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lost all my gaming skills bcos the alter left front and took the muscle memory with her in the divorce grrrrr

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we did not in fact get better. in fact. we actually lost all our muscle memory of game controls

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thought i loved my partner sys alter but then alter went dormant and took it all in the divorce and now im sitting here like whu what but i love?? i no longer love ??? why is system shit so hard no one talks about relationship angst here hate that we’re like that oug

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Hi! On anon for my safety, but I saw the ISSTD tweeted smth on the etiology of DID and I wanted to know your thoughts on it? Mostly for processing’s sake as well, as I can struggle with understanding studies now and then

The link to the paper! http://ow.ly/r40x30mZF79

The paper is Revisiting the etiological aspects of dissociative identity disorder: a biopsychosocial perspective. A very good one that I recommend to anyone interested in the causation of DID! I don't think I can do it justice if I tried to summarize the entire thing, so I'll just write down some bullet points of things I found interesting:

What is DID?: 

DID is a complex, posttraumatic, developmental disorder that is caused by trauma in childhood (usually very early childhood).

What causes DID?:

DID arises when a child’s ability to develop an ordinary sense of self in relation to others is impeded by unintegrated trauma.

Emotional neglect by parents and/or siblings is the strongest predictor of DID (and any other dissociative disorder).

More covert trauma such as dysfunctional communication in families or subtle emotional neglect can lead to milder presentations DID.

DID VS PTSD:

Switching between alters is considered to be a more elaborated version of PTSD intrusions & avoidance.

People with PTSD & DID generally experience the same amount of feeling shame, betrayal, self-blame, anger and fear.

People with DID tend to experience more feelings of alienation, loneliness, and disconnection than people with PTSD.

DID VS normal experiences:

The human mind is naturally made up of multiple interconnected “modes” that make up their whole self.

Trauma & dissociation causes modes to become decoupled and start existing in smaller, isolated pockets.

In DID, the modes have become so disconnected that individual modes start functioning as if they, independently from each other, are the whole self.

In a non-DID brain, new modes are always being created and old modes are always being updated.

In DID, this process is impaired. New modes are created in a disjointed way, and old modes don't get updated correctly if at all.

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this is getting ridiculous now theres a guy whos trigger is just cpvp

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WHO the fuck in here with those networking skills

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me: tries not to introject a blorbo

me: introjects two

me: thank god I didn’t introject the new blorbo

me now: uh oh

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me: thank god I didn’t introject the new blorbo

me now: uh oh

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being in co-front call that spectator mode

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alter: *ignores me*

me: *wears their clothes*

alter: HOW DARE

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where is that post about the eldritch monstrosity alter being the chill one and the young teenager being the angry one bcos im realising how true it is

#ageless eternal entity being just possessing a guy and hanging out and chilling in here #meanwhile green who’s a young adult man is the one who will throw hands

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“why did you choose this course” “oh i liked the subject” “oh i liked what we’re learning” well u see when i was young i got real sad and now i got people in my head and one of them managed to manipulate his way into us having this delusion that convinced us to take this course

#realising things about that course

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Manifesting a lover I can fully trust.

#i did. #and then they had the break up of the century #and pretty sure at least one of them spilt bcos of how much the fallout was

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always kind of funny when you wake up from a dream and your first thought is "that symbolism was kind of heavy-handed wasn't it."

#and then it turn out to be system things

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i would like to know what counts as csa actually bcos holy fuck

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mothers am i right

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DID/OSDD culture is a subtle switch happening and only noticing it because you immediately get way worse at whatever you’re doing

#green Does Not Do Art lmao #thankfully the body has enough innate art talent to scrape by