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#this is the kind of neuroticism that straddles the line between quirky and unpleasent
youraveragemushroom
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#i dont think im made for love because i fall into devotion too quick
#it becomes worship i exalt before i fall or whatever and i set myself up for failure every time
#self fulfilling prophecy and all that the usual
#but i cant bare to actually imagine love in a reciprocal way
#i feel like thats why i find myself ending up heartbroken by the best people
#because they are the best and i have to ruin it bc i cant stand to let myself be happy
#or more than that i cant imagine fathom believe whatever that someone could actually want me
#and i get it im in the same boat buddy
#and tbh idk if i even want someone to like me rn or if im just starved for attention
#bc ik i cant offer anything real or substantion rn probably ever
#thats the thing about devotion right i was born into some beliefs i cant shake
#and nobody deserves to be second on someones list only beaten by the most contentious relationships i have
#number 1 will always be whoever makes me cry the most ive come to realise
#i spent a minute contemplating using the american vs british spelling of realize
#this is the kind of neuroticism that straddles the line between quirky and unpleasent
#unfortunately i dont have the pretty privilege to get away with being a great value manic pixie dream girl
#which whatever i feel like im too anxious and self aware to be that carefree
#but that doesnt mean i dont want the noise to fade to a gentle static
#the last time it was quiet in my head it was when i could see a veritable sea of stars
#next year i might spend the day in the woods or a field far out on the other side of texas
#ill find the right time to see the right stars ill try to come back to see the ones i saw before
#the universe collapsing in on itself thats what it feels like to be alive
#but when i look up and i see the twinkling lights it settles the restless creature within me
#stops it from clawing at the walls of my heart
#it nestles in the thicket of my aortas and ventricles
#it settles and finds temporary solace looking up at the stars with me
#the stardust in my veins the one i share with every living creature a byproduct of being a child of the universe
#it sings a song to us matching amplification but in antiphase to leave us in silence
#well i wouldnt call it silence because thats the vaccuum of space
#maybe its serenity maybe we find equilibrium in contextualization
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