#there’s a Russian artist who’s been doing unbearably tender watercolors of the character group in question for like three years straight

[burinazar]

Keep having semi coherent thoughts on what a weird mix I have experienced in fandom spaces last year of

“sense of sadness over practical language barriers preventing in-depth communication between parties who feel deeply affected by one another’s art”

and

“sense of deep connectedness brought about by the fact our appreciation for same characters and the art we showed each other anyway can overcome those barriers and our feelings can reach each other to some extent”

and the fact the story and characters in question have an in-narrative theme of separation thru different practical causes (usually more dire than mere language barriers — physical confinement, time shifts, loss of humanity) and yet the bonds between them prevail even so……..

This is really incoherent but I hope I can find a less silly way to articulate how meaningful it all feels and the combination of sad and sweet….

#Orphan hole tag #all these moments of profound feeling connection w people I can barely talk to #whose hearts were bleeding over the same characters and stories #there’s a Russian artist who’s been doing unbearably tender watercolors of the character group in question for like three years straight #don’t think she speaks English/not much #my sister studied Russian maybe she can help me write a msg trying to articulate the things the art makes me feel #there’s another artist in China whose works ……I could write long long essays on the meaningful symbolism in every piece…it means so much…. #they speak some English but I don’t want to overwhelm them so I don’t leave huge reams of text on their work #and then..they randomly read my fanfic and said they loved it??? i was so happy #people from France and Spain and Italy and Germany and China and Russia and (naturally/most commonly since this is an anime fandom ) Japan #we’ve been able to exchange words even if i cannot fully make my heart known to them the things their works mean to me #it feels important #lol pleading with my future self to come back and follow through on expressing all this in a coherent way someday