#two semesters of advanced spanish. a lot of forcing myself out of my comfort zone later. still reeling from feeling idiotic and undeserving

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guys i think I found something that makes me want to kill myself LESS oh my god

#im acting like this is some grand revelation but get this: literature #i used to read/write/analyze/study various languages so intensely in hs but by the time i hit 17 i was so mentally ill i couldn't do #anything but stay in my bed and house in general i was like so horribly suicidal until march 2022 .. #anyway enough back story like last year was rough too i was suicidal during most of winter and spring too.. #but. #two semesters of advanced spanish. a lot of forcing myself out of my comfort zone later. still reeling from feeling idiotic and undeserving #of opportunities and praise. i have realised. i quite like this in comparison to everything else #am i still dealing with major depression? yeah. and the anxiety and the other thing too but its more bearable for the 80 minutes #im in Spanish class dissecting sentence structure and analyzing literary devices #so yeah. i had a good class today! highlight of my day was the morning lol #i fear for the rest of the day going to shit but its okay. at least i had a good hour so far today. a whole hour and thirty minutes!!!! #my spanksh professors have been so nice and cool i really wish them all the best #*spanish #¡Viva Latinoamérica! fr fr #z.post