wintergirl238

[wintergirl238]

hi everyone. does anybody else miss something they can never return to. anyone else being swallowed whole by grief. anyone else clinging to love as a life preserver

[wintergirl238]

getting dressed trying to ignore the media brainwashed insecure mean 13 yo girl inside my head

[wintergirl238]

I felt so much, that I started to feel nothing.

[wintergirl238]

there is something so comforting about sadness. about throwing things on your bedroom floor and not picking them up. about binging reality tv in the dark for 14 hours straight. about lying in your bed and not moving while the world continues to turn around you. overwhelming and heavy depression is comforting because it’s familiar. it allows you to sink into yourself and rot there for as long as you want. thats the vicious cycle with depression, it takes everything to not give into the comfort and familiarity that comes with it.

[wintergirl238]

fun mentally ill things

never washing off your makeup

there is garbage all throughout your room

never washing your clothes or your dishes

what the fuck is a shower

when you just looked at the clock it was 12 but now its 4 am and you dont know how that happened

up all night, asleep all day

u either dont eat at all or you eat until u need to puke

those days that you just cannot get out of bed

‘have you tried yoga?’

[wintergirl238]

thinking about how much work i could get done if i would do it

[wintergirl238]

adrienne rich from a poem she wrote for audre lorde

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i want people to unknow me

[wintergirl238]

Types of brain fog:

Brain is primordial sludge & you are drowning in it

U are a ghost and nothing is real

Mental equivalent of attempting to stream some high-res video game when all you have is dial-up

The thing you want to articulate is *right there* but you're just scrabbling at it like a cat continually failing to catch the bird on the other side of the window

The Void

[wintergirl238]

no i dont think women starving themselves and reconstructing their entire faces with makeup and plastic surgery is feminism and female empowerment

[wintergirl238]

sorry cant hang out. too scared

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“And if you call me at 4 am, too sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep.”

— Unknown

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“The people who believe they’ll be happy if they go and live somewhere else … learn it doesn’t work that way. Wherever you go, you take yourself with you.”

— Neil Gaiman

[wintergirl238]

this is your sign to close tiktok and watch childrens cartoons

[wintergirl238]

It’s a coffee and vyvanse kind of day. I’m buzzing with energy and anxiety and a weird urge to do something drastic that I’ll definitely regret later. Help

#my brain #i hate my brain #wish I could love it #adhd #adhd stuff #adhdlife #adhd post #adhd brain

[wintergirl238]

i think my sadness is infectious

#like a literal sti #talk to me #I’m bored #and lonely #and blueberries

[wintergirl238]

if I put a cold pack on my head will it numb the sadness

#? #I need help #but yeah