#we need more angst driven parts rn to handle all this traumaaaaa ig fhjdsl i just hate it bc im terrified theyre going to drive ppl away

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wish i could remove my brain to study shdjfkdl im so tired of this disorder being so needlessly confusing AAAUUGHHH

#the issue is that Nine and Andrew and Cal and now Chase(???) all have similar vibes (angsty he/hims SBDJDKL) #and Hunter is vaguely similar but he and Andrew are more similar bc they've got a younger softer vibe to them #and who the fuck knows whats going on with the Cal/Chase situation. are they the same person? two different ppl? #what happened to Cal from September? we just don't know! #i suspect the brain has done some shuffling around to deal with me being a suicide risk dbdhdjsl sobbing #so i think the Cal from September is either integrated and resplit into different formation or is dormant bc he's not needed rn #we need more angst driven parts rn to handle all this traumaaaaa ig fhjdsl i just hate it bc im terrified theyre going to drive ppl away #i was going to put this on my main but now its going here bc idk if i want everyone on main to see this on their dashes dhfjdkl #-juno #roundtable posts