#trb.txt

[theriverbeyond]

foundational griddlehark dynamic is them treating each other not as people but as swords to fall on or lashes to bear. Harrow uses Gideon as her personal instrument of penance never paying mind to if Gideon would want that outside of Harrow's own self flagellatory fantasies. Gideon can only conceptualize Harrow's feelings for her via her own desire-to-be-used and inability to see herself as having any inherent value outside of that use, neither of which is actually rooted in what Harrow truly feels. neither of them even sees herself as a real person and by consequence they don't know how to consider each other as fully formed people who have their own thoughts seperate from what they project outwards onto the other. send post.

#📢 CODEPENDENCY #griddlehark #the locked tomb #tlt thoughts #trb.txt #rotating them....

[theriverbeyond]

biggest betrayal of adulthood is that cleaning as u go really is better

#trb.txt #😔 my mother really was right... #cooking. art. the bed. everything.....

[theriverbeyond]

reading Annihilation.... abt halfway thru ch 1 and it slaps so far so 🤞

#love the vibes so far. very sinister #media blogging #wauce if u see this i HAVE NOT given up on lolita i prommy #trb.txt

[theriverbeyond]

YES i really enjoy watching random people i don't know dissect horror media i have never watched/read/played for several hours at a time NO i don't want to actually watch horror. we exist.

#written horror is ok sometimes. visual and audio horror is ok like mostly never. detailed dissection & analysis is ok all the time. we exist #trb.txt #media blogging #this post is directed at youtube ads. which keep showing me horror movie ads. please stop ‼️👎

[theriverbeyond]

Ideal work schedule:

I show up and am given a list of cognitively engaging but achievable tasks

I complete the list

I leave immedietly

#guy who is getting out of work at 1pm!!!! 📢 #tomorrow is my last day but u have loved this job. i love to leave. #trb.txt #i* have

[theriverbeyond]

i must not get takeout. takeout is the wallet-killer. takeout is the little-death that brings total obliteration. i will face the kitchen, fridge, and pantry. i will make choices about what to cook and then execute them. when hunger is gone there will be nothing. only i will remain.

#trb.txt #me at myself you are NOT ALLOWED to get takeout again this week we have food at home 😭

[theriverbeyond]

companies underestimate how much locking their content behind needing an account will just make me go do something else. oh your website wants me to make an account to view this content? oh your website doesn't show media to logged-out users? okay. i didn't actually want to see it that bad. yeah. bye ✌️

#twitter #trb.txt #websites need to realize that they are not a fandom artist i follow posting cropped art screenshots with a link to a spicy paetrom tier!!! #websites just do not have that draw!!!!! #welcome to me falling asleep posting hour where i empty my entire brain into the internet before falling asleep.

[theriverbeyond]

"kill them with kindness" wrong. bone construct

#harrowhark nonagesimus #cytherea loveday #the locked tomb #trb.txt #x

[theriverbeyond]

[emerging from the hozier song covered in blood] anyway,

#the silly zone... #trb.txt #hozier #unreal unearth

[theriverbeyond]

they need to make more study places for bitches who don't want to expose their back to an open room

#in a diff library than usual today.... prey animal ass instinct #trb.txt #the only desks avalible r all facing the wall like no thanks!!!! #school blogging

[theriverbeyond]

why don't you do arts and crafts for 5 hours and then you'll calm down

#@ me........ my crops are flourishing rn. im creatively hydrated. #just spent 5 hours typesetting guys guess what. it is way easier to typeset a 8k fic than. 80k. im getting my mojo back #am i on top of my studies... well. you see. #trb.txt

[theriverbeyond]

the problem with griddlehark is that Gideon desperately wants to be a well used chewtoy but Harrow has carefully put her up on the shelf like she is a limited edition funko pop still in the box

#griddlehark #gideon nav #harrowhark nonagesimus #the locked tomb #trb.txt #gideon looks at those barkbox super chewers and says theyre just like me fr #anyway. there is always some bitch in a tomb in these books #have i made this post before probably #in my defense im very eepy

[theriverbeyond]

Gideon Nav terrible fashion sense is so important to me babygirl has never been free to dress herself in her LIFE and i firmly believe that if she did have that freedom she would wear just. the most dogshit outfits. socks with slides. neon colors. shirts that say TITS with an arrow pointing down. outfits so bad every woman she meets is begging to take her on a department store makeover episode. outfits so bad you wonder if she got dressed in the dark upside down picking her clothing items by chaos potential. outfits so bad they wrap around to being sick as hell before winding back and punching you straight in the face

#gideon nav #the locked tomb #thinking about how her whole life she's just been. stuck in roles dictated to her. and trying to break free so bad #but babygirl is in QUICKSAND the more she reaches for freedom the more violently it is ripped away from her. #anyway. gideon goofy oitfit truthers rise up #like if she had the freedom to dress herself eventually i think she would grow to have a really nice sense of style #but she needs that freedom first. to be goofy. #to ME #trb.txt #tlt thoughts

[theriverbeyond]

pros of doing crafts in bed: comfy, cozy, my cat is hanging out with me, i have so many pillows

cons of doing crafts in bed: LOST NEEDLE!!! IN MY BED!!! AAHHHHH

#trb.txt #anyway! life update!

[theriverbeyond]

Harrow the Ninth is really a book about what happens when you are the Best At Something your whole life and you sweat and bleed and sacrifice everything to earn your way to the place/position you've always dreamed of, but then when you do succeed it isn't as you expected. Not only does everyone you once admired turn out to be an awful person, but your abilities are no longer special. Your talent isn't enough. Your effort isn't enough. Your new peers have worked just as hard as you have and know just as much as you do, but more than that: they seem suddenly better, faster, more capable, all while you flounder in the shallow end of the pool as the abilities you spent your whole life honing abandon you in your time of need. Humiliation becomes your constant companion as you sweat and bleed and try anyway, but what once netted you endless success and acolades is now barely enough to survive.

And then, of course, there is The Skull

#tlt meta #trb.txt #harrow the ninth #harrowhark nonagesimus #harrow the ninth book that you are...... #book about burnout book about grief book about weird wet towel bitches who won't leave you alone

[theriverbeyond]

Hi my name is Crux Nolastname and I have no hair (it is sacramentally shorn) and my skull is very bony and have black eyes like coal and a lot of people tell me I look like a dead corpse (AN: if u don’t know what that is get da hell out of here!). I’m not related to the Reverend Family but I wish I was because they are the best. I’m a mean old coot and my teeth falling out and yellow. I have grey and purple skin. I’m also a bitch, and I live on a installation on Pluto called the Ninth House (I’m 95 years old). I’m a penitant (in case you couldn’t tell) and I wear mostly black. I love the hand-me-downs of the Ninth House and I get all my clothes from there. For example today I was wearing a black robe with matching embroidery around it and a black leather miniskirt, pink fishnets and black combat boots. A redheaded dyke child stared at me. I hit her with my stick.

#the locked tomb #crux #posting this on request with no context #trb.txt #x #child abuse ment