I feel so guilty. Why had I let you drift away. Why had I let you fall into it. Youth is something that some people are stuck in. Youth is something that everyone envys. Now, at the pinnacle of yours, its gone. Its hard enough to say that you’ve passed, but to say that you’re dead, I don’t know how I feel about that. When I think of you, I don’t think of the most recent events, I think of sleepovers in high school and fancy dinners with friends. It hurts to know that days before you passed you had wanted to see me, made plans with others to hang out after years of distance. Had I not moved far away maybe things would have been different. Maybe I would have been there and helped you. Man I wish I warned you to stay away from it. In the words of my mother, if it comes from the ground fine, but stay away from chemicals. You were such a beautiful soul. A wonderful friend and could make a day of depression into a day of happiness with just a smile and a wave. God I’ve missed you for years but now I’ll miss you forever. Theres no reunion now, no catching up. I’m so sorry. To my best friend I let drift away.