#this determined whether or not i graduate and costs three hundred dollars to submit and i still don't even have my student teaching

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edtpa makes me want to tear my hair out and drop out of school

#ya girl isn't smart enough for this ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #normally i could do this stuff but in this context like trying to hype myself up and be like 'look at all the things i did right' when i'm #just a practicum student and it feels like nothing i did Was right because it's not because i'M A PRACTICUM STUDENT is like pulling teeth #and i'm so worried that they'll think i'm incompetent and fail me but i don't want to do well i just want to pass and i feel so stupid when #look at the example provided because it's all worded SO WELL and ik i need to stop looking at it but some of the questions are worded in #ways that confuse me because i swear this is something wrong with my brain and they're like fancy test questions meant to sound more #challenging than they are and i just want to bang my head against the wall and curl in a ball and cry but i don't wanna do that but i do and #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #sorry i'm stressed lol #this determined whether or not i graduate and costs three hundred dollars to submit and i still don't even have my student teaching #placement yet and i start in almost a little over a month and idk idk idk #sorry for the breakdown do y'all still think i'm hot #imma go take a break and watch dance moms or something and dip goldfish in salsa #s/o to my boss for being very nice <3