#uck this is kinda cringe might delete later

[parkercore-69]

resonating with abed a little bit TOO much recently, because i too feel like i’ve been passing through life never really understanding the people around me and never really understanding myself, either. Connecting with society through movies and tv and using what I’ve analysed in film to try and make sense of people, yet still being thrown in a loop whenever someone does something I can’t personally ever imagine my own self doing.

and THEN, finding someone who I thought I understood perfectly and vice versa. Finally finding someone who’s mannerisms I could read like a large print book and who’s thoughts i could click together like lego. I felt like i could be fluently understood without any reasoning, like we were both speaking some language only we knew. Loving every moment i spent with them as if it was some sort of sacred experience I may never get to see again- but being ensured that this was forever. Yet, inevitably, being chucked back in the loop when they still leave and I find myself slowly forgetting words in a language that used to feel like second nature.

#OH NO PARKER’S BEING DEPRESSED ON MAIN??? #uck i’m getting over it i swear #famous prophets (stars) plays in my head everytime i think of him #abed nadir #troy barnes #i am abed nadir (unfortunately) #uck this is kinda cringe might delete later #however if i dont say it at some point it may like manifest in me and i get super wild #my i please express my emotions through troy and abed analogies #uuuuuck #trobed #parker spews his troubles connecting emotionally and romantically and platonically and just generically with people #community #community nbc #community i love you #i love you community