. And I don’t dislike kids kinda the opposite but I’m probably not fit to raise one. Also it’s usually impossible to have a kid without it coming from somewhere so usually a dude is involved but I don’t really want that (also adoption/surrogacy/donors are such weird industries). Oh wait i just had the thought to get with a guy then have a kid then immediately divorce get full custody and a restraining order. But that’s probably more of a symptom of my mental illness

#rymacore

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honestly my deepest wish is to feel like someone’s proud of me even if it’s just myself. but I also know that the reason I’m struggling to feel like I achieve anything is because of my own decisions. I could blame it on any number of reasons but the truth is I probably am addicted to my phone or social media or whatever and I myself don’t make the time to do things

#rymacore

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I wish I could be like charismatic or likeable or at least talkative but I think that every time I say smth it gets worse or I scare people off

#rymacore