#these are just the 5am ramblings of a sadist who is also fanfic lover

[softboiled-detective]

silently going insane because i wanna read character injury so fucking bad right now except ive gone through all of my fav character tags and considering i read mostly only for toku these days (although i fucking branched out to fucking hakuouki a few weeks ago but ive completely cleaned out heisukes tag a long while ago) fucking its like wading in a kiddie pool i already picked the leaves out of going through the tags to read whatever appeals to me. i revisited gokai gai’s tag recently and i found like 2 fics that were good that i missed and one of them was a long ass plot fic which was nice because gai got the short end of the stick in terms of injuries. concussions are nice.... the writing itself was good except the story structure was kinda weird... a bit disjointed because it was nonlinear and rotating perspective and didnt really execute it That well. i think it just didnt have enough planning. i loved gai in the fic tho but anyways now im just hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i wanna read more hurt.... whump....................... but theres so little out there.... even if i go back to my more popular old fandoms theres still only gonna be a small fraction of it thats actually going to be the stuff i wanna read....................

im just gonna list out my basic list of sadistic “kinks” (quotes bc they arent sexual really) bc i need to ramble: bruises, cuts, nosebleeds, drowning, choking, terror, impalement, stab wounds, bullet wounds, blood loss, bone fractures, concussions, fevers (i love sickfic a lot btw...), hypothermia, nausea, headaches/migraines, overexertion, fatigue, falling unconscious also counts.......... just whenever fanfic give a good descriptions of any damage and injury and suffering.... just pain and agony in general..... well in the case of concussions its not necessarily pain but more disorientation and confusion that gets me going.. just knowing that they are Not Fine..... this is a long list but i. have. specific and wide range... of tastes................ i just wanna read this stuff..... especially if it has some degree of medical accuracy and/or believable realism.......... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fanfiction........... i want it to cater to me and i am willing to pay for it..... but mnmndjkgdk low key shy about being so explicit in what i want.......... sadistically,

im gonna........ trying to think of what tags i havent checked out yet for tok- TIMERANGER NAOTO actually i dont even know if there will be even like. 4. fic for timeranger..... cant hurt to look tho.............

#jem.txt #these are just the 5am ramblings of a sadist who is also fanfic lover #very. blatantly a sadist in these ramblings... #i have strong fanfic cravings in this moment................ had to express them somewhere................