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#91

You still haunt me.

A lingering wisp, gently blowing through the air.

I could of sworn the air by the pier smelt like you,

I could of sworn that was your Volkswagen just out of my sight,

And I could of sworn for just a moment, you were beside me on my right side.

Even as a beautiful rose bouquet lies in front of me,

The small daisy growing from the ever persistent concrete floor beckons my attention.

Hello, it says,

I still think we are more then just soulmates.

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#90

Why do I still think about you.

I should just move on,

Study hard,

Do the thungs I love,

Focus on that,

Like, building an insta blog,

I always wanna do that.

But, I always come back to this state and idk why.

I want it to be easy.

Just, loving you, and, adventures, and making money.

In an ideal world, I would be making enough money to sustain myself,

Be with you,

And not need to worry about the fact that my true home is across the ocean,

Or the fact that your a couple of miles away from me,

Or the fact that... you might not even think about me anymore and found someone better then me.

Im... such a wus...

I should pull myself together but.

Its hard when you dont have anyone beside you.

And im not talking about, romenticly i just mean,

Someone to, walk life with you.

Could i truely do this alone.

I miss you......

(Drunk, as you know, at 4:51AM)

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#89

Look at #42.

You knew, you knew from the start.

Somehow the universe told you in that fleeting moment.

And you wrote it down.

The universe gave you that sign.

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#88

Sometimes I think of what could of been.

If the timing was right.

Sometimes I think if we really could of spent the rest of our life’s together.

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#87

You’ve been scribbling something on your small notebook for the past 30min now

What could you be writing

Scrible, flip, scrible, flip, scrible and on and on and on and on

I want to see whats in that head of yours

... i dont know how to befriend you

Edit: your still going

Edit: you smiled at me and i think my heart jumped

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#86

It breaks my heart that I’m just a stranger to you now

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#85

You visted me in my dreams.

And for a minute I was back in that blissful summer day.

Then I woke up, and I could feel my heartstrings break.

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Who knew a movie would impact you so much

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#83

So full of life you are.

Its like a moth attracted to a beam of light.

Instinct, its instinct now when ever I see you breathe in the life around you.

My wings can’t help but flutter towards your light.

Your warmth.

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Oh wow I still long for you.

That “no” hurt.

When you didn’t want to call me.

Whywhywhy

*sigh*

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#81

Why do I feel like a failure right now.

I somehow cannot keep connections with my family.

I dont know if im going to pass my GE classes. Or in fact, many of my classes.

I dont even know how im doing in the friend department.

I feel so unskillful and so useless sometimes.

All the time now.

So, hey universe, God, I kinda need a bit of help getting back on track.

What do I do.

(This blog has now become a personal vent box. When did I lose my creativity too?)

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#80

I want to kiss you again.

I want to feel your arms around me, not the way you had them just now,

I want you closer.

I want you to be my home again,

Because that was what you were,

My home.

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What if, its the what ifs that make me stop and think. What if you were the one for me. Just at the wrong place and wrong time. You are my sunshine, my air. (Drunk stacy)

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#79

Did I let go of something too precious?

May I fall in love with you again?

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#78

How would it be like in an alternate universe.

How would it be like if, we didn’t let go.

If, my path and your path were closer,

not as perpendicular as it is right now.

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Its funny how I could clearly see you more in my future when your not even here right now.

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#77

Why can’t I commit?

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#76

I never knew i was so fond of the night, and i never knew that the night was a friend that held my back through the rough mornings