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[rollupdemfeelz]

Today.

Today is like yesterday. 

Yesterday is like last week. 

Last week is like today.... All this shit is the same. 

But why? It’s because this isn’t my life that I’m living so whatever I go through doesn’t stick to my person. 

Idk where I am and where I lost her at but I my spirit finds me soon. Please come back and save me from this misery. I don’t know where I am. I’ve been looking for you for almost a full year now. 

PLEASE! TAKE ME HOME. 

The lights, I cant see them. The music, birds, chatter, background noise is silent to me. I just see darkness at the end of my tunnel. I have tried and tried. I’m lst and no longer know what to do. 

But, who really cares honestly? They say they do, but they don’t and sometimes that’s all a mf need is to be understood. 

You ever reach for your pockets and your phone or wallet is missing and your heart drops. You cannot focus on anything until you find your belongings.

Have you ever walked into a room and forget what you were looking for? The only thing you can do is accept that you forgot and move on and hopefully you will remember later.

Put those perspectives into life form. I’m waiting to feel better and I’m “looking” for me and will only feel better once I find her. 

I am so defeated every other month. I have tapped myself out dry. The light to the end of the tunnel cut off. I just don’t see myself changing or me getting fully better. 

That means no consistent job, no money, no confidence, no nothing.

It matters now, but tonight it won’t because this isn’t even my life and nothing sticks. So, I’ll be upset until I detach again emotionally. 

CHAO.. 

#youarenotalone mentalhealth detachment blackwomen stayfaithful fyp takemehome betterdays imsad depression