#that whole tumult around it and the 'NOW Y'ALL GOTTA MARRY' bs

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mmh...

#y'all am i broken or smth pls guide me through this #why do i find it so hard to have crushes or date or meet someone new #like i instantly panic when someone gives any hints or someone close to me talks about 'knowing' #someone #like my mom told me about a guy she/her friend knows and asked me if id like to meet him #and nothing about him seems wrong but my mind just instantly goes 🚨🚨🚨 like WHY #like i feel it in my throat #also i do not like those 100 rituals that desi parents fall into the moment their kid tells them they like someone #that whole tumult around it and the 'NOW Y'ALL GOTTA MARRY' bs #but it's not just that i rlly dunno what it is about meeting ppl or relationships like i just wanna be alone and #write my shit and live my life yk #but also i want love #LIKE HELP WHYYYYYY #actually i honestly feel like ive written too many stories about romance and ruined reality for myself LOL #but yeah idk.. this makes me anxious but maybe ill still meet him #bc you never know #yk