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I make myself laugh rlly

#AHAHAHAHAHA #the squirterrrrrrr

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Everybody gangster and anti-fakeclaiming until it’s them fakeclaiming themselves. Yeah. That’s what I thought. Be nicer to yourselves.

#🤍

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fronting all by yourself, handsome?

#illonya🍷.txt #💬 #; #[ #did meme #did memes #did system #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd #cdd community #sysblr #system #system stuff #]

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psychosis & depressive episode. back in three weeks.

#illonya🍷.txt #; #💬

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denial with DID is so insane because i see so many people say "i would feel so valid as a pwDID if i had more amnesia" & my clinical memory loss ass *still* will tell myself i'm faking or whatever. accept yourself because that little voice telling you you're faking is useless & contradictory xx

#blurry❔.txt #; #💬 #🤍 #[ #did system #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd community #cdd #sysblr #system #system stuff #did #dissociative identity disorder #]

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i love seeing other alters obsess over my source like haha yeah<3 i did that (was not involved at all)

#<- said by mr collins transcribed by who knows who #mrcollins🎣.txt #blurry❔.txt #; #💬 #[ #did system #fictroject #fictive #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd community #cdd #sysblr #system #system stuff #introject #endos dni #)

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Perhaps a userbox with "this system's frequent fronters change often" or something along those lines :))

"This system's frequent fronters change often!" [image id: a white userbox with a black outline. on the right is the text written above. on the left is an image of a silhouette of two emoj people standing next to each other. :end image id]

#📺

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idk how many more pk;m news I got in me bros

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[Text: This system deals with psychosis.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use

#great timing tbh #why? #aaahahahah that is private . (screams) #; #📺

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one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

#🤍

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It's okay to miss dormant alters, whoever they maybe. It's okay and normal to grieve them. You are allowed to treat their dormancy in however and what way you cope. You are allowed to be devastated. You are allowed to be upset.

#🤍 #locust i miss you

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have you ever felt so blurry and dissociative you ignore all system shit simply to exist but Simply Existing hurts because ears ringing head hurts everything is tingly nothing is real and everyone i interact with feels like a stranger and a friend at the same time to the point where people interacting with me and talking to me like they know and are close with me is weird but i also dont feel like someone else and people who dont know youre a system arent even aware you Dont Feel Real so you feel gross whenever they look at you and i feel like nothing and everything andOh hey is that the solar eclipse

#this exactly right now #minus the eclipse </3

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me: hyperfixated on a gameshow

also me: in one of the most streasful times of my life

me: why does my head hurt so much

gameshow contestant in my head: drink some water

me: 🤔 -> 🤨 -> 😐 -> 😶 -> 😬 -> 😑 -> 😔 okay. okay

#this is a joke about introjection #i am too blurry to be coherent #😭 #blurry❔.txt #; #[ #introject #did system #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd community #cdd #sysblr #system #system stuff #]

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“face deformity” ≠ body horror. scars, burns, face differences, etc. are not body horror. sure the face the person in that drawing has might look “scary” to you but you really do have to get over it when it’s a face like the faces some actual people in real life have lmao. ugly laws were only fully repealed in 1974 and also the fact that they existed in the first place should really make you think about this. i thought we were all about weirdos and freaks on this website but people are just so so fucking bad about extending the love to people who look “weird” or “scary”. shut the fuck up and let disabled people exist without a trigger warning

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To all my fellow systems....

BAP

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is this a relatable DID meme

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I’m at 5 what about you?

#i'm very close to being like . picky to the point of EDNOS/ARFID #but not quite there #so let's count: #thirty! #okay that's not awful #i counted stuff that i *can* eat not *don't like* #like i can eat onions but i'm not a big fan #this made my crave white chocolate heehee