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found out my roommate watches haikyuu as well. also found out what The Straights think of the show. outlook is not great so far

#“do you have any favourite ships?” / “kiyoko and tanaka obviously. also hinata and yachi are kind of cute. #and um nishinoya and that girl who has a crush on tanaka” YOU MEAN KANOKA? THE ONE AND ONLY???? #and then when i brought up kagehina she went “oh? i don't really see it honestly” DID YOU WATCH THE SHOW WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED? #don't get me wrong i absolutely love discussing haikyuu with her i think it's so fun #especially because she's the only person i've met irl who's ever watched haikyuu in full and is actively interested in it #i just need to get her to understand kagehina. then i will be okay i think #volleyball guys

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kid in grade 5 asked me if i've ever heard the song Firework by Katy Perry before. girl yes. i was alive when it came out. can't say the same for you tho!

#firework came out in 2010 which means the youngest possible person to have been alive when that song released will be turning 14 #and i think that that's incredibly fucked up and evil #the swarm

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whenever i see someone say "[insert musician here]'s lyrics are so good! they're such a genius" and the musician mentioned is NOT kim namjoon i lose it just a little

LOOK AT THESE FUCKING LYRICS FROM TRIVIA: LOVE

now they may not look too crazy— like, yeah maybe all humans at their core are made of love, you just have to erode the tougher edges. okay. whatever.

BUT LOOK AT THE LYRICS IN KOREAN.

SPECIFICALLY THE WORDS ‘사람’ (human) and ‘사랑’ (love)

EXTRA SPECIFICALLY: the ‘ㅁ’ in ‘사람’ and the ‘ㅇ’ in ‘사랑’

“I'm just a human (사람)

You erode all my corners (‘ㅁ’ -> ‘ㅇ’)

And make me love (사랑)”

WHO EVEN THINKS OF THAT???? HOW DO YOU EVEN???? ????

trivia: love ur lyrics will always be famous to me🫶

#i just know the second namjoon wrote that pre-chorus his page burst into flames his pen exploded #and a crater formed beneath his chair #no because in what other language can you even do something like that😭?????? #in what other language can you use the fucking letters in your words to make absolute insane bars like this #yeah okay sorry guys the wine may or may be hitting now #wiggly air

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almost fainted at the workplace today! vasovagal syncope strikes again!

#it's not a chronic illness or anything- just anxiety i think- but god it's sooooooo annoying #someone talks about anything medical related for 0.2 seconds and next thing you know i'm on the fucking floor #i've been dealing w this shit since i was 8 YOU'D THINK I'D BE GROWN OUT OF IT BY NOW #but alas. someone needs medical attention and suddenly i do too #just now remember that i have to get my CPR renewed again this year if i want to stay employed. #guess who's going to be on the floor the whole time! #also Yes i can write about vampires including but not limited to all the gorey shit but if you mention blood irl i will faint instantly #the swarm

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SLAY THE PRINCESS VOD UP NOW (we will be revisiting that game in a few days for sure!!!)

#literally me #rbeez

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i am going crazy over here

thinking about ctommy oh god

#i am also now going to sleep #this is utter insanity #i'm finding that the glass of wine i had last night made me more stable #because What the hell even is this #yeah okay maybe it IS sleepy time #photo album

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thinking about ctommy oh god

#army dreamers by kate bush I'M LOSING IT #LITERALLY HIS SONG. HIS. SONG. #maybe watching the doomsday vod was Not in fact a good idea #endlessly running back into battle. dying and respawning over and over. placing his bed in the midst of the battlefield #NO I'M NOT OKAU ACTUALLY THANKS FOR ASKING #the swarm

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spent a little too long pondering the ice cream selections at my local grocery store and accidentally summoned a random man in his 40's who proceeded to ask me "pre-planning your munchies before you go home and smoke a bunch of weed?"

#my answer was “sure” (i have never smoked weed in my life) #all i've learned from that interaction is to spend as little time pondering what ice cream i should invest in as possible #lest i summon another strange man who has odd headcanons of what activites i will be partaking in once i leave the store #the swarm

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when the Good Luck, Babe! by Chappell Roan starts tasting like a pint of ice cream and a glass of wine

#wiggly air

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i love so much tsukikage

#prev oh. oh boy. #i have... many thoughts ..about them #every time i rewatch episode 3... when tsukishima pulls up and starts talking shit just to get a rise out of kageyama #the way tsukishima wants his attention sooooo bad...... the smirk on his face when he finally gets it....... #AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE WAY TSUKISHIMA SEEMS TO KNOW ALL THE LITTLE DETAILS ABT TOBIO'S MIDDLE SCHOOL VB EXPERIENCE #the way he pulled up and so confidently started airing out all of kageyama's dirty laundry.... WHY DOES HE KNOW ABOUT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE #and in such great detail too. like this guy knows everything. he's obsessed. #also using the nickname “king” all the time for tobio. even when it doesn't affect him anymore. how it becomes a pet name more than anythin #and then there's also kageyama's side of things. because yeah tsukishima's an asshole but he's tall and therefore has a high hitting point #and kageyama's drive to make tsukishima a better player by purposefully setting the ball higher so he has to put in effort to get it #the way kageyama just wants to bring out the best in him because he knows tsukishima has more potential than he's letting on #SORRY I JUST THINK ABOUT THEM A LOT #I'M KIND OF ON THE YAMAKAGE GRIND RN BUT THE TSUKIKAGE GRIND WENT CRAZY BACK IN THE DAY #yeah sorry again for being insane in the notes #rbeez

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bestowing awful illnesses upon my blorbos like badges of honour

#nothing but the best (prion disease ​and hypoxemia) for my boy os!ranboo ^_^ #the swarm

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watching techno's doomsday vod remembering how i was on the phone with my therapist whilst watching the stream, then going downstairs after the stream to see a coup be performed on the white house. genuinely an insane day

#lmanberg getting blown tf up. the incident at the white house. #january 6th what a fucking day dude #the swarm

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words r so hard when tired

#trying towrite fanfic late at niht... how did i do this before #i can't think of words. i know the word but i don't know the Word #the swarm

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The Bear and The Mountain by Ok Goodnight... so so good...

#i feel like i talk about those songs all the time on here #BUT TRUST ME. THEY ARE SO GOOD. #they never get old. like. ever #i've been listening to TFATB album since it came out #and never. not ONCE have i gotten sick of those songs. #like i swear they get better every time i listen to them #but also What i wouldn't give to listen to those songs for the first time again #wiggly air

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who els eon aj tnite???!?!?!!?!!!11//1?!??!!/

#photo album #proud jammer of 10 years o7

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had to throw out a bouquet of dead, rotting flowers. this is so chapter 17 of catalyst coded

#now if i only i had a mentally ill vampire to ask me why i would throw them out because they're a metaphor for both their exitence #as well as the love between us which is also crumbling and rotting due to misunderstandings that we need to figure out #and after the conversation we take the suitcase i hid my dead dad in (i killed him) to the woods and set it on fire #and then get chased by wolved and my vampire partner has to carry me out because my legs are so cold from the snow we were knee-deep in #*sigh* if only #vampire guys

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kagehina kinda brain day ..!

#thinking about them and their stupid bickering #something about dub hinata doing an impression of kageyama and saying “i'm just a dumb jerk” got me this morning okay?? #likes YES he's a dumb jerk but he's YOUR dumb jerk so deal w it #and then everything else that is fundamentally kagehina that makes me want to explode into a billion million thousand pieces #those r the thoughts 4 tday!! #volleyball guys