#that wesley his bio father did NOT meet his mental or emotional needs as a child and that may have something-

[mad-hunts]

barton literally finding any excuse to be physically close to those who are, like, in his tight inner circle whenever he feels like he just cannot cope with things going on inside of his head or even on the outside by like... laying his head in his head in their lap / on their shoulder or something similar as they're hanging out. and whenever they're understandably confused by this, because this is the first time he's ever done anything like this, things only seem to get progressively more bewildering and maybe a little bit sad from there. and this is because he's just like ' hey, so i know this might be kind of a weird request, but don't judge me please. i'm just sooo tired of everything, so can you like... stroke my hair or something? '

and depending on whether they actually do it or not, i could imagine barton and this friend of his sort of forming this mutual understanding ( that's probably a mix of nonverbal and verbal ) that whenever he's feeling particularly bad or twisted up inside, he can come to them and just. curl up with them on the couch or something, like JSJSJ barton is honestly sooo confusing sometimes, y'all, because he'll actively seek out comfort from people he trusts in such a vulnerable human way but then he will turn around and kill someone in the most heinous way imaginable the next moment. like i'm currently going feral over this rn because WHATTT HOW DOES THAT EVEN WORK but also... OUCH??? i'm not sure how to feel about this if i'm being honest because it definitely demonstrates that barton does genuinely feel thing's despite what some people might think but he's also a terrible person so

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings. #JSJSJS I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE JUST CREATED Y'ALL BUT I AM BOTH KIND- #OF SADDENED BY IT AND ALSO LIKE ' HMM BUT? HOW COULD YOU DO THIS ONE MOMENT BUT THEN...?? LITERALLY DO SOMETHING EXTREMELY- #FOUL THE NEXT LIKE??? something ain't adding up here ' ☠️ JSJSJ i honestly think it might be the fact that barton is mentally deranged that #he is so confusing for even me the writer of him to figure out. like have y'all even felt like your characters hace had a mind of their own #before??? because i've definitely felt that way with barton before despite the facts. istg he is just like a cake- #INSIDE of a cake whenever it comes to how layered his psyche is. i mean i would definitely agree with the statement- #that wesley his bio father did NOT meet his mental or emotional needs as a child and that may have something- #to do with why he has moments like these? where he just feels like he can't help but be vulnerable- #around the people he trusts because that has affected him more than he probably thinks and made him prone- #to KIND OF clinging onto friends / family whenever thing's get really bad for him mentally and just wanting to be given some sort of- #comforting touch by them like a hug or like them stroking his hair as i wrote in this paragraph here?? idk BUT #he is one perplexing guy i'll tell you guys that much jsjsj