#there is a focus on like...... feeling guilty over jacks murder! bc tim felt powerless to stop it!

[yj-98]

i think that if anyone was gonna write "angst" abt tim and being bi/coming out it should be about how jack drake died before tim could tell him. that despite the complicated relationship he had with a parent who wouldve, couldve, been horrible about it, tim never got the choice to tell him (or janet. i love you janet i know you wouldve supported your little guy)

like. the evidence that your parent would react horribly but the need for them to accept you and jack drake who's primary way of bonding with his kid was trying to make him a mans man (but not That kind. yk.) and clearly expected tim to be cisheterosexual vs the reality of a bisexual kid who has a lot of stake in identities and disguises. and like. jack had to grapple with the fact that tim was robin (famously.) but like

idk sorry i just think it would eat at tim. like. part of the guilt of losing the parent you have this complicated relationship with would also be tied to the "they never really knew me, they didnt get the chance or give me the space to tell them" and feeling guilty and sad that you Couldnt come out. and Not Knowing howd they wouldve reacted. and how that could tie to real internalized bullshit! because that is also an lgbt experience! especially with parent death!

#forgive me if i am. incorrect btw but from what i have seen of tims stuff in recent years #there is a focus on like...... feeling guilty over jacks murder! bc tim felt powerless to stop it! #and hes a little control freak <- mostly a joke i do love him #so its especially poignant #and theres focus on his bisexuality and exploring what He Wants #but there could be tasty intersections here to explore!!! whole meals!!!! #rook.log