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I’ll do most of my screaming in the tags but I commissioned @leah-demarco for some art of my beloved baby girl and… y’all…. I am aching…

full-res link.

#;earthshaker #me AND kamakiri pointing: !!!! #(kamakiri does it quieter) #THATS HIS BESTIE WTF. THATS HIS ROCK!!! #im kind of dazed at how gorgeous this is ngl #the serene expression...the lovely lil floral pattern on her dress...the swing... #chefs kiss

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in my great inability to do anything except passively get upset over a gay side character in an obscure anime, i continue to shriek and wail over the prospect of kamakiri outliving those he cares for most pointedly chouchou and mitsubachi, but its such a distressing fear for him that it frankly could apply to literally any au he’s a part of and this man who insists he really wants to be alone and for you to fuck off he’s very much centered in his even more fucked up variants of finding love and then BEING alone all of a sudden.

#;headcanon #;story and song #sigh. i need to reach out to more people. plan things. write things. but im sad and sometimes it means i just gotta watch like #sad artsy anime vids and be like omg SAME FOR HIM #v;dead man walking

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Send Your Muse’s Assumptions About My Muse And They’ll Respond With “Correct,” “Nope” or “Kinda”

#;ask meme #ooh!

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Everybody shut UP I’m thinking about the complex and heartfelt relationship I personally crafted between two characters who only interacted for 5 minutes.

#;about the mun #HAHAHAHAHAHAHA #dear lord man. im in it deep

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got a lot to say abt this song and how it relates to kamakiri but the translator in me is frustrated bc both subs have their flaws but overall the US one is better imo.

but. taken verbatim from a distraught discord convo and by distraught i mean its me crying over symbolism and how miserable this lonely fucking man is. 

“thinking abt how kamakiri "Lives" in a lot of the iterations of him as a young adult where he had like. no one. and how like paralyzing and scary it is to actually have someone in his life suddenly and locking up and not knowing how to proceed despite wanting to both because its a huge risk he could fuck up and also feeling like he doesnt really deserve it either”

the very presence of a figure in his life that he comes to truly love, but more importantly, almost seems to love HIM throws him into such fucking chaos because he simply doesnt have the capacity or knowledge that comes from MEANING something to anyone else alongside the uh. feeling of abject worthlessness and desire for it to all end, and the latter, just, this stupid, wonderful mv, of that desire taking form of a both a malevolent omnipresent figure and a catastophic tsunami, both are so indicative of how the concept of maybe wanting to be in someone’s life manifests for kamakiri and how, frankly, terrifying it is and it hurts.

...obviously it hurts more when the principal figure lets that self-hatred and fear mutate into something that literally devours him, too. but. 

one hopes, at least this mun does, that it doesnt come to that. stupid sad mantis man.

#;story and song #;earthshaker #;makibishi shidan #;ashigaru #;spitfire #of course had to tag the figures in his life that come to MIND when hes suffering over the terror and bliss of being loved and cherished #but yeah. u ever worry for ur own gd muse??? bc i do #ik it sounds indulgent but im like BUDDY PLEASE??? #anyway this mv and song mean so MUCH and i could break down the symbolism in it for #like. #pages and pages

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the salty af munday meme

Because, like it or not, we're not all balls of sunshine all the time. We can be pure salt when we want to be.

☠ What does someone have to do for an instant unfollow from you?

♥ What's the WORST thing that has happened to you rp wise?

♦ What was a mildly annoying thing that has happened to you rp wise?

♢ Has anyone ever tried to steal your blog? Your headcanons? Icons? All that jazz

♚ How many people don't like you?

⚜ How many people do you not like?

✮ Have you managed to stay away from drama?

☄ Have you ever been in the middle of drama?

☯ Have you ever tried to bring peace to a situation?

☼ How long do you stay mad?

☀ What's your rp pet peeve?

☁ Have you ever forgiven a partner when you shouldn't have?

☂ Have you ever been forgiven when you knew you shouldn't have been?

☢ What fads/trends are you so over?

☣ Have you ever rp'd with someone you knew for a fact was abusive but tried to give them a chance/to make up your own opinion on the roleplayer? Did they change or did you understand what people were talking about?

♨ Have you ever made a public call out post?

❀ What has made you completely lose your chill?

✿ What do you think about public call out posts?

✂ A fandom that you feel isn't open and accepting?

✉ A fandom that you feel is open and accepting?

✦ Thoughts on duplicates following you?

✧ Do you agree with reblog karma or is it forced interaction?

❥ Has someone ever ruined an FC or character for you?

❦ Has someone been jealous of you?

❧ Have you ever been jealous of anyone?

✖ How has Tumblr RP changed since you started?

♒ Thoughts on the fandom you're currently rping in?

❣ How salty are you feeling right now?

#im a man of my word i reblog this here bc these seem fun and low effort and im sleepy and drunk so #<333

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cromwellharvests​:

…………………………………………………………………………….

like, what sorta’ bell tho—

THE KIND A SLEEP-DEPRIVED PARENT WOULD SLAP ONTO A TODDLER TO MAKE SURE THEY DON’T CRAWL DIRECTLY INTO AN OPEN OVEN THE SECOND THEY AREN’T BEING SUPERVISED

BED. NOW. 

#;cromwellharvests #;crack #IT WOULD NOT BE CUTE. IT WOULD BE TERRIBLE AND PUNITIVE AND MAKES A GOOD ARGUMENT FOR JUST LYING BACK DOWN. #(it would be cute. but we cant just say it) #he'll water your plants for gods sake easy!!!!! REST #dont call him mamakiri for nothin

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...

Emily Zachariah Cromwell if you don’t get back in bed and rest this instant, I’m putting a bell on you.

#;cromwellharvests #i had to at least the OTHER direction i wanted to take that ask in #kamakiri 'tough love' maniwa will permit none of this endangerment bullshit #like a tried and true hypocrite

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❝ i wasn’t hurt that badly. the doctor said all my bleeding was internal. that’s where the blood’s supposed to be. ❞

He wonders why she even bothers deflecting--the faint joke only earns a sharp narrowing of his eyes--she can't surely have expected any different.

Well. Perhaps it's the painkillers talking.

...Kamakiri sets his jaw, lips pressed into a thin line of displeasure. The simple acknowledgement of Easy's wounded state, treated or otherwise, still brings a sour chill that settles, light on the backs of his shoulders. After a beat, he huffs, the sound more chiding than anything approaching humor.

"Pretty hard to believe coming from the one so frequently fussing over light bruises."

The tone is dry, relatively light, or at least approaching the implicit fondness that so often seep into his words with her, but Kamakiri cannot deny the frustration bubbling down deep. Absurd (and frankly, distressing) that she seems so incapable of treating herself with the same warm consideration which she so endlessly piles upon others.

He frowns. Draws in a slow breath and lets the exhale hang unspoken concern and disapproval between them. Before he reaches forward, brief, to give Easy's forearm a gentle squeeze.

"...You're ridiculous."

Be careful.

#;cromwellharvests #v;fma #kamakiris Fucking Pissed #(not really just worried when she downplays shit abt her suffering physical or otherwise) #almost like he relATES and HATES that he relates bc its a SHITTY WAY TO BE FOR URSELF

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brooklyn 99 prompts !

❝ love. it sustains you. it’s like oatmeal. ❞

❝ how was i supposed to know there would be consequences for my actions? ❞

❝ i wasn’t hurt that badly. the doctor said all my bleeding was internal. that’s where the blood’s supposed to be. ❞

❝ i forgot how to breathe. is it two in, one out? ❞

❝ and if you ever want a friend to sit with you and silently listen to death metal, just know i’m always here. ❞

❝ you’re fake news! sad! ❞

❝ with all due respect, i’m going to completely ignore everything you just said. ❞

❝ anyways i’m gonna cry in the bathroom. peace out, homies. ❞

❝ the phrase ‘’whodunit‘’ is a grammatical abomination. please use the proper term, a ‘’who has done this.‘’ ❞

❝ if i die, turn my tweets into a book! ❞

❝ and you can’t spell ‘’go fuck yourself‘’ without ‘’fuck you.‘’ ❞

❝ if anything i see you as a bother figure, because you’re always bothering me. ❞

❝ everything is garbage. ❞

❝ because i’m a rascal. ❞

❝ nothing good ever happens. ❞

❝ TELL ME EVERYTHING. ❞

❝ well, did you tell them i feel so bad i have a tummy ache? ❞

❝ i don’t give a hoot! ❞

❝ did you just ‘’oh, damn‘’ yourself? ❞

❝ i’m cute about everything. ❞

❝ i have decided to stop fighting it, and lean in to the fact that i’m an idiot. ❞

❝ AHHHHH! ❞

❝ i’m sorry. i’m uncomfortable with emotions. ❞

❝ you are not a boring adult. ❞

❝ ‘’be myself.‘’ what kind of garbage advice is that? ❞

❝ you and i are close, and i value your opinion. ❞

❝ my brain is broken. i haven’t slept in 72 hours. ❞

❝ social media. it’s a fool’s game, and only a fool would play. ❞

❝ if you want results, stay the hell out of my way. ❞

❝ the question was, what is it about me that screams loser? ❞

❝ i’ve said ‘’excuse me‘’ more times this morning than i have in my entire life. TWICE! ❞

❝ if i don’t see you every day, i will forget who you are. i’m like a goldfish. ❞

❝ ugh, the world’s officially upside down. ❞

❝ you interrupted the song for that? ❞

❝ the hospital called. your test results came back positive. you are a stage 5 dumbass. ❞

❝ you know what, i just remembered that i’m late to leave. gotta go, bye. ❞

#;ask memes #lets give this a whirl!

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me falling completely head over heels for yet another over the top confident jokester-flirt-rogue character when i KNOW their confidence, humor, and blasé attitude is a blatant facade and coping mechanism for deep-seated trauma:

#;spitfire #dax? daxter? dax??? daxiepants? daxtopheles?????? #apologies this is also an ooc meme but also happens to be on point for a silly dipshit kamakiri's in love with so #into the blog it goes!

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#;story and song #v;fma #v; modern (2) #i.e. reincarnation verse #songs to have violent traumatic flashbacks to :/ #;queue

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inbox/meme call!

give this a like for a bug man in your inbox :) 

#gonna try to reblog some more memes for the evening and do smth similar on the boy's blog too but heres hopin i get some more stuff going #bc i am filled with LOVE

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Which Type of Romanticism are You?

instructions: take this quiz & answer the questions as truthfully as you can. repost, do not reblog!

Your Result:

solitary romanticism

spilled ink, liquor stained dress shirts, books lent but never returned: you're solitary romanticism. solitary romanticism is not to be confused with melancholic romanticism, however; it can be lonely at times but is not quite sad. solitary romanticism entails a complete wonder in one's head, fantastical in its feeling, yet simple in its probability. it's playing the piano to an empty house, hoping the wallpaper likes the tune, it's smiling at the sight of a happy couple, not out of jealousy, but by true admiration of love. you stop to notice the little things in life, yet can't help but wonder whether or not someday you'll have the privilege of being so content and caught up in your own life to have them slip your mind. you've a kind soul and a wandering mind, which makes for a wonderful person all around. "dedicated to everyone who wonders if i'm writing about them. i am." - k.s. thomas

tagged by: stole from @cromwellharvests! 

tagging: man idk im just sad for him now 

#;about #my stomach dropped a wee bit at this HGKJFHGKJ THIS POOR DUDE #kiri: wants to be loved #s/b: :) <3 #kiri: GOODBYE #tho lbr not like kiri would ever be honest with the affection starved part of himself :/ #roMANTIC????? I AM NNTNO ROM ANTI C I AM COOL AND LEVEL HEADED AND ABOVE SUCH THINGS THANK YOU

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@cromwellharvests​

god we love this funky little tsundere. anyways: hello i adore you

...all three of those words are painful to him but it sadly doesn’t make it any less accurate

#;crack #;cromwellharvests #i adore you too <333 :D so delighted to see you and easy around~

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[scoops him up in her arms and squeeeeeeeeeeeeeezes him real tight. he can act as grumpy as he likes, but. it's been long enough, he'll just have to deal with it]

"Wh--"

That's about all he can get out before his feet leave the ground an inch and his breath is promptly halted by the affectionate crush of Easy's embrace. Kamakiri bites back the urge to sputter--thinks the position he's in embarrassing enough without flailing and protestation--and instead goes relatively still, quiet.

...If his sudden acquiescence has anything to do with the small swell of joy in his chest, well. He'll just have to hope it isn't too obvious.

"...Hello, Easy."

#;ic #;cromwellharvests #v;fma #AAAAAAAAA #HELLO HELLO HELLO OMG #this made me smile so much ugh....hes happy to see her...

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critical role sentence starters !!!

so… we’ll talk later.

why won’t you stay down and die with dignity?

no. no further.

this is not over. it can’t be.

try not to have too much fun without us.

i have this blink candle. it’s formed from various animals that blink.

it’s so rare that we’re actually given the opportunity to be honest about everything. we might as well try it once and see if we like it.

you know i’m in love with you, right?

you seem… like a person. and that’s great.

those are coins! you’re not making it rain, you’re making it hail!

i’m killing someone, hold please.

your secret is safe with my indifference.

my heart is someone else’s.

do not go far from me. if we are out of earshot, you are too far from me.

um, i don’t know if it’s the food you made or the fact that we’re going to die tomorrow, but i want to kiss you.

i was all kinds of fucked up a few weeks ago.

you’re all kinds of fucked up all the time. we all are. and that’s why we’re together.

i just want to let you know… i am possibly the worst person you’ve ever met.

i think i kind of hope… not necessarily to hurt you or harm you, but i hope that one day… that you can know just how awful i can be.

you can curse, it’s okay. you killed one of us.

i think i’ve always been in love with the idea of you.

i was only gone for thirty seconds!

i encourage violence.

i can give you the means to protect them.

i do not want to die who i am. i’d like to live long enough to be someone else.

you’re on your own, fuckface.

a volcano is - is nature’s candle!

sometimes people go and they don’t come back.

do you spice?

so we’re going to kill everyone that we see in the next ten seconds.

i don’t want to be here if you’re not.

i told you before. no one kills you but me.

he traded his life!

i don’t have very many things that i care about and i don’t have anything that cares about me.

i’m great! well, not really, but i’m just going to pretend i’m happy so everybody can be okay!

i’ve been in a barrel for an hour. i fell asleep in there!

yes. i heard. it was the only thing i heard.

don’t cry. i’m just a little cold.

i bury my shame.

i should have told you. it’s yours.

forgiveness - that’s the key, isn’t it? it’s the only way to really grow.

your hair’s a mess. sit still.

you are my heart. you are me. you are my other half. you are welcome with me always.

you don’t always have to put on a brave face, dear.

we’re friends, right? are we friends?

i know we don’t always agree and i know i can be unkind, but… you know you’re family, right?

i’ve had a terrible thought. and it is sort of my business to have terrible thoughts.

take me instead.

we walk towards glory.

that’s mine! that’s mine!

did it choose me because i was broken, or did it break me?

please bring him back to me.

you think you care about me?

this was always supposed to happen, wasn’t it?

i love you. if i can find you, i will. if not, stay alive.

if he’s gone i won’t be the same.

i’d watch your moral panic all day, it’s delightful.

in many ways you are my total opposite. but you are also my best friend.

i made a choice. this is my family.

i forgive you. but i cannot let you leave.

please. please. i love him as much as you do.

fix him. fix him!

i like this family. i’d like to keep it.

i want you to know that you are like a brother to me.

talk about my sister again.

it’s been a while since we’ve had one of our depressing chats!

i can’t have you gone. i need you here.

i think we’re very broken people. but i think together we’re much greater than the sum of our parts.

don’t ever fucking do that again.

you didn’t die. but you did! but you didn’t. but you did! and then you didn’t.

i don’t want any of this! i don’t want any of this.

i’ve just had a near death experience and i’m craving some lasagna. 

you know, you’re getting weirder.

you and i are very different.

i’ve killed two of those who’ve wronged me and nothing is better. nothing feels better. nothing is avenged.

call me “child” one more goddamn time!

if you’re lucky, you die last.

some people have no sense of fucking honor!

i’ll take my clothes off if it’ll inspire us.

thank you for believing in me.

you’ve never done anything for me! never! you’ve never risked anything, you don’t know me!

everyone else believes in you. why shouldn’t you?

how many fingers am i holding up?

what’s the first letter of the alphabet? this you know.

yay! teamwork!

you fucking died!

don’t touch me right now! i’m not - don’t touch me!

i’m going to go get a sandwich.

you had us all very worried.

your reckless impulses will get you killed!

i’m done with gods. they will not help me. perhaps you will. 

this is too fucking much.

come here, you shithead.

it has been an honor.

screw you! i want my final words with you to be indignant and irritated.

you’re the face i saw when murder entered my heart.

i’m undecided about you.

never forget you’re my favorite. and i’m so sorry.

i’m not leaving him.

you’re a better man than you believe.

feel like making a home here?

you’re an idiot and i’m very proud of you. don’t do that again.

sound off if you’re alive.

it’s not going to work.

#;ask memes #couldnt find any on my dash i was feeling so just reblogging my own stuff #feel free to send in! i'll put a meme/inbox call post up at some point too prolly