#so yeah a hole can only be removed once its filled. That's why Felix couldn't take over. is what i would say.

[icharchivist]

Do we know why exactly Felix lay dormant and let Troue become the dominant personality for so long, despite clearly being present enough to take his memories in each day?

I think it's mentioned that Felix just COULDN'T take over at all and the amnesia was stronger in a sense?

i need to read all of Troue's FE since i only read the intro, but one thing that was mentioned in his FE intro is that Troue has been found by the princess he used to serve, in a field of poisonous flowers, seemingly unconscious.

Those flowers were infamous because once inhaled a bit of the parfume of, you're going to lose a bit of your memories. but seemingly since Troue was found unconscious there, he has inhaled way too much, and it's why he also doesn't have regular amnesia, but an amnesia that resets every single day.

(note also that in Troue's FE it's mentioned that he didn't have Durendal at the time and Durendal was given to him by the Princess's father then. It's really difficult to figure out what to make of this information. maybe Troue was found there because Felix was coming to get Durendal back? or was it one of the "sky chart" configuration that he needed to lose his memories to handle Durandal and he thought with his gift of vision it'd be easy but he overshot it with the flowers? that said it's also why there's a theory that "Felix" is actually Durendal in some way, that became its own because of Troue's gift of vision.)

Troue's letter mentions that at night, he can feel Felix's hold on him getting stronger, and it's only once his memory reset that the haze of the amnesia puts Felix "to sleep", until he gets stronger again near night.

it might also explain why Troue was also more sleepy in general. The more he slept, the more he'd reset his memories, the less Felix could take over. It seems that Troue became more "awake" when he had worthwhile time to spend with the crew, which ultimately just made Felix stronger.

If we take Felix's metaphor, Troue is the hole of the donut right. Everyday, the bread of the donut would grow back, and would threaten to fill the hole, and once the hole is filled Felix would be back as a whole, but as soon as Troue falls asleep and forgets, the hole becomes bigger once again, so everyday, Felix has to "refill it" to try to get control back. meanwhile all the memories the "hole" made ended up passing down onto the "bread", so Felix would get the memories building up in his mind, but couldn't do anything as long as he couldn't fill the hole that was in charge of his behavior.

I would also assume that the one reason Felix managed to take over /now/ and not just in the past when Troue worked for the princess, if not just a question of time/Felix not being dormant anymore/Troue being awake more often, is the fact that Troue works on remembering his daily life on the ship much, much more than before. Troue finds way so that, once his memories reset, he's able to get at least his memories of the crew back as soon as possible. In a sense it's possible that, as Troue is trying desperately to "fill himself" with his daily routines and memories of the crew, he makes it easier for Felix to take over since it means he doesn't have to "fill the hole back" with those memories if Troue is going to do it for him.

We're entitled to doubt everything Troue and Felix tell us (Troue bc of the amnesia, Felix because he's a bitch), but both him being found unconscious in the flowers and him getting Durendal is recounted to us by the princess he used to serve, who happens to have seen those events, so it would imply that at least those two elements would be true.

So iirc it's the amnesia constantly resetting itself that caused Felix to be unable to take back control for the longest time. Because in that metaphor, the more empty Troue is, the more Felix has to fill to get back into control, and therefore by the end of the day, he fails and he has to reset the process the next morning.

(tbh i wonder if we can even call that Felix being "Dormant", maybe at some point he was, but the descriptions both of Troue's letter and Felix's recounting the facts give me more an impression of Felix kicking and screaming and fighting trying to get control back while Troue was unable to feel it until it was too late. though there's something really sad imo with that because, if Felix had ever taken over say, right after Troue woke up, perhaps Troue wouldn't have ever struggled against it. it'd be the natural order. But since Felix could only try to get control back after a day of Troue filling his own head back into becoming a person again, then it means Felix taking over is always going to be met with struggle from Troue who doesn't want to let go of the work he has made so far)

That's at least the way i read it, if it makes any sense?

#'Troue' means 'Hole' ' in french and the way it's pronounced 'Troué' means something that has one or many holes in it #and we call having memories issues (usually when you forget something simple that you should know) #(often for daily uses) to be a 'troue de mémoire' (a hole in your memory) #Troue is French Themed (Durendal is a famous magical french sword) #and now that he's basically called the Hole of a Donut i think it's important to keep in mind #like i think it's why i can't forget the hole metaphor Felix used bc i've been thinking about Troue and holes since i first read about him #(and not THOSE type of holes anons calm yourselves--) #so yeah a hole can only be removed once its filled. That's why Felix couldn't take over. is what i would say. #ichareply #anonymous #ichafantalks gbf #ichablogging vinweap