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hey this is targeted and a reply to some of ur stuff!!

so i know u don't like me very much and thats okay, but i promise i don't wanna get back with u, sure ive thought about it but those feelings are more about missing what we had and not as much about missing you, that sounds harsh but yeah im not in love with u dw. its like i still have emotions because its bittersweet and ik i probably havent been the most respectful but thats not because of me liking u (which i dont) but me feeling regretful and nostalgic abt something that we both lost bc i know it wasnt healthy and wouldnt work anymore. not that its an excuse. idk if that makes since but uhm yeah-

also i know ive been shitty with u after it all happened, but i realise now i wasnt the best during the relationship either and im sorry for that im not sure exactly how i was bad during it, it wasnt intentional/i wasnt aware of it but i wasnt trying to make u be anything ur not and im sorry if it came across like that

alsoo the targeted stuff before (i hope u know what i mean) wasn't targeted at you i promise it was someone else from my new school i wouldnt say that about you dont worry

but yeah i hope u see this, u can message me if theres more u wanna ask cus u said theres loads more too, but idm u dont have to and im sorry for confusing u or making u uncomfy

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haunted house uquiz by streetlighthalo

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guys i like never check tumblr anymore follow me on instagram @v333spertine but yeah dw im alive

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favorite poem from that kids are better poets than us article on poetryfoundation. i tear up every time

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sorry I liked your post a second after you posted it I don’t have a life

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You still have time to change!

(Words sewn into a leaf)

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"im so tired of dog/cannibalism/religious metaphors" then write something different & share it with the world. do it. if youre so special & so talented. at least the ppl writing cliché stuff are writing

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journal entry (march 20 2024)

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i hate those posts that are like "what if your mother aborted you?" because it's LIKE. i value my mother as having her own agency above my existence simply because she came first. if she aborted me, id be fine with it because in the fucking hypothetical of un-existence & knowing, id rather her have access to safe abortion than having to carry & birth when she didn't want to like wtf kind of egotistical question is that. do u not value yr mother in the least. whatever joys you've gotten out of life aren't greater than yr mother's choice

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“you have to work hard!” why? “so you can get good grades!” why do i need good grades? “so you can get into a good college!” why? “so you can get a good paying job!” so then i can use that money to do fun stuff? “no you have to save it for later!” why? “so you can survive and retire comfortably!” then i can do the fun stuff? “no, you’ll be too old so you have to take care of your health!” then when can i do the fun stuff? “in your youth, enjoy it while you still can!” but i thought-

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"As an educator, I don’t just want you to feel what I feel. I don’t want you to consider me correct because I said it beautifully. I want to sharpen your critical thinking skills and your world-making capacities. I absolutely do not leave emotion out of that! Emotions are as central as the written, verbal, numeric, social, ecological knowledges we are able to gain to navigate this world and the next. I am just… extra cognizant of how much I can lead viewers to feel with me without further thought. The videos of mine that go most viral are ones where I show the most emotion, whatever that emotion is: hopeful, cheery, despondent, grieved, furious, combative. We love emotion. We live such isolated, stifled lives.

The challenge of reading is to navigate the narrative without the overtures of overt feelings. There is no face to latch onto, no music that sways you. Words on a page especially cannot compete with screen-time. They’re not meant to. The boredom opens up space in your mindscape to your own thoughts, opinions, and feelings."

—Ismatu Gwendolyn, "you've been traumatized into hating reading (and it makes you easier to oppress)", from Threadings on Substack

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you don’t have to belong everywhere

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"did i tell u this already?" we are in a timeloop and i am in love with u tell me again

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I think you should legally disclose if something is ai just like how you legally have to disclose if something is an ad

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who was I talking to where I was like “if humans had wings, lots of us probably wouldn’t even use them. it would be a lot of physical exertion. think about how many people never go running”. i still think thats a funny thought. if we had wings I’d be bitching and moaning when people expected me to fly anywhere.

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