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03.12.2020 // december really snuck up on me and sucker punched me in the face this year huh

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no more meeting people in real life no more dating apps it’s just I meet you in my dream and we sit in each other’s souls.

#i had a dream about meeting someone for the first time and it was super cute ngl #i’m sick of real life smh

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120520. early mornings & late nights. just wrapped up the last week of classes— now all that's left are my finals next week and i'm off for a month :,)

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studying 📚💻☕️

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Dissociation feels

everything is happening 0.5 times too fast

numb

everything but a little bit to the left

Numb™

it feels like Monday the 17th at 3:31pm but also like Saturday at 4:57am

….. existing?

hahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

why are the end credits playing I didn’t even hit play

Current emotion is coma

I need to self-harm but I physically cannot move

feeling panic rising up inside but being too numb to physically react

Must Do Thing. Do Not Know What Thing Is.

N҉͏̖͇͕̥ư̷̭̪͇͉̰̱͢ͅḿ͝҉̠̬̘͇̫͇͍̘͜b̴͓͍̱̣

everythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingevery

…I should start a religion

I A M G O D

*vibrating softly* everything in the world is my fault

Numb

Existence Is Fraud

Do I still have legs?

#oh

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today is not my day. my brain is all over the place but it’s okay... just wish my brain would function properly sometimes and allow me to focus for once

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6.12.2020 || 13/75 Days of Productivity || 3.0 hours focused The richest hot chocolate ever; the last reading of the semester for my Islamic Art class; new ink in my fountain pen.

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orpheus this, eurydice that. what about ME

#shout out to that random summer course i did #greek #myth #what was my tag for this again #mythology

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reading Voltaire in bed kind of day

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ohhh rb with your top song of the year? 👀

#through and through - khali #actually really surprised me

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‪小さな蕾‬

#doodles

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描画

#art about art #i cant even draw...

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#cats

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ig: nana.ming

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Galaxy Necklace // stellaandhaas

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Screens rn ⚘🌊

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18.10.20 / arts and crafts morning + a preview of the inside of my wip journals. it looks like there’s barely anything written but that’s just me editing out specific plot points in case™ lol. getting progressively anxious as nanowrimo looms over my head. happy sunday ♡