#which meant that cassandra (my character) was bleeding from her hand and feet and forehead because she’s a fucking stigmata

[mvffinhamster]

ttrpgs fuck you up

everyone says “try out dnd”, including me but dude believe me, dnd fucks you up, ttrpgs fuck you up

there’s this person in your head and you can only scream about them to the other five idiots with their own little guys in their heads

and sometimes you can’t even scream at them because first you have to reveal the backstory you came up with and you don’t want to do that immediately

ttrpgs fuck you up because they make you daydream about your little guy and what happened with them AND YOU CAN’T STOP THE THOUGHTS

try out dnd (or any other ttrpg), they say… but what they don’t say is that it’s all emotional damage

and the worst part of it is that you enjoy every fucking minute of that emotional damage

ttrpgs fuck you up.

#last night’s vtm session was a fucking rollercoaster #i can’t stop thinking about it #we started with a tattooing session andit was absolutely cute because the npc was a sweetheart and my character got a tattoo #a little line art #based on her pet rats #and then shit hit the fucking fan #we owed an npc and she asked us to investigate why her runner guy haven’t got back yet #he was supposed to get back with the fugitives hours before #and shit really hit the fan when we got to the meeting point #the guy was dead #the fugitives too #they were fucking massacred #and the runner guy was burned to final death #and my character saw them die in a vision #and the vision was like a fucking epilepsy attack #because i had to roll a rouse check and it was a fail #which meant that cassandra (my character) was bleeding from her hand and feet and forehead because she’s a fucking stigmata #and then the other roll was a messy critical #she saw the whole thing in all red #and then one of the hunters who killed the three of them throw a fucking molotov cocktail on us #one of us almost died #we fought him and i drained him so he died #my humanity level haven’t changed but the thought that cass killed a guy was there #and then the secret kindred radio announced simon’s death because he was also a malkavian the host played a song for his sister #cry little sister by chvrches #i cried and i’m still thinking about it and crying a little because it really fucked me up #vampire the masquerade #vtm #san antonio by night #i am not okay