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i feel a little more confident now, but i did (unfortunately for me) get chunkier😓 it’s finally summer again so i got the motivation to lose weight again, but i need to do it FAST bc my pants are feeling tighter now…

#life update #me core

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wow. 10 months is a long time…

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i really wanna lose my weight bro☹️

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i’ve said this before and i’ll say it again because last time i feel i didn’t say what i wanted to say correctly and politely

this oage used to mainly be a page where i blogged about my interests, they were an amazing 2-3 years🙂. but around November-December of last year i started blogging about my feelings/thoughts/things that happened in my life that made me upset, and about a person that had come into my life october of that year. i had fallen for him and when we started texting in December it was like a dream, i loved talking to him. but of course it came with me going into a spiral of overthinking and despair, and i found i was in a dark place for a couple months. in that time i had a feeling of nothing else mattering. i went inactive january and was still not feeling great for a while after. but recently i’ve been having the time of my life and i’ve found a new joy in making myself happy for my own wellbeing. i have found that i need to love myself and i need to focus on my mental health.

so now to what this post is really about. this page is going to become my online diary, where i’ll try to write about my days, my thoughts and feelings, and inconveniences in my life that made me feel any negative feelings. this is for me to try and understand myself better and maybe learn how to deal with these emotions. i really want to thank the anon that sent me a message i cant remember when but i thank them bc of their kind words, they made me feel that my feelings were valid and made me realize i did need help😊💕 i want to get help when i can, but im still a little scared of what the outcome could be

so this is my life update. i will probably be writing soon⭐️

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another day another slay😍😍😍

#my mommy successfully bodyshamed me and my sister today😆

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When Harry Met Sally (1989) dir. Rob Reiner, written by Nora Ephron

#god i love this movie🥲 #when harry met sally

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we stopped texting bc i think he was not tryna text me anymore so i left him on opened😵‍💫it’s been 3 days but oh well i dont rlly mind

im stil open to conversation w him though im available any day for him😍

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in honour of the holiday season beginning, i’d like to share how izuku and katsuki have similar santa hats

everyone else got a lil object or something that represents their quirk or like. personality.

but these bitches just got their colours in the style of their hair.

matching santa hats.

they’re dating, your honour

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contemplating if i should be petty and not reply

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he replied at 3 am💀

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maybe i just crave attention that i’ll do anything to get it and it’ll take almost anyone as long as they stick around for longer than a couple minutes

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but then again yesterday was dry we barely talked

he basically ignored me today lol

i bet you he’s blowing me off for some bitch he met in mexico since he’s there rn

wtv it’s not like he made any moves or anything :/

maybe i really am being stupid

#a❤️ #anyway hes soo cool i want him to pay attention to me

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looks like i found something ( or rather someone…) that makes me look forward to school everyday😵‍💫🙂never thought that would happen actually, i think it’s for real this time.

been thinking of him since october and yesterday was officially 3 weeks we started texting, i don’t know if he likes me back

maybe im just stupid or he was looking for casual conversation

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im back bitchessss

try to get rid of me this time bitchessss

#i watch pretty little liars now such a good showwww #jolly good showww oh jolly good show

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anyone can benefit from some support or therapy. you may be overthinking, but that itself is still a lot to deal with and doesnt mean your negative feelings arent valid. go to your school counselor if you can. wish you luck xx

maybe i should get therapy, but things like these can never be told to a school counselor in a district like mine, if the counselor ever saw these, literally the police and parents get involved and the whole school is pretty much notified with that. within hours or the next day pretty much everyone knows whats going on and who it is, it’s just that bad. i can’t really tell anyone anything either way because i’ve just been taught all my life to never trust anyone, not even family and that logic just destroys what goes on with me and the feeling of not being able to tell anyone things, which was why i decided to resort to an account im no longer socially active on🫤 it’s nice to hear that my feelings are valid <3 thanks so much i really needed that

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nothing rlly matters ngl

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sometimes i feel like the way i feel is fake. like i’m subconsciously making myself feel this way and i don’t even know it or know how it happened. it just happened. i can’t remember for how long either. i feel something then i don’t. everything feels like something but it all feels like nothing. sometimes i feel like i’m feeling something but it’s really nothing too. i don’t know if i should seek help or if im overthinking and getting over myself.