#unrelated my back rlly hurts i hope i sleep well tn

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been hanging out with this person who wants to talk to me a lot about gender & sexuality & relationships. & this person keeps. bringing up gender hypotheticals, like “what if i changed my name to something more fem” & stuff. it’s lovely to take those hypotheticals seriously & share & imagine & also a leetle bit stressful

#long fucking journal entry here i guess sorry lol #but o k. #like there’s an affinity there #what’s so intense abt this dynamic is tht we’re both Heavily going thru it rn #& we see each other exactly once a week no more. if that. #so it’s like we’re forced to get to know each other in spurts #it’s nice to have it to look forward to #‘hey hangin in there? ok good. how bout that gender. everything’s fucked lol. see ya next week’ #so scary to be vulnerable god dammit #unrelated my back rlly hurts i hope i sleep well tn #ok back on topic what’s stressful i think is seeing this person just #clearly in so much goddamn pain #& using humor to cope #& i see so much of myself in it #that desperation #fuck