#there are just so many things i'm fed up with

[nervousmonolith]

Thanks for being a proud Sapnap hater and calling his shit out. I kind of thought he was MAYBE okay because he's the least psychopathic of the Drm's group but god damn is he self-centered and unaware of how privileged he is. Most streamers are more well off than the average person, this is true, but they're not RICH rich. They heavily rely on ad revenue to pay their bills. Sapnap literally lives in a mansion with a fancy car and does not pay rent. I don't think he understands the gravity of getting people's VOD's demonetized and taken down. Also his lack of respect for fellow streamers, especially ones that have been around far longer than him, is insane. There is a difference between being competitive and just plain being rude and unhelpful. I genuinely don't know how people are still fans and can call him a victim in these situations when every single creator that isn't in his core group actively avoids him. If they weren't afraid of getting doxxed, I'm sure plenty of creators would have tons more to say about things we're not even aware of. I'm surprised creators in this event were even willing to say what they did because normally there's an unspoken rule that you don't talk shit about other creators in your space at all. It says a lot about how fed up they had to be to say ANYTHING on stream about Sapnap's behavior, let alone leak private discord stuff. I hope this keeps him from getting invited to any other event. So many people hate working with him and for good reason. Here's to praying on his downfall! I hope everyone remaining actively works together to get him out, no one likes him and he's so unprofessional.

TALK YOUR SHIT ANON 🗣️🔥🔥🔥 you're so right about the DMCA on vods like these smaller streamers don't get the special twitch treatment and need the revenue like the disconnect in his brain is insane

#monolith mumbles #discourse #IF HE HAS NO HATERS I AM FUCKING DEAD he's so genuinely awful

[adore-gregor]

my football team is so hopeless

#not dortmund lol i mean the club i play at myself #it makes me want to quit ngl #there are just so many things i'm fed up with #at times it's not fun anymore #i like playing football but there's just a lot wrong with this team #but i'm mostly just hanging around because i don't want to let my coach down like he cares and genuinly seems like a good coach #the only thing which gives me a bit of hope #and i hate letting people down 😅 that and also i hate giving up #but i have never seen a team more hopeless or felt more hopeless playing a sport 😅 #and he apparently thinks i'm kind of important to the team which i kind of get but also it doesn't really make a difference... #we're just so hopeless i can’t turn this around lol #i always start and i hope it continues but there's not much i can do #we just have too many people who don't care last match so many have given up #some of our team just refuse to run or move at some point it's awful #like why can't you try #we always loose so high like what's the point but still don't give up #besides that the endurance (and also sprint speed) of most is awful which could be trained to a point #but whenever the coach tries to do that almost no one shows up 💀 #and i usually play wing or outside midfielder but i'm supposed to also be a defender apparently what #whenever we get a goal on my side and i'm not back in defence someone moans at me like that's my fault #i get working back but i can’t be everywhere especially when some people don't move #and i actually try to get the ball foreward or try to get the ball back in the front because i don't give up when we're behind #i want to score goals and not settle with loosing and only sit back to do defence anymore #naturally there will be open spaces when i try to do that but how is giving up better even when it's hopeless we could still try scoring #and i can't be everywhere they should try my position they would never last 90min running like i do #besides i'm already exausted each week from my training before like i do sports 2-3 hours 6 or 7 days a week #unfortunately i have to because once again i'm trying some entrance exam (for sports to become a teach in sports and english hopefully) #asides from that i don't like most of the people at my club 😅 it feels a bit like highschool again and i didn't like highschool #so many are ignorant and judgemental #like the girl i told you about with her comment about the cleaning lady instead of wanting to clean up her stuff herself 🙄

[bitternace]

WHY ARE YOU SO EVIL!!! /POS. ATTACKING YOU.

Xemnas and Xigbar for 37 if that number hasn't been done? If it has, how about 74?

no puedo pedirle lo eterno a un simple mortal // ay, todo lo que he hecho por ti.

[ID: a mostly black and white drawing with a purple overlay of xigbar and xemnas shown from the hip up on the left side of the image. the background is black and has some diagonal lines with a bit of transparency on the right side. the shadows are harsh, with only a bit of light falling on their faces.

they stand before each other turned to the audience. xigbar, holds the handle and the middle of No Name before him, head tilted down as he looks to the audience. xemnas stands a full head taller behind xigbar, his left hand held some distance below the bladed tip of No Name, his left eye is covered by his fringe.

xemnas visible eye is painted ochre with a white pupil, while xigbar's eye is white and gold. The eyes on no name's handle and the gazing eye on the blade are a vibrant cyan. the caption reads the spanish lyrics "i can't ask a simple mortal for a forever" and "oh, everything i've done for you." /End ID.]

close-up under keep reading.

#capisnotonfire #PUTS MY HAND TO MY STERNUM AND FALLS TO THE FLOOR ON MY KNEES /affectionate #warning to whoever might open the link; there's a slightly suggestive several 'ay's at the beginning porque shakira it's also bass heavy #OBJECTIVELY THE FUNNIEST SONG THAT COULD'VE COME UP. it's the gift that keeps on giving!! #this specific remix's been on my top list... several years; top five for a couple. i've loved it forever. top radio edits ever. #it's basically about a guy that makes up excuses to hide he's cheating and a gal that's fed up with his bullshit and is like. okay. bye. #i briefly considered going with............ right now i know my heart is yours <- in regards to i'm already half-xehanort #as per usual not ship art but it would be HILARIOUS if it was. it would've been able to go so many incredibly funny tragic ways #nano does reqs #my doods #xigbar kh #xemnas kh #IT TOOK SO LONG. putting this out there because i WILL lose my marbles if i do anything more. it's not as polished as it could. #fret not if you've asked for a req i am still doing 'em this one just. kicked my ass (been busy). i tried a couple of things and failed #THEN the file corrupted like 9 hours in and i wanted to die a little (thank the heavens my drawing app has a #thing to get back corrupted files through their screen recording) but i GIVE UP (affectionate) #Does this make sense thematically? Fuck if i know. i forgot all lore (half serious). it looked cooler in my head (jesting) #anyways. mwah tysm for the ask<3 #i love posting at mystifying times (i finish at terrible hours and get excited) #described #74

[binch-i-might-be]

I did ALL the things today btw. my living room? extremely liveable environment rn. renovation over surfaces dusted things stored away lads cleaned hamilton shrine reinstated lps back up on the wall floor mopped ect ect

#i even finally threw away the dead plants on the window sills! #i've solved so many things that have been bothering me for the last million years today #i like this space. it's my space i made it for me specifically :) #i'm also sipping my second beer rn because i DESERVE it #fed myself and technically i still have to wash my hair but i can just wear it up tomorrow and wash it after work #i'm just gonna sit here and chill and make a lil whisky coke later and enjoy the new creepcast episode :))) #rayrambles

[steadfast-unmoving]

thinking about switching to she/her pronouns just so nobody ever calls me an 'enby' ever again

#the other day on discord someone called me a 'theybian' and i had to tell them to never do that again #i just am so fed up of the infantilising language #and also the discourse like so many people complaining about being on lists of people being celebrated on IWD for not being a woman #and it's like eugh i agree with you but also i'm so tired and just want nice things #i've used they/them pronouns for over a decade at this point #i would just like to opt out

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[stereax]

woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way

but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D

anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎

#sterechats :) #09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway #what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again? #probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D #10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire #like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it #I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring! #but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3 #11:00 pm - I need to get out of here #I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me #everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense #why am I even writing these tags what does it matter #I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing #maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore #I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha #11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one #how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good #everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now #here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah) #11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive #in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love #I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day #maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it! #maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead... #1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am #not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep #and I don't want this to post when I'm awake #I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always #because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really #I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay

[kibibarel]

honestly I still choose to believe that sada/turo did die years ago, or at least that that was the original plan for the story. mostly because I don't know why arven would have koraidon/miradon's pokeball if that weren't the case?? like. the fact he has it either means he's had it for a very long time (but why would sada/turo not have the pokeball of the pokemon they have if they're still alive and studying that pokemon), he was recently given it but /not/ the actual pokemon for some reason, or he was /just/ given it by the AI after his parent died which you think he would mention given his entire thing is about how he hasn't seen/talked to them in forever. truly don't understand why they made it only be a short time since they died other than like. they couldn't think of any other way to justify that koraidon/miraidon would be around at the beginning. which is probably the case tbh

"truly don't understand why they made it only be a short time since they died other than like. they couldn't think of any other way to justify that koraidon/miraidon would be around at the beginning. which is probably the case tbh" YEAH THIS

#god it's SO stupid...i'm getting heated about it all over again #it's ONE thing and it kind of completely ruined the story for me #it just makes so many parts of the story clunky and weird for NO GOOD REASON #why don't you just say there were multiple fights between the Raidons or something...and the main one finally got fed up

[woodenela]

Don't you ever let anyone tell you that it is too late to switch jobs/careers. Not ever.

Found a job at 18 & stuck with it? Cool.

Wanna change things up every 5 years? Do it.

Wanna start in a new field after devoting 20+ years to a single company? It's never too late!

We only have one dang life on this planet, if you wanna go wild and test all kinds of jobs out & find something your passionate about at 28,39,52? DO IT!

#inspired by personal life stuff lol can you tell #I get looked at SO FUNNY SO OFTEN when I tell new coworkers that I'm 28 #glad that you found aomething early on and stuck with it but that's not a universal experience! #I worked as a tour guide for historical places & in customer service since I was 16 #and guess what. I'm just not passionate about it anymore. it bores me to death. I just want something new #I'm trying to find a job that's fun again. sue me for not wanting to be miserable at my job. like I see so many others #why is it so weird for people if you wanna change things up every 10 years?? i legit don't get it #I do understand that you stay bc of better pay and rank in your work field but if it's just not fun anymore? why torture yourself? #I know I'm gonna fall down to a ''starter's paycheck'' again. I know that for some that sounds crazy #but it's so worth it if you like what you do again. isn't it? #I test-trial-worked at a dentist's yesterday & the girl showing me around & teaching me stuff was 19 #which my sister commented on as 'being embarrassing'. why. why are we pushed so hard into 'one career until you keel over'? #that shit makes me so tired man #I'll probably never be able to stay at a job for more than 10 years cause I'll just get fed up with it & need something new #so what? #woodenelaramble

[wings-of-flying]

i think i'm tired

#i'm fed up of being tired #why am i always fucking tired #i was gonna make a joke about my sleep schedule but it's not even that bad #it's cause i'm a teenager isn't it. i'm so fucking sick of being a teenager #i've got so much work to do and so many things people expect me to just be able to do but i can't and aughhh #i'm just fucking exhausted #i wanna curl up and cry but i don't even have the energy #albatross rambles #vents

[izzyizumi]

"Wow, you've been venting a lot about D02 Fan base Issues lately, I wonder what happened???"

"Well you see ever since post-Kizuna dropped, which is extremely suspicious TIMING in itself..." (While DigiAdv 2020 was also airing BUT.....)

In the last section of caps, when I proceeded to politely (hyper-formally) request this person stop harassing me by spamming me with multiple rude comments early in the morning when I wasn't even AWAKE to answer, and mentioned I was away because I was observing Shabbat (noting to them politely what it was), they proceeded to flip out, "turn" on me and start accusing me of "betraying" the pair. "Okay I beyond messed up" was their failed ""attempt"" at an blatantly insincere apology (they since continued to spam/harass a handful more times) and acknowledging they WERE HARASSING ME.

Except here's the thing. a. The Taishiro tag, by all means, is still for a rare pair ship. b. I am very aware of which fans follow me for my O.T.P. and actively post about it and who doesn't (including people who have lurked before). c. When the harassment started up I reached out to multiple other Taishiro fans (and people aware of the ship fan base being active) actively posting at the time and we were keeping aware of the situation in case they went about to target others. d. THIS PERSON WAS NOT AND NEVER A "FAMILIAR FACE" HERE / IN KOUTAI OR ADV+02 TAGS and posted fully and competely mainly on Anon (before "de-anon"ng using multiple account names; this was just before A.O.3 introduced comment blocking as a feature almost immediately after I began contacting them about it.) e. The timing of this is STILL highly suspicious to me considering the harassment mainly began in 2k20:

What was happening in Oct. 2k20 (aside from it also being my bday month, which was fantastic timing to harass someone??)

It was around the ending of DigiAdv 2020 Ep 18, when a lot of long-time fans would have returned to (if briefly) see the end of the Devimon arc involved, including past long-time Stans who dropped off partly keeping up with "canon" post-Tri (also especially if they hated ALL said new canon since...)

Kizuna was already out, but hadn't debuted in some countries (however, long-term Adv-02 fans were pretty aware of Kizuna developments due to notable leaks) and a lot of Stans also came back to actively "talk" / rant about Kizuna and the ""timeline"" since.

The person started out using a handle referring to a well-known N.S.F.W trope that I have absolutely 0 interest ever engaging with, and they likely knew that I might be semi-aware of it if just due to its sheer popularity. This was the first clear "hint" something was immediately wrong with the persons' commenting style, but I humored them at first by responding seriously and politely, giving a simple answer to the question ("plrease read all author's notes and tags clearly before reading".)

They since moved on to create multiple accounts and handles to spam / harass me ("Tales" might have been a reference to "Tales of" fan base, which I'm not involved in but was also suspicious in itself), pretending to be ""different"" people each time but using the exact same speech patterns / ~~accusations~~ and basically failing massively at "obscuring" / hiding themselves, almost to the point all of this was INTENTIONAL. (Also failed at making me take them seriously once I realized their intent to spam.)

The second (literally right the nights when I posted it, showing they actively WATCHED ADV-02 SECTIONS) I introduced more Daisuke into the storyline, (I had already finished the thing a bit earlier on, it just wasn't on A.O.3 yet...) they "turned" and "flipped" on me, "pretending" like they actively hated him and disregarded him, but my suspicions are really high that this was all an ACT. Because THE HARASSMENT DID NOT RAMP UP AS MUCH UNTIL I BEGAN "TOUCHING" DAISUKE / USING HIM IN MY THINGS AT ALL. (Very Suspicious)

I have seen similar long-term behavior from certain 02 Stans in this fan base who act like they have ownership over Daisuke head-canons and interpretations or something... including from a former person-I-briefly-interacted-with who used to (and STILL, as recently as the last weeks, though I won't name names but...) often acts really possessive over him and their interpretations. (You know, there's no rhyme or reason for why these kinds of things happen, right???) I long since hard-blocked the person on all DigiAdvs related accounts over it.

^ The conclusion made by A.O.3. was that it WAS harassment.

So, I'm just saying.

But you know what pissed me off the MOST? (MORE THAN THE FACT I WAS BEING ACTIVELY HARASSED AND SPAMMED ABOUT MY O.T.P WORKS AND FAVS?)

When I very formally informed this person (during the time they attempted fake-"politeness"/creepy fake "praise") I was (mentally) away noting Shabbat during the time they sent like 6 harassing comments in a morning, they proceeded to make the "turn", accusing me of multiple times (since) of being a "traitor" and INSULTING SHABBAT TO MY FACE AND ACTING LIKE THEY DIDN'T KNOW / ""GET"" WHO JEWS ARE, EVEN WHEN I SPECIFIED IT WAS A HOLIDAY.

Which IS ANTISEMITISM. Regardless of any fan base involved things it's to the point of antisemitic hate speech and religious harassment. I'm not even sorry to point it out but it IS.

{I finally let them know I was aware of the kind of spam tactics they were using against me. They proceeded to say this and continue acting "clueless" about what they were doing, while also half acknowledging it all the same} (Like seriously????) Anyway, if you (anyone posting in Adv or 02 sections, especially Koushiro or Daisuke involved fic!) ever get harassing spam comments from any of these user-names, REPORT THEM TO A.O.3.

I also don't mean to ~~call out~~ another "response", but...

When I brought these concerns up with people who I suspected may be involved in the (or possibly aware of similar) active harassment but was INITIALLY genuinely giving the benefit of the doubt, I intentionally left out about half of the comments since A.O.3 was still handling the case. One of the people I asked about if they were aware of such things actively going on in 02 sections commented very oddly and almost vaguely to me

"Maybe they're using an A.I. generator? They're getting more advanced {with text} (!!!!!) these days." (Summarized response)

A response I still find highly suspicious to this day.

Because this was blatantly NOT the work of an A.I. This person KNEW which characters they were talking about (despite trying to make it seem like they were "clueless" or "~~couldn't read~~" the MASSIVE amount of author's notes and summary and tags I left all over the fics and making a blatant show of "not actually reading" / absorbing it).

Also, in between, they NOTICED(!!!) immediately when I began up-loading my old A.M.V.s to other non-DigiAdvs sections(!!!) and began spamming those comment sections TOO (all with the same type of comments). (I did NOT give these any attention or response at the time)

So I'm Just Saying. Yeah?

This is unacceptable.

{Mocking Shabbat after I got after them for spamming me.}

So yeah, to anyone who MAY have been involved in this?:

(Kizuna spoilers!Koushiro moment Commence):

I'm still NOT amused.

(DO NOT copy or re-post my gif.)

It's been just about a year since the harassment-spam began last year (to eventually be squashed by A.O.3). All I'm saying is, yeah I'm still ticked and there were reasons why I wasn't actively posting other works, including for other not-O.T.P things...

(While it may change {with my postings} with the coming year I'm not going to deny that I'm not still majorly pissed off at the sequence of events at all.)

#d02 issues #digiadvs issues #izzyizumi personal #izzyizumi vents #izzyizumi blog #(You know) #(You know? I wasn't going to compile these because I figured enough time had passed in between + I was trYING to wind down But) #(I'M STILL PISSED OFF) #(I have a very VERY HIGH suspicion of who all may have been involved and I'm sure they may be aware that I'm thinking so) #(If that person is seeing this post?) #(Well) #(Posts the Conclusion) #(If anyone has any similar info on these usernames or things they experienced around the times PLEASE also reach out to me somehow) #(Because I Am Fed Up) #(This started out as something I was just flat out laughing at) #(LIKE YEAH I ~~hate KouTai~~ so much I ACTIVELY MAKE ALMOST ALL MY STUFF ABT IT INCLUDING MULTIPLE A.M.V.s) #(WOW I cant BELIEVE someone who ~~HATES THIS SERIES SO MUCH~~ WOULD MAKE SO MANY WORKS FOR THEM etcetc) #(Once it turned to antisemitic hate speech? YEAH) #(I might add to this post or expand in another later but I'm keeping it no rb for now bc I don't necessarily want this spread) #(I AM however Finally Posting About It)

[daisywords]

just finished The Fifth Season and I'm insane now

#stayed up way to late for this #I need anSWERS #okay but fr one of my favorite things about this book was how much it trusts the reader #like I get to be slowly fed information and puzzle things out and guess #and then be rewarded when my guesses are confirmed #but like! it's not treated like some big reveal because the book just assumes I'm keeping up! #a clever book for a clever reader #we are in cahoots #also I have so many feelings about these characters but I'm not sure what they are #I will say though I think staying up way to late bc I'm completely sucked into a book was what I needed #It's like a kick of caffeine for the soul or something #Anyway very different vibes but I feel insane in a similar way to when I read The Thief #maybe bc I also stayed up until like 3am for that #but I feel like the connecting theories with red string meme guy

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

I'd like to be a character in a science fiction adventure show but not like as the main character that shit's too stressful. I'd be like the human version of a trucker cat

#random thoughts #there'd be at least one episode where the car or space ship or whatever gets stolen and I'm like getting pampered by space pirates or sm #or i got off the ship at the last minute so the mcs panic for nothing #like i got off to go to the bathroom at a space gas station #im not even a main character i dont talk much im just there #the humantity and ethics of this are brought up on many occasions #only for the mcs to go 'no he likes this it's fine' #because like come on im fed i get decent sleep i get to explore the galaxy and i dont have to do shit #there's at least one episode where someone steals me on purpose and it's like a mission impossible escape mission #I'm in like a prison cell or something while my kidnapper transports me to a rehabilitation planet or something #i had a nice bedroom but i got put in the cell because i kept trying to escape #they're convinced i have stockholm syndrome and im like 'stockholm syndrome doesn't exist' #but like nonverbally because in this scenario i do not talk #and at the end of the episode when i escape and the mcs learn what happened #one of them is like 'but stockholm syndrome isn't a real thing though' #and im like '!!! THANK YOU EXACTLY' #like i really want to emphasize how little i do on this ship #i can leave at any time!!! i just don't!!!

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!

[mothslimes]

sometimes i think girls who wear a full face of makeup every day and get lip fillers and other surgeries n shit. just forgot what an actual woman looks like. actually post cancelled I think so much of the world has forgotten what an actual woman looks like. genuinely can't imagine waking up every day looking in the mirror and feeling like i have to paint my face to be presentable. fucking terrifying man.

if you look at what women are trending it's so weird how many of them look exactly the same. same hair style, same makeup style, same outfits. and it's not just celebrities, i sit in class and the girls are all carbon copies. even have the same style of taking notes. pretty much all appear to be thinking the same way, even. what the fuck. those 2010 cheesy illustrations of a bunch of identical looking blond Barbies were right maybe

#mik talks #and I guess it's not even on the girls themselves since they're fed fuckin garbage by the algorithm #tho I won't take too much pity on them.because many of them are giant bullies who love feeling superior to me #I'm just like. god I'm so glad I'm too autistic so I never even got the chance to try and fit in #so now I feel no pressure to do so #I said this exact thing before but I feel like the world kinda needs to stop throwing huge pity parties for conventionally attractive #white women who happen to feel pressure to keep up certain things about their appearance #yeah that must suck but you get to fit in you get to hide in the masses lol. wow that must be so hard to have to make #certain choices in order not to be bullied. some of us don't even have the choice #blablabla These women are excellent in upholding the patriarchy and white supremacy btw even if they themselves #have progressive views. anyway #No more politics I'm tired also I'm too stupid to make good conclusions about this #I'm really just complaining about the type.of.girls who bullied me #I'll forever and ever support nlogs #idc. you ARENT like other girls and that's a fucking challenge and you're allowed to feel proud of who you are #and going against societal norms #ur allowed to find joy in that #maybe just tone it down a little and focus more on what's good about you vs what's bad about them #but its not bad as a vent??? like??? you're allowed to be pissed abt it man #no one should expect a flawless deconstruction of misogyny in a 2 panel comic istg #sometimes u just wanna express something god it's so misogynistic when all these men on YouTube make videos ridiculing #'pickmes' and 'nlogs' hey maybe stay in your lane you never experienced growing up a girl ostracized by the female populus at school #it IS just like in mean girls #anyway I love women being feral and human and we need more of that instead of expecting women to keep a perfect face and perfect body #women SWEAT and PISS and thats okay :))) they're animals #this is the most 2014 ass post I've made sorry #also the least 'cisgender bisexual man' post I've made #the stealth transness leaving my body when its time to critique hierarchical structures within female spaces from the lense of a girl that #was left out of them

[honeyvenommusic]

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#the idol system is such a fascinating and scary thing to me #like hearing shit over the years it's like how does anyone survive it? #(i'm staying away from all the anti-blackness of kpop & their fandoms rn so just the system) #((that was more for me bc my brain wants to go in that direction bc hooooooo. it's the main reason i cannot vibe w more than a few songs #over the last almost 15 years cause like knowing.... anyway)) #like i just got groundfloored w a group rn via jbrekkie shoutout michelle like literally their debut is 24 hrs from now i've rabbitholed #since i heard their snippet on her vid and like the way ppl talk about it already like... as an outsider it's like alriiiight here we goo #they're (mgmt) pipelining another group of ppl let's be sure to support it! streamstreamvote!! oo it looks like their taking the toy/doll #route w these girls super aesthetic let's goo. & like......????? and ppl are already rabid about it. it's wild. and like this is the system #this is it. they make groups and then tease and the people who follow the conglomerate see it and are waiting to #be fed another x amount of folks doing formations and looking cute/hot open wide and consume #(like ik some (or a lot) of those accnts are bots/plants to pad the release and gain traction against algos but like also real folks too) #like not to discredit their vocal work (&dancing though some (alot) of these grps are not nearly as lit w 'dancing' as folks hype em up to #be Frfr. good movers/formations/camera motion & body rolls do not a dancer/good choreo make) but it's really secondary for a lot of #folks atp it's so strange & fascinating. and like i dug the song that's why i'm here so no knock against that but just the factory of it al #it's so damn WILD to me. but at the same time let's be real here. same dish different kitchen for a lot of western pop #they're just more transparent about it and have streamlined finding their popstars & having the public be great w it #it's just... i think it would be less strange if stan culture wasn't a thing or at least more mild than it is now #if it wasn't blown up to this unfathomably massive ever-churning industry by people in literal droves #idk idk i have a lot of thoughts on kpop it's truly a very interesting thing and to have been aware of it and into it to #an extent a while before the sonic boom in the west is an incredibly wild thing to look back on #like i wanna follow this (mostly cause i wanna hear the whole song) but also v curious but also like man the system is bad for many #reasons & here's another batch on the conveyor belt. idk :/ #like as long as the participants are happy and healthy and being actually taken care of and not advantage of then great but #yk. the music industry at large is horrible (and esp to women) so like. god ide wanna think about the disparities btwn girl & boy groups #(like to start are they not referred to as 'male groups' on the reg but 'girl groups' more often than 'female'? always w the infantalizing #like given girl group has way more ring than female group but the words still conjure up different things it's just how language works #but boy group idk if i've ever really heard someone use that? and there's been a long time battle w the reclamation of 'boy band' #like it's still dirty for a lot of folks but anyway v western context but there's a large fanbase here so many fans speak as such #this is what we call our own pop groups etc. and it's just interesting and sad idk anyway it's just... huuuhhh a lot.) ok gn lol