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#we were doing a really good job with the asb 2023 leaders and that there were no drama dynamics or whatever and guess fucking what. tonight
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hi update things are fucking terrible and my eyes hurt from sobbing. lol
#purrs
#delete later
#not to liveblog and be tmi or whatever but i feel terribly alone and terribly miserable so this is in fact a cry for help lol. or really
#comfort bc im fucking going insane. so for context last spring when i was still an intern another intern orchestrated this back channel
#where everyone was supposed to talk shit about our supervisors (my dearest most belovedest mentors) and all of us hid it for months and it
#all came to a head at asb 2022 because there was a lot of drama witb the asb student facilitators and our staff team. and it was sooooo ugly
#and messy and horrible and probably played a direct role in one of my dearest beloved est mentors (who was the point person for asb) fucking
#getting a new job and abandoning us in july lol 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 and so i became a full time staff member and me and my remaining dearest belovedest
#colleague besties fucking carried the world on oh r shoulders and put on amazing programs as just 3 of us in the core staff and we thought w
#we were doing a really good job with the asb 2023 leaders and that there were no drama dynamics or whatever and guess fucking what. tonight
#we found out that half of them hate us for reasons we still don’t know and all of them are at each others throats and also some of the
#participants feel a type of way about us. and i know i am being a fragile sensitive crybaby over it but i have had terrible cramps all day a
#and have barely slept since ive been here and feel like ive been bending over backwards to support the leaders only to find out that half of
#them think we’re evil and i just… i couldn’t take it. so i cried and now im beating myself up for crying. but it’s like come ON. i know we
#did a pretty imperfect job of preparing them for this. and i should just take responsibility for that and not be defensive. but it’s like… i
#have NEVER seen this program in person before or been part of the planning of it. i was just a student last year like all of you. and also
#HOW many fucking times did we create space for you to talk to us and invite us in. and still this shit happened. and i just feel like a
#failure. and i couldn’t react to that information in any way except cry liek it’s all so over my head and out of my depth and im not as
#emotionally mature as my colleagues bc im the youngest and this is my first time dealing with this and i feel so incompetent and like i
#failed. failed the first time by not speaking up when i was implicated in the stupid fucking Google form back channel situation last year
#and now failed the second time by not being able to prevent this stupid drama bullshit from happening again and for not catching it. and jfs
#like… im in excruciating physical pain and haven’t slept and haven’t eaten well and my life is falling apart and we were ABANDONED BY THE
#PERSON WHO WAS RESPONDIBLE FOR THIS (i know we weren’t abandoned she literally just got a new job i just have psychological issues) and
#we’ve been running at a million miles per hour with absolutely no break and now you’re mad at us and not even telling us and it’s impacting
#everyone’s experiences but you want to pretend this is fucking high school and keep secrets. i am TIRED of drama. i am TIRED of this stupid
#bullshit. and not to say this bc i don’t know if asb 2022 drama factored into her decision to leave but if it did i get why * left now. i
#get it. bc this shit makes me want to jump out the hotel window. i do not want to face any of them tomorrow and deal with more bullshit. i
#am emotionally unstable and incompetent and not equipped to deal with this in a mature healthy way. i want this to be over NOW. im done.
#ok i think that’s it um. sorry about that i just needed other people to know i am suffering and i will suppress the shame i feel about that
#just this once. esp bc i denied myself the opportunity for my colleague besties to comfort me while i was crying and i regret it now lol
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