#theyve all spent the year constantly thinking about mc being tortured or worse but kade has to blame himself for all this. after all if he

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i hope mc makes mal wear a wig or im not buying a single scene with him in bolas2

#@ character designers who think its a good idea to have a male character with long hair cut it: why are you like this #oh im loving how angsty this book will be in the first half ugh!!! with all the lis its rough #tyril spent a year wandering around mourning feeling like he failed kaya only to watch mc vanish before his eyes not being able to help the #nias just figuring out who she is as a person and loses mc and her whole support system who helped her dismantle her entire worldview #mal never really trusted anyone besides his sister before mc and the rest of the group came along. hes abandoned #just like he was when his mom died. left all alone again after forming the first meaningful bonds hes had in over a decade probably #imtura had her crew obviously but i hc that there was always a divide between her and them bc shes never known what she should do #be herself away from the pressures of her mom and flotilta (flotila??) or reluctantly step up and accept she has to sacrifice herself #and kade!!!!! he spent months being tortured then he gets saved by his sibling only to have them be kidnapped in front of him #he knows whats capable of happening in the shadow realm so hes spent the year in the library poring over tomes for something anything #theyve all spent the year constantly thinking about mc being tortured or worse but kade has to blame himself for all this. after all if he #didnt get trapped mc wouldnt have absorbed the blade of light and wouldnt be a target. just ugh!!!!! fantastic angst