a reminder that wesley went his entire life being told what to think and how to act, not only by his overbearing and heavily abusive father, but the watcher’s council as well, and it wasn’t until he started working with angel and cordelia that he was even brave enough to openly explore how he might feel about a situation, how he might approach a problem, how he might view a person without letting someone else’s biases cloud his judgment.
this newfound independence was something he was eager, albeit nervous, to embrace, but didn’t know how to handle. there were countless circumstances where the decision that he felt was best... well, wasn’t, but that didn’t stop him from making them. for someone who spends the majority of their life crushed safely beneath someone’s thumb, their freedom is something they’re not immediately equipped to handle, and after being abandoned by the council ( his father had all but abandoned him long ago ) he’s thrust into the fray and forced to become more than an obedient, parroting caricature of old values and procedures.
his decisions and actions over the course of the series were often not the best, but by god, they were his.
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tombstones and floodlights still bring back memories. a putrid odor of rotting corpses and bite of cold metal pressed against her temple. but her current companion is hardly willing to expose her to fresh hell. however, danger might still lurk. shilo minds her step keeping up with luigi's stride — at least she feels secure knowing she won't be caught unawares. "this way," she corrects, skirting around him and following down a more secluded path to her mother's — now, father's — tomb.
the cold night air is nothing he’s not accustomed to, wind often biting at open lacerations after a bar brawl gone south and clothes damp with blood that’s only partially his. the abject shame is gone – he no longer has to skulk back home, tail tucked between his legs like a wounded animal – but there’s a certain wariness that’s settled in the pit of his stomach, weighing heavy like a stone.
there’s no logical reason for them to have bonded after the tragic events of the opera and all the lives it claimed, but none the less, he’s found himself acting as a protective escort detail for a teenager who, much like himself, had very little left in this world, and he keeps an ever - vigilant eye on their surroundings. he knows more than he’d ever admit about how dangerous this city could be at night.
silently, he trails after her, eyeing the various graves and their weather - worn names with naught but a passing glance. had they always been so depressing? the mausoleum towers over them soon enough, and he notes an air of hesitation in her movements, the way her pale fingers instinctively curl around the handle of her satchel. the gesture is familiar ; his own often curl into fists when he’s agitated, blunt nails digging half - crescents into his palms.
‘ you sure you’re up for this? ’ he finally breaks the silence, briefly jutting his chin out to indicate the structure before them. ‘ we can always come back. not like it’s goin’ anywhere. ’
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WHICH ANIMAL ARE YOU ?
take the quiz & post your results. remember to repost, not reblog!
tagged by: @overindulges xoxo ;^)
tagging: whoever’s interested.
ethan is a snake.
sensitive / inventive / meticulous / unemotional / nervous
they are forced to slink through life in a solitary quest for warmth and acceptance. shy and insecure, they must keep a low profile to avoid the disapproving glances and teasing of others. [ ... ] snakes have learned to express themselves through their art. whether writers, moviemakers or painters, they are obsessively meticulous about their craft. [ ... ] but the snake recoils from the glare of publicity, and its behavior becomes even more erratic than usual.
lauren is a badger.
small / protective / passionate / blunt / aggressive
what distinguishes them from their relatives is their extraordinary physical and emotional strength and tenacious approach to life's challenges. good looking, small to medium sized individuals, they walk and talk as if they own the world and back down for no one, not even the much larger personality of the lion. they will confidently enter the territory of others -- woe betide anyone who blocks their path.
badgers stay in shape with regular physical activity and are well dressed and precisely groomed. their competitive natures drive them to the edges of their abilities. because of their small size, they sometimes feel the need to assert themselves to gain the respect accorded the larger carnivores. however, the badger's tendency to bite off more than it can chew often results in an overestimation of its capabilities. with the heart of a tiger, tenacity is both their greatest asset and biggest downfall.
badgers sometimes rush headlong into overwhelming situations and are forced to burrow their way out. even so, they never go down without a fight. their physical stature can limit political ambitions. this doesn't deter them from running races they are destined to lose, however. badgers are opportunists and sometimes team up in business with the more thoughtful animal personalities to help offset their impetuous nature.
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WOULD YOU HAVE LOVED ME? / @traumade & @gebregdan. indie multimuses ft. wesley wyndam - pryce & winifred burkle of angel: the series. mourned by cole & lisa.
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the transition from “it’s our desires that make us human. we live, we grow, we change” and “there is no perfect day for me, illyria. there is nothing that i want” is the most heartbreaking but poignant change in wesley’s character and it makes me ache so badly
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given the hour of day and the ever - crowded tables at the diner, he has a multitude of better things with which to occupy his time than stand and listen -- with the patience of a saint, mind you! -- to what some might call the insane ramblings of a chatty kathy, but despite his scowl and only semi - attentive ear, there are few things that actually bring him the same sense of joy. at her silence, he turns, coffee pot in hand, and leans forward onto the counter, the forearm of his empty hand coming to rest against its surface for support. brows set heavy above narrowed blue eyes, fixed solely on her beaming face.
‘ i’m sorry----- and, uh, forgive me if i’m interrupting your train of thought here, but-- are we really talkin’ about the mental capacity of a cartoon chipmunk? ’
❛ oh, no —— no no no, alvin was totally the brains of the operation—— ❜ she knows, mind you, that luke is an unwilling participant in this conversation. his barely-contained grumble serves to reiterate that. but once she’s on a roll, there’s no stopping lorelai gilmore. ❛ ——just because simon wore glasses doesn’t mean anything. and that’s stereotyping, by the way. i mean he might have had the book smarts, but alvin totally had the street smarts. he was the schemer. ❜ cue a nod as she takes a sip from her coffee, obviously pleased with herself. // @traumade ——— 🖤’d
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no cops. the demand ( now reassurance? ) went without saying, same as it always did in every formulaic kidnapping plot in popular media -- only this time, the danger wasn’t safely contained on a flatscreen tv, and he certainly didn’t foresee a timely, action - packed resolution in the next hour. he can at least be thankful that the shaking has stopped, the blood flow all but died down to the occasional trickle or drop, though it doesn’t stop him from clutching at his bloodied hand, uninjured fingers restlessly tap - tap - tapping against the sloppy, makeshift bandage. it stings, but he doesn’t feel it. not really. not anymore.
‘ i don’t know what you want me to say. ’ what confusion, disorientation he might have displayed at the police station following shaun’s initial disappearance has all but faded and given way to something resembling grave acceptance, a morbid determination to be an unwitting martyr. dragging another innocent life into the fray is a notion he refuses to entertain. ‘ i have to do this alone. ’
“ IT’S ALRIGHT, ETHAN – I’M ALONE. No cops. You have my word … I wouldn’t bother puttin’ my job on the line just to get cold feet. But you gotta give me somethin’, Ethan. You gotta let me in. I know you’d never put your boy in danger – not willingly. But I also know a man undergoin’ this sort of hardship doesn’t surface in a remote motel with a missin’ finger ‘cause he felt like gettin’ some air. Help me, Ethan. If you don’t – I can’t help Shaun. ”
( @traumade // ♥’d for a dialogue starter !! )
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halloween (2018) : a summary
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just uh. a lil tag dump for @urobouros, don’t mind me.
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yellow & black !
munday color asks.
yellow. a food that makes me happy.
mie goreng! it’s a primarily indonesian / malaysian spicy noodle dish with chicken, egg and onions. there aren’t a lot of places that sell it, aside from the food court in a korean market on the way downtown.
black. a book recommendation.
most recently, i read touch & go by lisa gardner and thoroughly enjoyed it. i’ve always had a hardcore taste for thriller novels ( the likes of patterson, scottoline, king, ware ) and as such, i’m very critical of them because i generally know their formulas inside and out. this one was pretty predictable for me, but i liked it enough that i didn’t care. what struck me about gardner’s work was that i wasn’t at all interested in the detective’s chapters, as i usually am, but the captives had me so engrossed that i actually got irritated when i had to put it down.
there’s something so poetic about watching a picture perfect family fall apart behind the scenes, with every member shrouded in lies and secrecy. the captive-based chapters, told from the wife’s perspective, are so wonderfully written and touch on so many emotions and overarching themes / motifs that carry throughout the novel, most notably addiction and depression. her writing style is very simplistic, which i always appreciate, but what it lacks in words, it makes up for in weight.
a quick lil’ excerpt i liked:
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the day i learned that “ofc” actually meant “of fucking course” still shakes me to my core
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re: “still resisting at such an advanced stage.”
countless blood samples and constant exposure to the uroboros virus weren’t enough. over the course of nearly three years, increased experimental dosages of the p30 serum were administered until wesker finally found one high enough that seemed to break her will completely, and any hesitation on her part was immediately met with another, higher dose. after escaping kijuju, jill was hospitalized and quarantined to undergo intense mental, physical and chemical rehabilitation. years later, she still has the occasional, subconscious desire for the p30 and the power it awarded her, though the thought sickens her once it passes.
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" so ... we finally meet .. " ( my precious jill )
she knows a thing or two about betrayal. about never truly knowing whether someone’s on her side, about the figurative knife that wedged itself between the notches in her spine. she’s become quite weary of people whose alignment changes with the wind.
Leon’s always been quick to defend Ada, but as soon as the issue of her loyalty arises, he falls silent, unable to properly defend her often questionable actions, and that in itself is enough to tell Jill all she needs to know. when you help someone, you do so wholeheartedly – at least, that’s what she believes, what she practices – and tales of Ada’s only convenient camaraderie have never settled well with her. in this moment, neither does the sly smile playing at the taller woman’s lips.
‘ looks that way. ’ supposed ally or not, she doesn’t have to be civil. letting your guard down only makes it harder to watch your back for any incoming stabs.
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