#so he just screams at you instead.

[s0fter-sin]

something happening on a mission, something personal that has soap spiralling; panic and rage making him reckless, thoughtless, and ghost has to draw the line

“you’re compromised johnny; you know what that means?”

“you’re not pulling me out,” soap immediately snarls. he turns on him and ghost barely recognises him; venomous fear turning his eyes to unyielding ice. "you're not sidelining me; i need to be in this-!"

but ghost has never been afraid of venom; spat or dripped straight from bared fangs.

he snakes out a hand grip the back of his neck, jerking him in a rough shake. "if you can't think, you can't be a soldier," he growls and he flinches like he's been struck.

his lips quiver as they twist in a sneer and he wrenches, trying to free himself of his hold.

ghost doesn't let him.

"it means you give your body to me because your head ain't fucking attached to it anymore."

soap stills, body trembling beneath his hand as he sucks in shaking breaths.

he tightens his grip, pulling him closer and digs his forehead hard into his. “it means you give yourself to me so i can have the weapon that you are and use you the way you're meant to be used."

the ice in soap's eyes fractures.

ghost’s voice drops to a whisper, spoken only to johnny, not this facade of vengeance and pain, and wills it to reach him through the glaciers.

“so i can keep you safe ‘til it’s done and i can bring you back.”

#in my head its bc graves abducts his sister and is using her as hostage to draw him out knowing ghost will always follow him #but the intensity and intimacy of saying ‘you cant trust your mind not to betray you so let me be in charge of your body until you can’ #after what happened to tommy he could never deny johnny his right to save his sister #but its bc of what happened to tommy that he knows he cant let him do it alone with only his rage to guide him #hes more likely to get himself killed and ghost wont live through that #so he has to balance it #and the only way he knows how is to completely shut down soap’s mind until hes no more than instinct and muscle memory #if he cant think practically then dont let him think at all #reduce him to a place where he can only follow orders #and when its finally over and his sister is safe and graves is dead #only then will he drag johnny back up to the surface #he’ll do it even if it means dragging him kicking and screaming back to humanity #instead of letting him sink in the depths where nothing hurts. theres no fear down there. no pain. only order #and thats the risk ghost took sending johnny to that place but he only did it bc he would stop at nothing to bring him back #and help him through the after #the breakdown. the rush of panic and rage and relief and anguish johnnys been supressing on his order #it was his word that turned johnny into a ghost #and its his touch that brings him back to the man #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #cod #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghost x soap #ghoap #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod

[queenerdloser]

i just finished dark heir

#me foaming at the mouth during the last chapters: HE IS! FUCKING! SAVING YOU! #i am huddled around will kempen hissing like a mama cat none of these fuckers are allowed to look at him #dark rise #okay but like. cyrian at literally every moment in the book you see will anticipating things and making connections #that you never make. doing things like a leader & being fucking smart and strategic. and your dumb ass really thought. #hm. must mean i shouldnt listen to him about the magic staff that can literally stop the end of the world. must be evil. #me: [screams into the abyss] #i know i cant expect characters to react like readers and they DID all react like i knew they would but god it was so infuriating!!!!! #and heart breaking! god!!!! god!!!!! will reliving his mother's initial betrayal over and over and OVER again #and thinking about all the little moments we get where the novel tells us: if these 'evil' characters had just been accepted #instead of tossed aside maybe they wouldnt have fallen. if they had been protected instead of killed maybe they would have #become protectors instead of killers. maybe if will's mom hadn't tried to butcher him for the sin of his own birth #he wouldn't have been so scared to tell people he lied to them. #anyway im not normal about will kempen and if book 3 doesnt give me his friends fucking accepting him i'll kill someone #me looking directly at visander: i dont care how charming you are i'll murder your ass about it #i read this book in like 5 hrs im being very normal about it

[miekasa]

gojo’s son calling him baby because he heard gojo calling you that. precious

HHHH I KNOW :(( Satoru always encourages infant babbling (speaks animatedly and listens with the same enthusiasm even when it’s just incoherent noises), and the kid has taken to incorporating some key phrases into his vocabulary—learning to ask for more when he’s hungry, asking for his dad to keep playing with him, saying “thank you” and “i love you” (Satoru’s personal favorite, because his L’s do sound a little like W’s and he coos every time)—but he’s also picking up on things you and Satoru say to eachother. So, it’s only natural that hearing his parents refer to each other as “baby,” makes the toddler believe that that’s a normal part of speech he can start saying.

The first time it happens, Satoru is coming back from work. He can hear giggling in the kitchen, and when he makes his way there he’s greeted with the sight of his son in his high-chair clapping happily as you scoop some of his dinner onto his plate. Satoru reaches to you first, and arm curling around your waist and his lips pressing to your cheek. You’re about to return the greeting when the words are spoken for you, a high-pitched and excited squeal from your toddler in place of your own voice, “Home, baby!” Satoru pauses and blinks, pointing a finger at his chest and observing as his son only grins wider, making grabby hands for his father. He repeats the phrase again, this time attempting a broken syllable version of the word “welcome,” that makes Satoru’s heart swell three sizes. He’s quick to scoop his son right out of the chair, twirl him around and press kisses to his cheek, “Missed you so much, too, baby!”

First it’s you and Satoru that get called baby as greetings, but soon it extends to other people. When Megumi comes over to babysit the following week, he’s met with excited squeals and raised arms (demands to be picked up), before his cheeks are squished between baby-sized palms and he’s formally greeted with, “Hi, baby!” The look on Megumi’s face is priceless—slightly red and embarrassed, but beyond fond—and he gives the kid a gentle pat on the head before telling him he missed him, too. When it’s time for Megumi to return home for the evening, he gets soft hugs and tired yawns, the words “Bye, Memi. Night, baby,” barely getting out.

Your son is a fast learner, it seems. He quickly realizes he can use the word outside of greetings and goodbyes, and tries it out with his uncle Nanamin the next time he’s over at his house. Nanami is leaning over the counter, watching carefully as the toddler eats his lunch. He reaches over to wipe some smeared tomato away from his mouth as he’s finishing up his food, and that’s when the baby grins at him, looking his uncle (godfather, really, but he doesn’t know that yet), right in the eye before saying, “Thank you, baby.” Kento only smiles softly, continuing to gently wipe down his cheeks, before cradling his head and musing, “You’re more than welcome.”

You and Satoru debate which one of you he’s been picking this up from. You think the obvious choice is your husband—Satoru’s always been the more affectionate one, and pet names comes easy to him. He argues that your son gets it from you, and that he listens more carefully to his mom. Your theory is proven correct when your son is curled up in your lap shortly after dinner time, hands reaching to be held against your chest and rocked to sleep. You think he’s finally dozing off when you hear a small, and tired, “‘Night, my baby,” from your toddler’s lips. You look up to Satoru, who grins, leaning down to kiss the top of his son’s head and then your forehead. He takes after this father, without a doubt; because while every body else was baby, only your boys had the honor of refer to your as their baby.

#anonymous #no no it’s fine i’m fine…. i’m FINE #everyone is baby because that’s just how he thinks the world works… he thinks everyone gets the same affection…. kids r so fucking precious #im sorry for this essay..:. but as you can tell i have real life genuine feelings for this man #hhhhh SCREAMING. CRYING. PERFECT STORM. #ok but i was saying this the other day gojo gets lucky his kid starts saying ‘baby’ #nanami & levi get stuck w their kids learning their actual names LMFAOOO levi is like no no. please PLEASE #it only happens w ur second kid that’s why nanami is so confused but when he hears his baby girl call him ‘ken!’ instead of ‘daddy’ #lord he might cry real grown man tears LMFAO #i guess i might as well make a tag for him #gojo x reader #satoru.ask

[toubledrouble]

You know what we should bring back?

Older christianity. I mean the anti government, anti military, community based christianity. The one that cared the most about peace, equality, mercy, kindness, and radical love. The one with shared property. The one that didn't conform to society but instead existed mostly outside of it. The one where noone considered one sin worse than another because in the end, we are all sinners trying our best to be better.

#“progressive christians are ignoring the bible except for ”love thy neighbour“” #yeah well LOVE OVER VERSES #quit it. im tired of this. just. can we just be nice to everyone?? please?? peace and love on planet earth?? #“being gay is a sin tho” “wow this is so immodest” do i look like i care? does jesus look like he cares? i dont think so. #go stab out your eye or smth if you wanna live by the law so badly huh??? #funny how suddenly it isnt literal and shouldnt be done because humanity learned and grew since that was written #*points to the verses used to justify homophobia* i mean literally this whole concept changed since then it isnt even the same thing #screaming at the top of my lungs while punching the wall like please please dont cherry pick the bible #“*blank* is a sin” do you like seafood tho?? is your clothing from mixed fabrics?? did you shave?? #im just saying that maybe you should let the spirit guide you instead of following the law blindly. what do i know tho. im just a stranger. #queer christian #progressive christianity #i guess?? #my religious rants #leftist christianity? anarchist christianity? i do not know??

[bookrat]

Pretty sure my little man has a case of abundism affecting the marble tabby coat under all those white splotches

#random pet post #it really is a weird coat pattern #I'm never sure if I should describe him accurately as a white marked tabby or as the first impression people get of a black and white cat #love his little backward C's #I got all my other pets around the same time and they've been dying off one by one this last year or so #I'm down to just this 4yo kit and Bruiser #actually I'm not done whispering in the tags #pretty soon it's just gonna be me and this terrible little man against the world #and he gives me such weird problems you cannot even begin to imagine #took to the leash and harness without a bit of difficulty but I can't take him anywhere cuz he freaks out about people 500ft away #really difficult to find sitters for him cuz he gets so stressed about changes and waits until 3am to SCREAM #he's 17 lbs and wants to sleep on my chest 14 hours a day #took him on a work trip a week or 2 ago cuz of aforementioned petsitting troubles and some kind of wire got crossed #so instead of stress peeing in my laundry basket he now humps the nearest blanket covered limb to alert me of problems #he got scared of his water dish recently and is only now starting to get over it after 3 weeks of drama #he knocked it over last night and humped my leg while I tried to sleep to try and convey to me that he was thirsty #I'm thinking of getting a second cat and just fucking hoping that it'll be normal and maybe Prompto can target it for some of his weirdness

[abushelandablog]

I just realized that max could have gone to congratulate charles first but he went after the argument with george, charles calmed him down…. he left with a SMILE…

#charles marc herve perceval leclerc is maxemilian verstappens safe space #just #*sharp exhale* #like the implications of this #max knew he was getting worked up and he just #barreled towards charles and charles was there and must have seen max and the wink was like a comfort (and a flirtation bc whore™️ #but just #just us two vs the world #i hate everyone but you trope fr #anyways i am spiraling and have so much thoughts but im just gonna scream instead bc im inarticulate #max verstappen #charles leclerc #max x charles #lestappen #baku #f1 #otp: just an incident

[gunsatthaphan]

🫠🫠🫠.

#only friends #only friends series #firstkhao #forcebook #neomark #lookjun bhasidi #gmmtv #PLEASE TELL ME YO’S BAR IS NOT CALLED YOLO #hdjdhdjdh #I’m screaming #they all mean so much to me #you don’t understand #��😩😩 #also with every picture I see of San I feel so bad for him #he just seems like a poor innocent boy who loves music and wants to be Ray’s boyfie #and instead he gets dragged into the ray-mew-top-boston clusterfuck from hell lmao #it’s okay my sweet boy 🥺 #you’ll find love I promise #I hope #lmao

[tennant-davids]

ROSWELL, NEW MEXICO 4x11 Follow You Down

I think I’m dying.

#malex #roswell new mexico #rnmedit #malexedit #roswellnmsource #roswellnmedit #rnm #cinematv #cinemapix #chewieblog #*laurengifs #obsessed with how vlamis plays michael for this #like he's so understated here and i'm like blown away by how moving it is #like michael is so explosive and reactionary but this is just utterly despairing and hopeless and...... i love it #just wanna scream about it all day but i don't have anyone that will listen lmao #so you get gifsets instead

[spinjitsuburst]

I am of course once again thinking about how much it sucks that the Fire Chapter of s11 was supposed to be Kai centric when it really wasn’t and barely had anything to do with him at all and Kai hasn’t had a proper season since s7

But nothing makes me laugh harder than the irony of it being Kai’s half of the season and the most significant thing that happens is that he gets thrown against walls and knocked unconscious for a good part of it

#he also loses his powers but it’s funnier to just think of all the time he gets fuckin THROWN #this poor man #he’s doing his best #the ninja are all adults by this point which is the funniest detail #Lloyd: let’s settle this like adults #the ninja the entire rest of the season until ice chapter: ACT LIKE ACTUAL TODDLERS #I love them #also it’s 4am hi #cant sleepy so I’m thinking about ninjago instead #as you do #kai #secrets of the forbidden spinjitsu #ninjago #ninjago s11 #spinjitsu screams #Kai smith #Kai jiang

[ghost-bxrd]

I absolutely adore your writing and I can’t wait for the next chapter of “What You’re Longing For You Claim To Abhor” to drop 😭😭 your prompts are always amazing I wish there were more fics

Aweee thank you so much 💚💚💚

And I’ll do my best to get the last chapter out on Sunday at the latest ✨ I’ve got a good portion of it written already, but Jason just doesn’t. Want. To go. Home. And at this point even I am screaming at him 😩😭😂

#ghost talks #what you’re longing for you claim to abhor #don’t you just hate it when your charas suddenly get a life of their own #and you’re just kind of screaming at them to listen and do as you say #but they’re like haha lol nope what if I did THIS instead #and then you gotta roll for it #at this point we’ve got Jason telling everyone to shoot the bats #yes including Tim #so the situation is heated to say the least #poor boy’s hurting himself with this #he’s rather chew off a leg than hurt Tim #but he’s gotta look tough what can you do #jason todd #batfamily #dick grayson #batfam #bruce wayne #robin #tim drake #red hood #batman

[iwasbored777]

It's so sad that so many Swifties feel the urge to apologize for being in the fandom like "I'm so sorry but I can't help but love her" like ok???? As if all Swifties are bad. And then have to explain how they're not toxic unlike some other Swifties. There are toxic people in every single fandom and you don't have to explain yourself to anyone if you're just enjoying something as long as you're not harassing someone who doesn't. I don't think I should apologize to anyone for things I like cuz that's nobody else's business. And if they think that I, after we were friends for years, will bite their heads off because they don't like someone's music then it's their thing, they're free to leave if they don't feel comfortable but I'm not gonna do anything to them.

And those who harass someone else for enjoying something that they don't are equally bad. Let's not pretend that it's normal to be cyber bullied just because you reblog gifs of your favourite pop star.

#no I'm not going to scream at you if you say you don't like her music lol I'm a grown up and I never did this as a kid either #i had a friend who was genuinely surprised that i was his friend after he said that he doesn't like tay tay #there are so many nice swifties and i never met any toxic one #but i know there are some of them just like in every fandom there are crazy people and that's just how it is #so stay away from crazy people instead of making fun of normal ones #Taylor swift #swifties #all swifties i met were so nice to me even before they knew i was in the fandom

[tanjir0se]

Cute things either Kyojuro or Giyuu did on their first date (that neither of them realized was a date)

🔥Showed up precisely on time to pick him up

🔥Like, down to the second. Has no concept of fashionably late. Stood there staring at his watch until it was time.

🌊Couldn’t eat or do anything all day besides stand around/pace where they were supposed to meet because of nervousness, meaning he technically showed up several hours early 

🔥Offered his arm for Giyuu to take hold of while they walked completely out of habit, realized what he’d done, and awkwardly rubbed his pant leg instead.

🌊Let Kyojuro order for him at the udon shop, failed to mention he can’t handle spicy food, too embarrassed to say anything, proceeded to clean his plate despite likely causing himself internal bleeding

🔥Went to Mitsuri for advice on how to flirt beforehand but kept chickening out halfway through the lines. Ex: *while gazing at Giyuu* “it’s a lovely night out tonight……I mean. No it isn’t. It’s a perfectly average non-adorable and non handsome night.”

🌊Put his hand just barely over Kyojuro’s while sitting side by side on a bench, completely by accident, but then entered a heated internal debate on whether or not he should move it a la Light from death note (“oh god that’s his hand whoops I should pull back wait if I pull back is it obvious that I’m nervous about touching his hand?? Maybe I should keep it there but wait if I keep it there is it obvious I want to hold his hand??? Ok definitely move it bUT WAIT—“)

#YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT DAY IT IS BAAAAABES #kny #rengiyuu #biting. screaming. THEMMMMM #this is part of my ‘Giyuu almost dies so Kyo tries to tell him how he feels but panics and asks him to meet his brother instead’ fic #poor senjuro just watching their nonsense #also Giyuu and senjuro are immediately besties #Giyuu says like 8 words to him the whole time BUT immediately makes a mental list of books to bring senjuro bc he learns he likes to read #Djnfkdkddk anyway #they’re so cute and I’m love them your honor

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

One thought I'm having right now is about just how often the study group calls Abed a robot or a computer. And how he even starts calling himself that. Like I don't think he believes that at all, but when you've heard something be said to you so many times, eventually you're gonna end up repeating it. And maybe even start believing the words to a certain level. Like poor Abed, who has spent his entire life watching movies and TV in an attempt to study people and how they're like, so he can understand what others do and think and feel. So he can talk to them and try to connect with them like everyone else does. Abed who has spent his life trying so hard only for it to never be enough, to the point where he eventually just gave up trying and started being himself despite how many times his friends and family call him not normal or a robot.

And then, when he's himself, there's finally someone who gets him. Maybe not fully, but there's a small group of people that try and there's Troy who actually kinda understands him. And that's got to be the best thing ever. And there's still comments on how different he is, but there's one person who doesn't believe that.

And I fully believe that Abed eventually had enough of all these comments. Remember the episode where the dean calls him special and Abed does this whole scene about bad writing in detective shows and making the main character autistic. He's been called so many things and here it goes again, and so he just says that. He puts this whole speech on being treated differently and then leaves because that's enough already.

Because people are saying he's all these things and he doesn't have empathy, and etc etc. Even though it's so obvious that he cares. It's just not always shown in the same way that the others do. And people call him weird, to the point where he calls himself weird. People say all these things about him that he fully wholeheartedly starts believing when, at the end of the day, all he's ever wanted was to be understood. To be heard and to not have to be alone. After all, is that not the most human thing out there? We all want people who get us. We all want to fit in and not have to face the world alone. He's just as human as everyone else, but he's the only one that doesn't get that same treatment.

#It's almost midnight; I should be going to sleep but I am instead plagued by this #I just started thinking about how he's probably the most relatable character out there to me and this all happened #and I've been compared to non-human things before a lot as well so like him being called these things makes me scream #I'm sorry I'm having so many Abed Nadir thoughts and AAAAAAAAAAAA #is this even anything? #does this even make sense? #am I just writing incoherent bullshit? maybe #I don't know #but here you go #community #Abed Nadir #community nbc

[irisbaggins]

The novelisation of the Phantom Menace has made me so incredibly sad, where little Anakin sees an injured Tusken and decides to disobey Watto to sit by the Raider until he wakes up. Anakin has such a deep, loving heart that he was willing to suffer the consequences of disobedience to make sure a Tusken Raider would be safe, a being he was taught all his life were brutal and cruel. And in this chapter, Anakin admits that the only thing that truly scares him, is of losing his mother. That juxtaposition, that note of I will care for this creature to I fear losing my mother, put so much more weight onto AOTC, and of Anakin's rage. He broke, and he lost himself to his rage. When faced with what he did, he rages against the world and his actions, before breaking down into further sobs at the loss of his mother and the actions he made. His worst fear was realised, and he became the monster that everyone claimed the Tuskens to be.

It'll be interesting to read the AOTC novelisation, to see if this scene is ever called back to. I just find it interesting, and further showcases the depths of Anakin's feelings and compassion, as well as the pitfalls that such strong emotions come with. For if you feel compassion and love as deeply as Anakin does, so will you feel the destructive nature of all of your rage. And that, that is Anakin's biggest weakness; he feels too strongly to ever truly control it.

#text_iris #I just love Anakin so much and this novel just makes me scream at how good it is #Anakin Skywalker #Star Wars #The Phantom Menace #Star Wars Meta #Like...I relate to the Feeling Too Strongly 'cos ADHD which has made my rage an overwhelming thing #The amounts of time I've lost myself to my rage are numerous and I understand too well how that can happen #Like. That rage where you just lose all sense of self? Yeah. As a kid I was...a ball of rage #Mellowed out with the years of course but still. It happened. It was real. And Anakin Skywalker as a character made me realise things #Like when I was younger I realised the reason why my rage was like that was due to the fact I felt so strongly #Any emotion I had would just consume me. ANY emotion. And I realised that by looking at Anakin meta #So...yeah. Anyway this novel is killing me with emotions already and I'm only on the seventh chapter #Anyway Anakin never relished his violence against the Tuskens instead he tried to work through what happened #What he did why he did it and HOW because?? He didn't want to he was a Jedi but he also wanted to HURT them for taking his mom #It's COMPLICATED and that's sooo good because it's REALISTIC and PAINFUL #Anakin let his rage consume him! Which is bad! But also human! It's complicated!! He regrets his actions but also not but also he does!! #Aaa so many emotions about this one eldritch lightning rod of a being