#where she's like wow. okay.

[altschmerzes]

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹 for wriggle up on dry land pls? (Only if you want to!!!!)

yes of course!!!! i always want to

from very early in chapter seven-

It’s weird to be inside Nelson Road again. Keeley hasn’t been here wince before Leo singed with Chelsea but she still remembers where everything is. It’s like going to your ex’s house, but stranger somehow because this place had never really been hers to begin with in the way an ex’s home started to feel once she spent enough time there. Apprehension has her walking slowly, unsure if she’s going to see ghosts of Leo around every corner, reminded of that relationship and how it began. How it crumbled when it ended and she realized not only did she not like who she saw when she looked at him, she didn’t like who she was when she was with him either.

#gav gab #gav answers #fic: wriggle up on dry land #keeley pov i love you #writing liveblog #this is an interesting challenge in the opening here of like #catching up on what we've missed off-screen so to speak #remember leo. the guy i invented specifically for roy to hate. #ask box games #it's like. the relationship b/w keeley and leo charles didn't end as positively as hers and jamie's did #by which i mean they were like #immediately and calmly still professional contacts and friends #on good terms #like aside from when she brings his keys back #where she's like wow. okay. #they're both just chill with each other #and leo's not like a Monster he didn't mistreat her or whatever #but the end of their relationship has come on much less cordial terms

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

idk if this is still the case but when i was really In It in animorphs feelings a couple years ago because i was unemployed for the first time in my adult life / temporarily living alone in the last house my family lived in / freaking out about climate change / generally Going Through It, and like poking around the animorphs scene on tumblr, there was this notion commonly expressed that rachel and tobias were "toxic," the major piece of evidence for which was the scene in 33 where she "tries to trap him in human morph." which like first of all i'm SOOOOOO SORRRY that the fucking fifteen-year-olds secretly fighting a guerrilla war in which their greatest threat is the mind-controlling slugs they're trying to save humanity from but their second greatest threat is the diminishing hourglass of their collective sanity as they all have to work steadily harder and more desperately to not just completely lose their shit entirely from all the violence and literal 24/7 constant threat and murder that is happening, like i'm sorry two literal children who have managed in this ongoing horror show to forge a bond of loyalty and affection and care and attraction and understanding that can act as a kind of solace neither of them have any other way to access, sorry those actual murder babies sometimes have some communication problems. lmao. but also it's insane to me that people read that scene (in which they're dancing to, i'm not making this up, iris by the goo goo dolls - i mean they don't tell us the song but it's a slow goo goo dolls number that even tobias knows, so - they're dancing to iris by the goo goo dolls at a school dance that is not going well because they are both awkward about the newfound public Officialness of their relationship and rachel who is the only one of them who has ever been capable of socializing like a normal person is in a particularly bad mood because of the emotional hangover of her starfish adventure [great concept executed terribly in the previous book], and then like after two entire minutes of letting himself feel some nice emotions tobias spots the clock and starts leaving to go demorph and then rachel runs after to him to awkwardly attempt to share that she is very fucked up about how insane she has become and she wants to hold on to things like school dances and also this is all happening in a hallway by a student poster on red tailed hawks that states their lifespan of a handful of years in the wild, it's so good) as rachel trying to trap tobias in morph, when like, first of all, "good thing happening -> time to punish myself for feeling nice for 5 whole seconds " is like THEE tobias thought pattern because he's the number one kidlit trauma baby of all time, like truly the first time i dove back into the series i was struck by how well his narrative voice captures Child Of Insane Family Dysfunctionality, he is NOT a reliable narrator on this, but also second, and more saliently, like, believing this scene is rachel attempting to trap tobias in morph requires that you believe rachel, all by herself, made a plan in advance and then attempted to execute it, which is a skill we literally never see her demonstrate even one fucking time outside of the comfortingly familiar hunting ground of the mall

#animorphs #i have a hard visceral aversion to personally adopting ADHD headcanons in general #(you do you idc about people's headcanons but like #this is one that reliably does not do it for me [person with ADHD] and which also often makes me feel weird for vague reasons #but again like this is not an Argument or a Criticism have your fun it's simply not for me) #BUT. someone once said they headcanon rachel as ADHD. #and that is... the ONLY time i have ever read that and been like 'oh wow no okay yeah that tracks' #which honestly thinking on it now i feel like sort of helps me articulate why i'm usually like 'her?' #bc i feel like i tend to see it as like 'this would be cute/relatable/fun to project on to' (you do you not for me) #or i see it based on like... a perception of general ADHD Vibes #which like. on the one hand i get. there can be Vibes. there's a reason the set of people i Enjoy A Lot has ADHD overrepresented on it. #but personally i am like. but where are the scenes of them ruining their own life for reasons attributable to ADHD traits #i don't personally get anything out of lumping people into a DSM category with me if they are not also constantly ruining their own lives #like i can just relate to them because we have similar Vibes. that's plenty. #but rachel................. #the scenes of rachel constantly ruining her own life because of her inability to think for 5 seconds before speaking or acting ever. like. #that's in every book rachel ever has #she literally has a line at one point like 'i don't know why i say these things. they just pop out of my stupid mouth.' girl same... #anyway. speaking of ADHD. i have GOT to stop letting myself 'just check tumblr a little bit' while i'm waiting for the adderall to hit

[moeblob]

Right's right. She does want to see it (but they refuse to tell her what it is because Right thinks it's best left a surprise).

#my characters #thinking about these guys a lot again lately #i really love right and brent and their dynamic with each other bc right just reads him really well #so he can identify things karen doesnt pick up on and so shes completely unaware that brent enjoys spending time with her #because he always looks so blank when interacting #but brent really likes interacting with karen esp as a time passer when theyre bored #like i was rereading a thing i wrote where right returns to the station and sees the other two just sitting around her desk with a paper #and hes like wow you two sure look busy #and brent says he refuses to play another game of hangman and she says they arent going back to tic tac toe #so right walks over and looks at the piece of paper which is in fact a game of hangman #and then shortly after that interaction karen invites herself to go to lunch with the guys and theyre like okay?? sure? i dont object #basically wow finally giving karen some focus and she deserves it after like 100 pages of being more minor #time to doodle a second part to post on my oc blog i guess cause i think karen deserves to see the thing

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

[dreevehere]

wishing I was confident enough to post my thoughts on things without the need for a visual or cut off

Anyways I need to say the entire main party of ISAT is the rep I really needed to see… I hold ALL of them so incredibly close to my heart…

I’m going to talk more in the tags but please play this game, it’s worth it, im only on act 3 so surely it’ll get better :^)

(I reached max tag limit LMAO???)

#dramble #isat spoilers #please play this game it’s amazing the characters are so good and worth it please trust me #im about to spoiling a few things in the tags #so DO NOT look in here if you’re planning to play the game #prommy? okay ty #ISABEAU??? YOU! WHY ARE YOU ME?? #no because before I knew about the game I had a whole thing last month where I made an obituary for MY YOUNGER SELF #I wrote about killing them myself #with my bare hands #while I don’t doubt my experience is shared that is such a specific thing that it hit me like 5 trucks #when he was talking about being shy and nerdy with big glasses and clean braids #when he spoke about his shyness and inability to ask a classmate for a PEN #to thinking he was content with living his life that way but then realizing that NO he did not want that #to growing and changing into the person he wish he knew at a young age #it’s. I think about that a lot and seeing someone in media share that very same experience is just. wow. #NOW MIRABELLE!!!! #AMAZING AROACE REP #SHE IS SO AROACE YALL #GOD SHE IS SO GOOD!!!!! #adorable sweet girl!! she loves the idea of romance!! but she doesn’t want it for herself!!! #there are people like her!!! and I love them!! #you can be nice to people sweet to people love them care about them #but still be unable to reciprocate any more than platonic love to them and that’s OKAY #ITS VALID!!! #also siffrin being ace as well!!!! #god I am so seen in such a good way #im going to cut myself off now but my shorter thoughts on the others are: #Bonnie is such a well written child character #ODILE MIXED RACE YAAAAAA

[singswan-springswan]

the little mermaid but it's kanera

#“I want to know what the sky tastes like. but If I fly on a ship that's close enough” #“Hera get your kriffing head out of the clouds and back in the kriffing water where it belongs” #“I won't lose my only child the way I lost her mother” #“yo dad I'm like in my twenties” #“You're still my child” #“the prince? yeah yeah he's hot but loOK AT HIS SHIP” #“Oh kanan it isn't just me the whole kingdom wants to see you happily settled down with the right girl” #“She's out there somewhere Oke and when I meet her I'll know! It'll just hit me! bam! like lightning!” #“that may be a bit in poor taste” #“Yeah the last time you got electrocuted it didn't turn out too well” #“wow okay sabine but no one asked you” #“thrawn what in the seven seas would you need my voice for” #“princess are you blind read the contract it says your voice is my payment” #“right but why do you want it” #“Well if you must know Eli broke my record player and now we can't rig a proper cauldron playlist so take this as a compliment” #“zeb is it just me or is the queen being suspiciously nice” #“hera clearly she thinks you're daughter-in-law material why else would she keep arranging dates for you and the prince” #“aw i love her”

[silverselfshippingchaos]

hm.

#fucking hell. do you guys ever think about how normalized racism against indians is? I know i do #god.. why can't i just exist? why is it so normal to be so fucking disgusting about my people? i've spent my whole life thinking i'm #unattractive and ugly because of my body hair and my brown skin and the shape of my nose and the smell of my food #why can't i have all the sweet things the pretty girls have? will i ever be perceived as the same as them? will i always be unattractive? #my relationship with my culture is.. complicated. but still... it hurts so much. it weighs on me so heavily #sure i make jokes so often but i'm not exactly a shining beacon of peak self esteem. i think that how my people are percieved is a huge par #of why i feel that way about myself. it's to the point where i think my f/os would be better off dating someone else or wouldn't like me #because they'd think my culture is 'weird' #idk man. i've just been having a night #i saw some a.qua ship art and fell down a rabbit hole and spiraled. wow... would she even like me at all? or find me attractive in any way? #this is so unlike me y'all LMAAOOO you know how they say you should never listen to your thoughts past 9pm? yeah. it's almost 1am rn- #i should go to bed. i'll be okay. just been a lot going on and even more on my mind #sigh.. #vent #i'll delete this later gamers #goodnight pals

[moonbeam-fox]

noooo babe ahhhhh you're supposed to know what I need magically and then do it don't expect me to put in the work of finding out what I need through self exploration n then learn how to communicate those needs to you thats not romantic and also this strategy for meeting my needs is going to be very effective and not leave me dissatisfied at all ahhh baaaabe

#my posts #can a person's behavior jump the shark #like is there a point where you're like wow youre really not- you've got your formula down for how your needs have always been met #the fact that this formula barely fulfills your needs is actually perfect bc of your narrative about how your needs dont deserve to be met #i am the subject n speaker n target of this post #so many ppl are like this it just frustrates me bc i stand there like a fucking idiot holding my mary poppins back #this? no shes shaking her head #okay how bout that one? no only a slight smile there no enthusiasm at all #*shakes the screen* just tell me what you need please you have no idea how much id want to do it #ignore me #have one conversation #babe dont. #bag* but yall knew that

[tricksterlatte]

Yearning for another fandom historical event that makes me feel the way I felt when they confirmed Tracer was a lesbian. Please...it was so triumphant

#parker says things #look I know P5T had bi Joker BUT I NEED HIM KISSING SOMEONE LIKE TRACER DID #I know he's fruity we all know it but in a fandom so predominantly dudebro despite the creators being pretty split demographic wise #nothing would bring me greater joy than him smooching a boy even if it's not my ship #do y'all remember Tracer kissing Emily #i was barely even in OW fandom at that point in time and yet I remember the exact day it happened #'she's ours now' #I think it's calmed down since then or maybe the reaction to Pharah was more chill bc we kinda...could tell with her #BUT STILL #pls I need every company to make the faces of their franchises LGBT+ #Sega unintentionally makes Sonic feel gay since he's not allowed to express long term romantic interest in female characters #where's the Shadow and Sonic makeout scene Sega #Let's have Aerith and Tifa kiss too I've been wanting that for 20 years #throwback to nearly every bi option in FE3H being from Adrestria #why did they do that #I think casual confirmation of queerness is as important as slow burn queer romances and I just am nostalgic for the euphoria of lesbian Tr #*Tracer #OKAY THAT'S ALL wow I'm ranting #can you tell it's the home of phobic family dinner holiday today

[krismatic]

today I bring you OC art. tomorrow? who knows… (it’s gonna be more OC art)

more versions under the cut

#she actually doesn’t have a name yet #I’m considering Mae but. who knows #kris’s art #there’s a whole lot to her but like. #basically #in her kingdom the Oracle (someone who recieves and interprets prophecies from the gods) is a big deal. #there is only one Oracle alive at any time #once one dies the power is passed on #usually to a young child #and that child’s family then rises to wealth and power and are treated as royalty #while the chosen Oracle is then confined to a palace. always protected. delivering prophecies to the people. to aid the people #they live a life only to serve others because of a power they never asked for #so she’s not having a good time. but she knows she must fulfill her duty until she dies #Oracles are often assassinated which is why she’s pretty much always being watched and guarded #she’s happy to aid her people but she also wishes for more freedom. #there’s also this whole thing where she received a prophecy that told her that her childhood best friend was destined to die in 3 years. #and there was nothing she could do about it because she knows. she knows better than most that prophecies of death are absolute. haha #wow that went on for a while okay good night

[bumblingbabooshka]

Worst Guy Ever - Also, Unfortunately, Very Homosexual Convo. (subtextually)

#Evidence of Tom being a bad boyfriend is also in a file labeled 'Tom wants to fuck Steth so bad' #but seriously I wanted to deck him in this convo v_v FORTUNATELY it is bearable bc I think that's the point - like the narrative is #showing that Tom is 'ruining what he's worked for' by being a dick to B'Elanna so I'm not like meta-mad about it (like OTHER Tom/B'Elanna #moments) <- Ex: Tom saying 'I have a beautiful girlfriend' instead of something like #'someone I care about/a girl I love' but that's a like...tv writing thing. I don't like it but I know it's a tv writing thing #Woman as like a status symbol instead of a person you care about #I never care about Tom's inner conflict in Tom episodes (with the exception of the one where he gets thrown in solitary - him going full #rogue was fun) bc his inner conflict is always the most boomer bullshit #Literally he's just having a midlife crisis in this one. #BUT...GUYS....IMPORTANT NEWS...BULLDOG'S IN THIS ONE?? #BULLDOG ?? My enemy BULLDOG BRISCOE from Frasier??? Good to see you man! This makes sense. #Steth....WHY would you choose to turn into a guy with a detailed and established web of interconnected relationships on a ship with a #complex hierarchy? Steth really thought he'd be able to play it cool on VOYAGER...the USS codependent...nu uh #they sniff you out and maul you like gophers on that baby #EHHEHEEH the Emh is funny as hell...'WOW...I had no idea me being so perfect at everything was making you feel bad! It all makes sense to #me now...' / Steth(as Tom):....Yeah v_v #SNRKEHEHEHEHEHEH GUYS..I'm taking a mental health day so I can reflect on myself and how even though I'll never be as good as the Doctor #I'm probably still worth SOMETHING #Steth(as Tom): Hey now B'Elanna...let's not go around blaming Steth for things. He's a pretty cool guy actually. #Okay yes confirmed! The above convo is also to show that Steth is 'being better' than Tom by telling B'Elanna what she wants to hear #unfortunately this does not make me like Tom more #SHE WANTS SO LITTLE. SHE ASKS FOR SO LITTLE. #BC Tom DOES say that B'Elanna is 'overreacting' and basically calls her crazy even when it's not for a later moral lesson and #this isn't framed as bad by the narrative. If your girl's always mad at you then your relationship ISN'T good. #There's literally NO resolution once again to their relationship issues. Tom shows her his garage program and when B'Elanna says she feels #she doesn't value her he says 'Yeah I do.' episode ends. #T/B scenes are literally [conflict arises then they argue or kiss] <- it is never...RESOLVED... #Me @ The Writers: (B'Elanna voice) Is this your idea of an adult conversation? #OH. Gay subtext: I hate spending time with my girl I want to hang out and live the bachelor life with my cool guy friend. #Tom's grease monkey program might as well be a subscription to playgirl magazine sit DOWN dude

[maddy-ferguson]

fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

#and like i say: brf slt #i felt like this especially when i would have been likely to do it semi-regularly like in middle school. but like i was thinking about this #the other day and i did it in front of a mirror just to check and it looked as bad as i remember like it's just not for me #i have a story abour middle fingers though or just about what one would call the finger #when i was in what an american would call the 5th grade (i can never do when i was x years old because it's not an accurate representation #of the class i was in since i skipped a grade and the grade is what matters more to me. when i was 9 and my friends were 10 i was saying) #we would always play this game called girls catch guys or guys catch girls where the girls would run after the guys and like tap them on #the shoulder and then they would go to prison and they would line up and another guy could set them free by like touching one of the #prisoners it was a very fun game except it's way more fun to be like the ones getting caught than to be the ones catching and we would #ALWAYS play girls catching guys and it was very unfair we would be like okay in the morning we do guys catching girls in the afternoon #girls catching guys so it's fair like normal system but the guys NEVER wanted to do it (and we would always give in because like we still #wanted to play ig and idk guys. female socialization) they never wanted to be the ones doing the catching it was so unfair because we also #didn't like it as much and we did it all the time? #and i remember this one morning we were fighting about this we had literally all agreed that it was fair this way but they didn't want to #do it and my second best male friend flipped me and my best (female) friend off and (very #important detail) he did it with both of his hands so like two middle fingers and i don't know why because i'm not even sure that that's a #thing but one middle finger meant fuck you and two middle fingers meant go fuck yourself and to us that was very different? and i remember #my friend and i we like knew what it meant but for some reason we were like. he did do the one finger before doing the two does this mean #he...loves us because it literally means he wants to have sex with us #but what's funny is we never talked to him again after that and i don't even know why that was our last straw because i remember i #genuinely liked him before that like i said he was my second best male friend! so like maybe sixth best friend overall that's not bad #and he's not the only guy friend who flipped us off that year like it was so random to stop talking to him after that😭 #like he was an actual enemy we really did not like him we talked about him in letters we'd give each other using a nickname etc #and what's even funnier is in our last year of middle schoold FOUR YEARS AFTER THIS a friend of a friend told him he should become friends #with well my friend and he was like hm i don't think so have you seen who she hangs out with? marianne *last name* like why do YOU hate #me😭 it was so funny like wdym it was mutual this whole time. i had literally moved on by then i didn't even care about hating him #anymore like wow...i think he's the only person i hated who actually hated me back

[fastasyoucan1999]

i love to find a nice spot at the library and take out all my books and load up my laptop and open all my tabs and assignments and then pack up and leave immediately

#all in a days work :) think i might take a nap #i didn’t NOT do anything. i wrote down a list of everything due this week which let me tell you is a task onto itself and a very harrowing #one too i’m only a small and tiny sort of thing so u can imagine how hard it is for me #someone asked me for directions i’m changing topics right now someone asked me for directions to the restroom and i hope i was okay at it #i hate giving directions and i think this magnetizes ppl to me the amount of times i’ve been asked to give directions. wow. i don’t think i #look like a girl who knows where she’s going so i’m mildly confused on why strangers choose me to point them the right way. i think the whol #e process of giving directions is hugely embarrassing for me bc i can see them become more confused as i talk anyway. peace and love nothing #says monday like giving up immediately xoxo

[victorinoxghoul]

i have got to get medicated again this is getting out of handddd

#fisherman's ramblings #this is light enough that it can go on main idc #but just got hit with a wave of horrible Depression Feels and it's like. wow okay i was literally just sitting here. my day was good. #where the hell did you come from #AT LEAST IT'S NOT PSYCHOSIS (hopefully) THO FUCKKK THAT SHIT #hopefully the doc was right and my psychosis delulu shit will subside if i treat the depression. we'll see #same with adhd i gotta get that sorted out. if i want to do school stuff. #i never did find meds that worked tho!! so. we'll fuckin seeeee!!!! #shout-out to the doc at the ward who just gave me an atrocious amount of adhd meds to the point where i'm pretty sure she just could've put #me on tranquilizers and had the exact same effect #i was out of it for actual days even after i got out of there... why did she do that.... #the ``symptom`` she was trying to treat was an extension of paranioa. from the psychotic episode i was having #so naturally the fuckin?? adhd meds didn't work LMAOO?? #SO SHE JUST KEPT UPPING MY DOSE?? #girlypop what was the REASONNN #sorry didn't mean to ramble in the tags. #actually no this is my blog i can do what i want

[sunshinexlollipops]

I got yelled at by my (to be former) psychiatrist today. one of the things she got upset about was my depression and anxiety getting better. why? bc I improved while off medication.

the American mental "healthcare" system is a fucking joke and I'm not laughing.

#i sincerely hate medical so-called professionals #she also got mad bc i kept FORGETTING to start my meds and i have ADHD #like oh the disorder that causes memory issues and poor habit-forming ?? #its making it to where you cant remember your meds exist and ots hard for you to remember to start taking them???? wow you fuck #i also had life things get in the way like being stuck in LA for 2 weeks #and other health issues that i informed her of #she told me -- maybe youre better off in therapy -- and -- dont waste my time #she also said -- anyone can give you adderall -- okay bet imma find someone who isnt upset IM BETTER regardless of if they helped me or not #legit she took it personally and was OFFENDED like maybe choose andifferent profession bc WOW

[dunadaan]

I’ve had Créa for almost 10 years and I’m thinking about how I almost never let her live until like. 2020 LOL. I spent six years killing her off bc I couldn’t conceive a happy ending for her and now I’m like nah she gets to live and be happy

#granted. one of the best things I ever wrote was an au where Créa saves Calenglad at the battle of the morannon #but she takes his place : ))))) #but it’s really telling bc I was like WOW. I was so depressed I was putting Créa in the Plinio #*plinko!!!!! #i do love the ending where she’s happy with Aragorn but also one equally as important to me is stewardess Créa of Evendim #THATS my absolutely favorite one bc she gets to be in Evendim her home her love <3 #but the drama of the fourth age queen Créa and the storyline I crafted with friends that dealt with ptsd and survivors guilt #and even though things are Better it’s not really a life she wanted and how what she wants has to be put aside for the good of Gondor….. #it’s so juicy I MISS writing that…..poor créa. okay I guess I do still put her through the ringer LOL #wondering if I shouldn’t actually start posting my fics here…I love everyone else’s ranger fics