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#they tell me i should t bottle evrything up and i too should get angry whenever i am angrg
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and just like that I suddenly don't have the will to live anymore again
#i love my parents but i lost all of my desire to stay alive because of them
#they tell me that i can tell everything to them
#but when i start opening up even just a little bit it's like they dont even listen
#all they do is fucking try to lecture me
#im sick of this
#they tell me i should t bottle evrything up and i too should get angry whenever i am angrg
#but when i do show my anger they just yell at me to stop being angry what the fuck do they want from me
#bye vie suicidal era back again the only thing stopping me from committing again is the fear of jahannam hah
#today was supposed to be a good day
#sick and tired of breathing
#every time i think im getting better something happens and im drowning again
#what a coincidence that each time its my parents pulling the trigger
#had a big headache and did the chores they wanted me to do before heading to bed
#and then suddenly im yanked awake bc of another fucking guest they brought over. sick and tired of catering to people i couldnt
#care less about
#served them food cleaned the house and tried to go back to sleep bc of my pounding head
#and now they want me to clean the kitchen.
#and then they ask me why i dont like living with them
#its bc every two fucking days another random person is crashing at our house and i get no say in anything
#and i have to clean after their shit and feed them and im tired of this
#i never asked to care for them in the first place
#god im so done
#if my willpower and fear of Allah wasn't stron enough i would have fucking ended everything ages ago
#it would have been so satisfying to finally end it and make them all suffer
#i would have loved it
#they constantly move around every single year and me and my siblings never had a sense of stability anywhere
#messed me up real good hah being pulled every fucking continent
#people say its a blessing to be able to move around a lot and experience new things every month
#it's exhausting. i envy people who live in the same place they grew up in
#idek where i consider my home idek who i am or to which place im supposed to feel the most attached to or who im supposed to miss and love
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