#someday learn to love Shelby was promptly extinguished and it pained her beyond belief to think about it but Shelby understood how Toni

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#I’m about to write y’all a novel in these tags I’m so sorry #the wilds #shoni #shelby x toni #shelby goodkind #toni shalifoe #n e wayssss #I’m in my “emotional devastation era” because I can’t stop thinking about a shoni unrequited love au where the two of them are best friends #and Shelby is hopelessly in love with Toni who is so incredibly oblivious and too wrapped up in her newly blossoming relationship with Regan #to notice that Shelby has been steadily pulling away because she can’t bare the sight of them together. It makes her feel like her head is #spinning and her chest is going to cave in and if you were to try and identify the final nail in the coffin or the straw that broke the #proverbial camel’s back well it would have to be the night Shelby cried alone in Toni’s bathroom after discovering that #Toni had given Her™️ sweatshirt away. The sweatshirt with the yellow elbow patches that technically belonged to Toni but had #long since been claimed by Shelby. The sweatshirt that had brought her so much comfort and warmth. Shelby had rummaged through drawers and #searched the closet desperate to find the piece of clothing – the piece of Toni that was supposed to be reserved for her but she found #nothing. Perhaps it was ridiculous or a tad bit overdramatic to be that upset over an article of clothing but when the words: #“oh I think Regan has it” fell from Toni’s lips with an appalling amount of nonchalance it felt like in that moment her world had stopped #spinning. The devastation was swallowing her whole and she felt like she couldn’t breathe. Whatever flicker of hope that Toni could maybe #someday learn to love Shelby was promptly extinguished and it pained her beyond belief to think about it but Shelby understood how Toni #could love Regan. She was the opposite of Shelby. Everything about her was real whereas every facet of Shelby’s being was fake. There was no #trace of shame to be found in Regan either. She was beautiful and confident and out. She had no qualms about holding Toni’s hand in the #hallway or kissing her in front of crowd of peers. Regan was bright; she was sunshine personified. #Shelby was dark; she was made up of shadows and rain clouds. She couldn’t blame Toni for wanting to stand in the sun