#you think they were attached to them or qas there some sort of detachment from it?

[hibiscuslynx]

been thinkin . Yknow.

anyway, angsty rambles under the cut

thinking about the states being reckless as teenagers. impulsive, seeking thrill, adventure, plunging headfirst into any situation imaginable and making it out alive from situations they should not have lived through. thinking they were just lucky, absurdly lucky. falling in love, and having a family, and having to bury them. and realizing they’re going to outlive them far more than they thought, than anyone could’ve thought. having to bury kids and grandkids turns into resolving to never love again. to never get close to anyone again. they cannot bear the thought of grieving like this, over and over. and as the decades pass they still grieve. as the decades pass they still mourn and cry out into the night. they’re still here. their loved ones are not. and the decades keep passing and a new type of grief takes hold; the grieving of a memory lost. forgetting voices, laughs, faces, names. never forgetting the feeling. and they vowed never to love again and yet they still fall in love, because at the end of the day they’re still human.

the original 13 are bitter. bitter because they had to figure it out all on their own. they’re protective. protective because they don’t want the rest to figure it out like they did. and they warn, they warn the new states as soon as they can- they warn with weary eyes, burnt-out voices, rude personalities be damned.

#wttt #wttsh #welcome to the table #welcome to the statehouse #headcanons #lynx rambles #lynx writes #i think new england is so bitter sometimes because of this #colonial new england was so family-oriented and tight-knit #iirc the first grandparents in america were in new england #and how religious they were! #im not gonna get into it but #yknow #that grief had to hurt like all hell #Im still really torn on the whole . the states grew up as 'mortal' kids at first . #dunno! but hey #its fun to entertain the idea #they had normal names at the beginning #you think they were attached to them or qas there some sort of detachment from it? #like dysphoria type beat #do they mourn who they were when they believed they were mortal? #or did they always know that their name was not their own? #that they were something more (or less depending how you look at it) than human? #shouldve made another post for the tags maybe. Oh well