#to let go of her past deeds and abstain from wrong doing as an equally important figure (a martyr they all were. at least supposedly)

[consciouschunkofmoss]

i dont know why but i let sahba and anna live

#i do know #but im not sure its for the best of reasons anymore #aspity in the end was jealous of clara for not being a martyr herself #feeling trapped in midst the needs of the kin #and anna would want the same #to let go of her past deeds and abstain from wrong doing as an equally important figure (a martyr they all were. at least supposedly) #i suddenly feel bad for having left them behind #the town thrives and they are both still carrying on #but at what cost ? #i knew the saburovs would die sooner or later #if you can no longer rely on your roles you might as well go #so i couldnt choose them either #but stakh and grigory were already settled. oyun too #the aristocrats didnt feel needed no longer #yulia would be more than willing to give up her own life #lara as well. though both would do so not for selfless reasons #not at all #oyun and stakh were already decided upon #there was no turning back #i wish i could have kept the saburovs close #but much like many connections and deeds in this path #such a dynamic needed to be severed in order for the story to develop itself and clara be finally made to move on and evolve #it was such a difficult choice #and i chose sahba for her direct ties to artemy #thinking that maybe thats what she would have wanted #but that one last revelation made me regret it instantly #and anna. i plainly wanted to see her cycle of self loathing go on #i think that this character out all others is the most complex #she is simple in her antics and mentality #but what lays in how her path intersects with the others is more than enough to make you question the basis of morality as a whole