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#still its worth considering bc i do have an amazing to control myself in a way that's completely out of my control. maybr my start/stop
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#just turning over the idea of executive functioning issues in my head part by part. impulse control. im extremely tightly controlled. im the
#best at control. the only times im impulsive is when someone asks me something and my brain doesn't work well in the moment so i tend to b
#like fuck it: says something that might fuck me over later bc im like whatever itll prob b fine lol. but mostly not an issue. emotional
#control. i dont lash out at ppl except myself i guess. ill sometimes have freak out meltdowns bc i get so frustrated with myself plus mood
#weirdness. so not great. flexible thinking. im pretty rigid. if plans randomly change theres like a 1 in 3 chance ill freak out and start
#crying and it takes me a long time to adjust to the idea that i have to chsnge something. and things tend to have to b a certain way
#not for any reason in particular. thats just how it has to b. i have to eat the same foods. operate at the same times. do thr same things.
#thats just how it is. and i find it difficult in social situations to adapt to the flow of convention bc its like but we're talking abt thi
#now but something just interrupted and we aren't going abck to that thing. i dont make it other ppls problem but its uncomfortable for me.
#working memory. my memory is pretty fucked. self monitoring. im good at that. too good. im pathologically self reflective. planning &
#prioritizing. i can plan but i cant prioritize for shit. i will spiral for hours doing nothing bc i can't decide what comes 1st.
#task initation. im good at torturing myself into getting things done but i anxiously avoid a lot of things but once i start its like: im in
#this mode now. no i cant fucking stop i need this to b done. i need to sit here and finish it otherwise i wont come back to it. i cant do
#moderation its all or nothing. all school and nothing outside of that. cant send mail. cant clean sink. i see it and kno i need to do it an
#then i just walk away from the disaster area. organization. is ok. it looks a disaster but i only exist in like 3 places so i dont lose
#things often but i dont remember where i put things once i put them down i have to deduce where i would have put it. does that paint the
#picture of executive functioning issues or rigid and restrictive compulsive behavior paired with self destructive impulses leading to
#absolute mental exhaustion which is y things arent getting done? could b either or both. idk my ability to do things 95% of the way and wal
#away leaving a mess that ill never come back to strikes me more as the former but what do i
#still its worth considering bc i do have an amazing to control myself in a way that's completely out of my control. maybr my start/stop
#switch is just fucked idk. slow down and reorient says my counselor u never stop to rest. shes right but also im a grad student stopping
#would mean death u gotta keep swimming and doing more than u should. thats how it is
#but im so tired and i only get more and more tired. so somethings gotta give eventually
#unrelated
#i forgot focus. my focus is good sometimes and sometimes my brain is moving too fast and i cant focus at all. its static
#but focus is not a thing i cna control
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