#this is 100% about the investigative series into the connections between greta thunberg and the anticipated fourth industrial revolution

[ramroller]

the hardest thing over the last couple of years has been to understand and accept how urgency lends itself to fascism and other reactionary viewpoints.

it definitely seems like things are moving faster and more crazily each day. this is obviously creating a lot of anxiety and fear.

but that fear is the heart of a reactionary mindset (thanks yoda lol). the fear that these smalls gains will be taken back from us just as quickly as we win them. and unfortunately, just as all of us have to go through the difficult and painstaking process of unlearning racism, homophobia, misogyny, etc, we also have to learn to reject the reactionary frame of mind that leads those of us with the privileges of the so-called "first world" to believe that what our society puts out as truth, via news and the media, is THE truth. there is A LOT to be said about how folks in the US prioritize the aesthetics of how we convey information rather than the information itself- a soundbite can be cut to mean anything- context is VITAL. 

something that i think about almost every single day now is the night before dinner when i was at camp when our prayer leader, at the end of prayer, said "remember to be careful about what you say to who you dont know. we know not all the moles are white".

i guess this is on my mind daily because it seems like the reductive binaristic mentality of identity politics has thoroughly infused a lot of the organizing and activism ive been involved with, to varying degrees. and yeah, sometimes that was on me. but more importantly and more often, it was on a few of us, coming to bad conclusions through a series of different people's bad politics. and that is what can be really dangerous, because you've tricked yourself into thinking that because it was a group's decisions, there were checks and balances, instead of understanding that we were all starting from the same flawed mindset.

for me it's always been the urgency. and in trying to look towards the longevity of what we can build, that urgency has always been there just on my shoulder. it's the main point where i have refused to acknowledge my own internalized reactionary mindset.

i had to read, and read, and read it again, before i was finally willing to accept how fear and urgency make us extremely effective tools of the power structures that be. and now to combat the fear that we've had these realizations too late, and the urgency that comes from that. is it a self-maintaining cycle.

for me, ive gotten about as far as realizing that this manipulation of my psyche if taking place. i'm starting to recognize when it's happening, but more importantly i understand how it actually works against what we are hoping to build. the rest of it is on me to accept that this is real even though it hurts my ego to admit that i've gotten played here and there. but basically if you arent learning one thing every day about everything going on that doesn't fundamentally challenge the points of view you've developed- ESPECIALLY if you consider yourself a political outsider- then you're definitely getting played. 

i hated it when ppl used to imply that i was in a leftist echo chamber, but unfortunately, the internet is very very good at creating such paces. if it's been a minute since you learned something that radically alters how you understand this fight, youre probably in one too. it's cool, cause we've all been there, but ultimately you gotta kick the door open yourself. /endthought

#this is 100% about the investigative series into the connections between greta thunberg and the anticipated fourth industrial revolution #into green capitalism #id sugget everyone read the series