4-14-am

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kissed my my knee wound, showed me the poem you wrote back in january, my head on your lap your fingers through my hair. i thought id do it first i thought

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and after we were done with everything, the rush to reach back hostel my time limit, the adrenaline still sparking inside my lips, your eyes still soften from watching me above you, smiling against each other's lips, your hair my hair in a mess and me screaming about how id fix it. and you take my clip and run your fingers across and tie hair in the loose style you always love. it's all captured here in my eyes. who could've thought who could've thought it's what i always say

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always wanting to be in touch and as you said i knew im not alone

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you've filled me something so unexplainable i love to be in love. more importantly, with you

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what did i do to deserve you. ig ill ask this question forever. but you make me believe i did deserve you or atleast can try. i love you. saying that wouldn't have been so easy if it weren't you. i love you

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you're in love, true love

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i hate everyone a little bit ig that's who i truly am within, a hater

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ill become what i hate and i can't even blame anyone

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ugh

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ill do if you say it but the thing is you don't say things enough and you come online and don't reply me and my heart cracks open a little for an ache to convince myself

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when you just can't believe

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im looking at the same time it was yesterday please come home to me. again

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please

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can you see through my impatience?

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do you have any idea??

#any idea how much i want you? #how much i think about what you must be doing when we aren't texting #what goes in your mind when i send those cringe flirt texts? does it make you smile?? #and how much i want to get inside your brain and explore it WITH YOU #how much i want to know your favorite childhood memory #your habits. your favorite shirt. your favorite food. your favorite song. the duration between each of your breath #im not rushing and you're jealous of a girl who gets to hang out with me a lot i want this to turn something #can we? #we can

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for the first time in my life ive desperately wanted a person who's not a fictional character and i can make a joke about it but it's not funny anymore

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so when do you know it's love