#when he said in a zombie apocalypse qphil would hide being bitten and just leave quietly to die he was not kidding

[arctic-bookclub]

in my opinion, qphil isolating and exiling himself is only going to make things worse or delay the inevitable: as shown yesterday the enderking wants qphil to isolate, to not tell anyone, and luckily for our evil demigod that is exactly how qphil operates. he holds secrets in hopes of not hurting others, not getting them involved. and we just saw what happens when he has a support network helping him, he broke free from enderking’s grasp even for a moment. but that bit is not the only reason why his isolation is playing straight into enderking’s hands: it’s his insecurities as well. ”i’m a shit dad” ”i need to prove myself worthy of protecting” ”i need to provide better for the family” ”i need to be stronger” - all insecurities that are qphil’s downfall. enderking has already played into his need to provide for the kids as well as the want to be stronger (the buffs in the dungeon), what’s stopping him from digging his claws further to qphil’s core, his insecurities and weaknesses now that he has no one to break him out of his self-deprecating loop? when all he has are his thoughts, the caws of a crow and the voice of him? if no one finds him in exile, i think he will lose himself again, betrayed by his own mind

#historically isolating yourself has always worked and been a great idea /j #literally the only way i can see him making it out of this is if a deity finds him #qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp phil #philza #shey rambles #literally every piece if mental health advice i’ve ever heard and read started screaming in my head the moment he decided to leave #of* #like you’re doing the exact thing that you’re told NOT TO DO IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE #my god #when he said in a zombie apocalypse qphil would hide being bitten and just leave quietly to die he was not kidding #also melting point of wax… ​’throw caution and myself into the wind’ #you sure are!!!! #’i hear the voice of reason screaming after me’ YOU SURE AS HELL DO #THAT’S ME. I’M THE ONE SCREAMING AT YOU #FUCKKKKKK