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#this post has no purpose except to remind myself that I've been in a state of burnout for like four years straight
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Post #16
I've skipped several days to recover myself from a constant attack of anxieties and insecurities especially regarding my ability to write in English. I'm constantly battling the desire for comfort and oblivion in sleep, and failing at it terribly. I think without my knowing evil is attacking me with needless thoughts, distractions and emotions. Because I have not been in church for a while to receive the Sacraments, I've made myself vulnerable to all kinds of negative influences and stimuli. I know I am able to write coherently and concisely. My past blog posts prove that. I know I am capable of engaging audiences. I know I can wield English in its proper sentence structure. And I know I possess the vocabulary to express myself. But as I convince myself this, I am continually reminded of my past work in an awful 'wellness company' that had stagnated, and possibly ruined my writing interests. Ambiguity became the purpose of my writings. To not market clearly for dubious products that just cannot be legally sold in most countries. I had to adjust my writing style, to include superlatives and bombastic adjectives, in order to embellish and exaggerate for a conman boss, who despite his empire of dishonest enterprise, has provided jobs for Sabahans, myself included, with exceptional salary, even if it is for the expansion of his con. While working for him, I wasn't improving in skillset but I had job security. The environment killed my spirit. But now, I need job security more than ever. I need God's help. In order to do so, I must get out of this inactive state for God to help me. I cannot lie still for something to happen. Consuming social criticism and making me cynical of society isn't contributing to society. Watching how the theologically-challenged Pope is ruining the church isn't helping me build my faith. Watching crazy liberals getting shit on by JoeyBToonz is not making the world a better place. I have to get out there and act, and move. Praying for humanity to restore sanity as the loud progressives run headlong into their clouded fantasy world is doing something. Everything should begin with a prayer. Action must follow suit. There. I said it. I shouldn't just be writing. Good night.
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So this is a good video with lots of details and it should help explain why and how these officers are arrested.
This goes back to George Floyd. Remember i said it didn't matter who and what George Floyd had done -- when those officers put on their uniforms and went to him as cops and purposely killed him in that manner it changed things
Every time I write about how we have specific requirements people have in their death for their criminal activity in lui of prison I write how we have specific people allowed to do it.
Now some demanded they be killed by cops. And i refused that in excepting where they "rat" out their cop friends or up to 4 regular friends or co-workers and we set and/or allow it to occur that way. And i stipulated that they must be off duty if they were going to do anything for the Earth. Off duty cops only. And to which a reluctant agreement and/or an immediate acceptance did occur. And they did rat out their friends already there. So that was in their favor so they accepted off duty out of uniform officers. I said that they could like be listening to the police scanner and then go on their own to a crime in place and then be unidentified in news articles. Just as their clothing did not identify them, the news media and other officers would not identify them either.
We had a whole rule sheet. Which we all 100% agreed to. African American. Caucasian. Hispanic. Latino. Zulululu. Tribeca. Original human. And more. It wasn't a just three or four people we had over 100 people with each and every minority race accept at least twice with 2 different individuals. I worked with the meanest. Moat stubborn and most dictatorial. Then others read over the document I typed as we talked and signed it on approval. 254 people. 10 non criminals signed off. 34% African American criminal.
Because we scheduled on the Black Lives Matter, we wanted a majority of African American of mixed alien and evil human to have their say. They will add the document onto this post. And likely blur the signatures for privacy.
This was a Middle man. He wasn't sure if he wanted to have his family suffer through jail time and all that for his sanity to know he's loved or cut and dry have it over for them immediately and them.
So they signed another form where it was not like the other which was just sign random like a year book. But in a list. At that time those who were undecided could be dismissed if they signed onto one or the other is fine whatever is Destiny is. Or if they were firm. Some like the one whom was hung stayed because he was one of the ones who fought for procedure for the criminals. Then we brought more People in to have their voices on other subjects.
So they were grouped as to how and why. Then at the end we emailed and said this is all we have. Your last time to vote is now. And so if they changed it, then they were taken single and asked why or did they want an option mix so it was a mystery zzz
George Floyd was there and he did rat out his police he was working with and we told him because they were police it was our choice. And we would not ever say he told.
George Floyd then brought over Rayshard and said he had death questions and that was all
And I said "well what are you doing George?! Don't mix him up! He was fine! Hes a strong good one"
"You know. You're so weird you give us love and support although you hate us" George Floyd replied. I didn't know what to say. I did. And it hurt my chest and it was exhausting and literally made me sick. But I still felt it was the right thing to do. But they broke my heart. I did give them all 100% of my love. And it nearly killed me. And I was grateful he noticed. I was killing myself for them and he knew. And he cared about that.
"You know I feel real When I've cared about you and well all the others, too. And you feel that? I've given you all my love as a friend as best i could. My tolerance and patience and I just want to say thank you that you noticed"
He blushed and he admitted that he wanted to get out of the life. And George Floyd, did.
In 2008. I told him, "George Floyd, talk to me. I have a feeling. I see you will die anyway because you're in a dangerous position. So if you are killed while trying to get clean, what do you want me to do for you?"
He was not thrilled and his head spun "by who?"
"Cops. Or someone you think is family. I see not a knife but a manual killing. Like its not an auto like gun But hand to hand but it's fast and you suffer..." I lowered my eyes from his beautiful face and looked down at my laptop key board... "Less" and I kept my head bowed to breathe. To not cry. To keep myself sane and we'll balanced. Then I took a deep breath. And tuned to my left where my officials were "hey I have a problem. He's going to be killed when he's innocent"
George Floyd asked for a riot. All i could tell him was it was a dark and suffocating but fast and nearly painless death. "Almost relaxing when you pass. There's something wrong with you isnt there? See now i actually thought you were a CIA agent sitting over there like under cover. But you die. I am feeling it now --- every thing is too wild inside of you, uncontrolled. Like you're...... Restless for lack of a better word. Here come sit next to me"
"But that's your daughter's chair"
"She will come to me. Sit in my lap if she doesnt like you"
"Is this a test?"
"No i want to talk to you and you're too tall and it's hurting my neck to look up at you"
"Oh it's too tall!"
They explained the bone structure in my neck and how then it had been broken 66 times and it was painful. He got nervous. I let him settle himself.
"So what is it you want to talk to me about"
"Well you meddle ... No... You progress.. What im talking to you. I see you lurking over the lists and talking to everyone that passes and I'm wondering how they're taking it"
"Oh its good. It's good. Can i go now? I feel like I'm in the principal's office"
My daughter and Declan came preventing his escape. And my daughter accepted him, gave him a hug and sat on his long thigh
"That's not Snoop, you know that?!" I asked her
"Oh mommy you're so silly. I know snoop and this isn't"
She talked to him and judged him as "nice"
"So is it money that you're doing your life like this?"
"Oh what? Yeah" tears came from his eyes. "What's more is I didn't know what to do with myself. I was angry at the world. And i just.. Just.. Made a mistake. But I'm ready to admit to it and own up to it and so is he. But he won't stop, he told me. But i will. I'm thinking and that's what i been telling all them folks, the bros, "im stopping. You with me?" And oh woah. I feel so much better i was so nervous like what is with me and now i feel just a release! Thank you for caring about me"
He reminded me of Jesse James.
"What is your least way you want to die?"
"Oh by cop.I signed up for hanging because I knew you didn't want to and you'd check my file and hopefully then see I was worth living"
I felt this emotional turbine inside of me. A mix of extreme joy and sadness because I knew the world wouldn't work out for him but he was so simply amazing and Gracious and just one beautiful soul. And I told him so. Crying then laughing.
So with him we worked out, the last and worst death to be written in yellow. Then a second option, for I don't mind mystery in purple or pink. And the main option in black or blue.
The worst deaths were to be kept secret. In a seperate locked file that no one has access to but tree Which could release it for revenge sake.
I've felt George Floyd around me a lot since his death.
Rayshand Brooks signed on the same line both yellow and purple. For death by cop.
George Floyd wasn't supposed to die at all.
Rayshand. Was. So those that die in manner they dont want but were scheduled to die, we burn one of my buildings. We water the areas and business around the building we will burn before lighting the fire.
The reason why they're looking for our arson in Atlanta for Wendy's is because she didn't water and it was next to a gas station. And it was on her list of things to do. So the news report stating the 10k award to find her means that she will not be paid for that nights activity because the area around must be watered especially at a gas station. She didn't when push the emergency stop button at the station which is recommended if watering cannot be done. All she did was set the fire and it was a great fire. But she didnt do any other protocol. Only after 5 hours did she admit to not following safety practices. Another girl went and checked the gas station after the fire started and asked the cashier what to do and they decided together to push the emergency stop button and then water the areas around the pumps and in the parking lot with a hose.
It doesn't matter before or after but "recommended steps" means you're gonna recommend I pay you to do shit. I can't order you to do shit that is somewhat illegal to my own mind I can't ask someone to break the law. So all my orders are "recommendations" if you do one thing on the list, you do them all.
It was a $12k payout for the "arson and all the recommendations" it's an a la carte list, all jobs are. Each job pays the # at the end.
#1. Arson
#2. Water 6
#3. press emergency stop 4
#4. stick around to not observe but keep people safe 2
That was the order for Wendy's.
Class how much do we pay for arson? Nothing. The public finds it offensive and illegal.
Watering pays $6,000 if there's 10 people it depends on how much they do. All ten may get the full $6,000 and some may not if they were just standing by to be second hand water for emergency. Then it's at least $2k I have it all rigid and perfected but they pay how they do. Like sometimes you'll water but then someone else will come and you gotta pee and you get adhd and go talk to bystanders and go talk to cops and go drive in the car and check the hood. So you began watering with 2 others and a 4th came up. So you get $2k for 10 minutes plus then other pay. ESPECIALLY since it wasn't your job. CIA only.
Pressing the emergency stop. You can do that on your own then you must notify the gas station attendant of the danger they are in so they may flee (which was written in details) it pays $4,000 also you have to block the driveway to stop cars from entering. Using wet floor signs or traffic cones or water buckets for windshield cleaning what ever is available. I secretly then give businesses a GIFT if we have to close them and i label it under some kind of just good business neighborhood gift. For loss of income during our insanity. Which in this case is $10k for the gas station
Now the Wendy's burned so well due to the fuel inside. And this girl didn't have anyone to clear the Wendy's of financial records or goods. Computers and other Shit. I assumed she did.
The furniture inside should been removed due to vivid and it being a potential burn site. Nothing should,remained but the kitchen. The food in this case could been taken out as well. All you have to do is your jobs.
But whatever. People aren't thinking.
I didn't understand so much why the Mayor was so PISSED because i have a different view and job. And so now I see. Which we haven't got to that point yet.
Im going to continue on fire danger.
Wendys is full of oil. Which the storage oil for future use should be removed. As well as bread and vegetables and so on. What the fuck is the point to burn a big ole building of a restaurant if you're not gonna serve vegetable and cheese sandwiches in the parking lot while watching it burn?
A BBQ without the meat! A roast without the marshmallows!
Oil can be given to other fast food restaurants. Idc what i don't want is containers of oil exploding. Usually they're in plastic so they melt so its not a major issue but it needs to be checked.
Our CIA are given a key and the alarm pass code so they have time and ability to be very cautious in what is left inside.
This one did a "stick up" no hostages and lit the fire with the workers still inside. Waving a gun around
Protocol is waving a badge "this restaurant is now closed due to the proximity of the crime scene"
So we have to pay those particular employees for trauma now.
Which is coming 100% out of whoever told her not to do that shit. That she's supposed to do, as well as whatever I decide to pay her due to apparently now I hear some Jack ass running scores and thinking they know more than me. And since she code red at the store were going to evaluate what she was thinking.
And so I will continue. The oil baskets must remain uncovered and open to prevent explosions.
They can be drained to the floor but as long as they're open they don't have to be drained.
And there's a lot done for safety because of the potential for explosions.
So the point is that its an honor. Its lighting a torch. Like the statue of liberty for a bad example.
I asked George because some people walking by twisted my heart. I asked him to help me clarify. Because he would get nervous like. Antsy. So those particular people wanted to be good but they had blockages to prevent them. Deep psychological issues that stopped them.
So I asked for them to be honest and use the yellow.
This is how Mr Brooks took all his deaths and wrote his name on the topic death lists in yellow next to his colors.
It was about more money. But they had such conflict within themselves.
We had my daughter to verify character, i get so busy i like a clear mind to verify.
So like Mr Brooks was confirmed nice. "I don't like what you do but I hope you get better" Declan said and gave him a hug around his neck.
My mouth dropped open.
So our burning of buildings symbolizes the mental hell these people suffered and we continue in hope and prayer for their souls to be set free by then making a community park with freedom, free fresh food and so on.
"Freedom Parks, Miss Rosa Parks" may they find a goal worth suffering for.
And not suffering for money.
Its an extremely spiritual thing.
Its a movement like non other that has ever existed.
We got permission from most governors. When that didn't allow, we went to mayors and city council. To get permits and permission.
For Atlanta they blocked the fire truck's traffic.
I prefer fire truck on sight for community development. The sight of a fireman watering down the area around the burn site -- were not firemen we dont know how to put out a fire.
So protocol. Is watering the infrastructure around,the fire. Talk to by standers and make a community effort in being available and around and there for the community
Every now and again a certain type of not normally used full force blast to show the fire if sprayed directly (in that manner) will make the fire jump and burn higher. To show they're not stupid.
Because me? I'd be all wtf? Put the fire out!!!!
So there's a traditional way since the Black Panthers movement that it's done.
And so fire men are supposed to say "we're letting it burn out" if people ask "because it's safer" from me -.- muhaha.
Then I REALLY like firemen to let people try on and check out their fire gear and explain what happens and how they save people from burning buildings and stuff like that.
Usually i have a low key know it all lurking so he can help explain.
Its like a little carnival full of carnage.
Free food behind the fire truck and the firemen talking to people and "showing off" and so on.
That is what is supposed to happen.
We did that with black Panthers in NYC and so on. But we were extremely careful. 2 or more streets away we had a full street of vendors with food trucks and free food and drinks and some selling things very cheap like me and the shirts and candy and cokes.
Water was always free on fire nights. I was out even id the fires were not burning. And usually it was an abandoned building that wasn't fixable and wasn't historic and we built city parks. Playground mostly. And cashew trees. Nut as oppose to fruit trees Bec they're less messy than rotting fruit on the playground floor.
Sometimes white supremacy burned the buildings and then I would buy them.
That is how it started. The white supremacy began burning a building I just bought for apartments. But it burned too fast to save. I was devastated
I knew the only way to beat them was join them. Besides physically beating them in the street
But if a fire was burning they were happy. Didn't matter who started it they took credit.
Our buildings are death specific. And not many. Mostly for black men that are killed and killed by police in uniform or some how on the yellow
BUT it is A Specific Type of Person we burn for. And we burn to release their Hell. "The building is in inferno to represent Hell. Keep it out of your mind and soul and it will stay out of your life if you let it"
Then we put a Freedom Park that's community based and community benefiting to show them what they could done with the Hell on thier mind as opposed to what they did do.
Now simply Mr. Baker requested incarceration as opposed to death. He thought he could change in prison. Unfortunately he ran out of time.
Now for the officers being charged with homicide. The officers were in uniform.
Nothing more. Nothing less.
A CIA Agent could been requested
We could had a sniper. We could had one getin the car with Mr Baker and kidnap him.
What I saw was the police intervene as showing they had set him up and the kidnapping wouldn't go through because he was a set up.
It could been done in secret.
What happened was IN UNIFORM after being shot, laying down he was kicked in the head then his shoulder stood on. That is what CIA is allowed to do, not regular police men in uniform
That's why they're being arrested
Simply.
As I've ranted on, CIA has extreme protocol.
Police do as well
I fire CIA, sometimes kill.
Police must be held accountable as well.
This particular girl who started the fire will not be paid. She got cash register and safe money which is supposed to be turned in.
So we will see how far she wants to take this not following rules business
Because we don't slap on the wrist this day and age.
I'll have her ass turned in myself and tell the agency to keep the 10k award.
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