#skin and so my chin is just really red and flaky and quite frankly ugly as fuck. just in time for the holidays when I do sort of want to

[guhhhhhhhhhhh]

I am going to make it thru this week even if it kills me I am GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH THIS WEEK REALLY IM going to make it through this week

#when Dean Martin said I can't remember a worse December' in that one Christmas song.... he really gets it #this entire month has had me in such a strong chokehold that it's fucking with my BODY like new grey hair serious hormonal acne #breakthrough bleeding (literally the same day that I told my doctor my new birth control was going great and I hadn't had any) #like #between political stressors. the ceiling inexplicably leaking in my bedroom. having to do all the middleman work between the maintenance man #and the people who live above me to get it fixed #and ordering three (3) things to be shipped to my apartment only for the USPS to decide that I don't actually live here??? and send ALLL OF #THE PACKAGES BACK TO WHERE THEY CAME FROM and having to communicated with 3 different customer service people each one with increasing diffi #difficulty to get the things shipped BACK to me only for one to arrive and be shipped BACK AGAIN !!!A-FUCKING-GAIN because they have the #AUDACITY to say that my unit is vacant?????? despite the fact they actually managed to get one if he other three things delivered to me #earlier in the same week and I left a handwritten note on the mailbox for my unit saying that I really do live there and pls stop fucking #with my mail you're driving me crazy mr mailman #and now having to upend my entire bedroom and put away. cover or hide all my stuff so it doesn't get covered in drywall dust while they fix #the water damage on my wall with no idea or conception of how long it will take for them to be done #AND #the stuff I used to treat the hormonal acne breakout on my chin has helped the cystic acne calm down but has ALSO severely fucked up my s #skin and so my chin is just really red and flaky and quite frankly ugly as fuck. just in time for the holidays when I do sort of want to #look cute for my familly and have some minute bit of self confidence but noooooo I can't have that #I feel horrible for whatever poor postal worker is going to have to hear about my mail issues because I used up all my paitience dealing #with the maintenance man and I really don't think I have much professionality and tact left in me #I understand that all these issues on their own are pretty minor but collectively they're really fucking wearing on me #I feel like im forgetting one #maybe it's when someone tried to switch the utilities for my apartment into their name not once but TWICE #but I feel like there was something else #oh wait yeah also my lil Christmas party with friends was supposed to happened but got cancelled bc one of my friends has Covid :)) #and I DO work with her and I HAVE seen her all week and the way my luck is going I'll probably end up with Covid for christmss #aaaaaand my OTHER friends birthday celebration was supposed to be the next day but that got cancelled TOO because of The 'Vid #so all I did was stay in the house all weekend grind on Christmas gifts get high/drunk and watch movies #which.... not bad but I do miss my friends #and I'm sad that they're sick right before the holidays like that has to suck so much