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What if you poked me in the chest and your finger broke through like you were cracking into a rotted plank of wood and dust came out and I just crumpled into nothing and my spores got into your nose

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Not gay as in happy but Queer as in I saw something in the woods and I’m not sure it was human

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Mother: "I wish you would do something while you're here."

yes well I wish I wasn't here, I wish I were at home in my apartment.

i wish I wasn't afraid of trying to stay alive.

I wish people accepted my reasons for staying home

I wish I wasn't like this, I wish I didn't have to deal with this for the rest of my GODDAMN LIFE. THIS WILL NEVER STOP, I WILL NEVER NOT BE OBSESSIVE ABOUT SOMETHING, PLEASE UNDERSTAND I'M DOING THE BEST I CAN..... i'm doing the best i can mom, why can't you see that i'm trying my hardest?

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“slut era” i whisper to myself as i rot in my bed, sick like a frail victorian child

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basically i am in bed, animal crackers on my tiddies

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if i ever get out of this situation I‘ll be the baddest motherfucker

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There is guilt in everything I do, who I choose to spend my time with, where I go, what I decide to do with my life.. it's as if-it's as if.. it's not really my life.

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I fall for a man's desperate heart, running, straining, using his very last breath to pursue.

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I think this is the first time I have felt this profoundly alone..

Shop alone, eat alone, shower alone, sleep alone

Cry alone

12/17/23

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2/8 12:19am I'm standing out in the middle of the 'daigua, my eyelids are heavy my eyes kiss closed and the water is deep and deep. The ice is thick, but not enough to hold me, nor am i. Enough to hold me. If I fell through the ice, who would know? Who would come to call if any. Any and you, always you'd say, always for you. The water is deep. 

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I just can't seem to stop crying.

one moment you were laying next to me,

And now we're strangers.

How did this happen to us?

12-16-23

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The way I felt when you had gone

like something terrible

And also lovely had

Died

12-16-23

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Aroace culture is still saying "GROSS!" Like a five year old whenever you see people kiss, no matter how old you are

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911 what's your emergency? HELP!! all around me people are either getting jobs or thinking about marriage while i'm sitting here crying in my garden because a blue beetle broke its leg

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"life is about sex and romance and love" wrong life is about arson

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does anyone want to be best friends that also live together and go on adventures together but like mundane adventures like ikea and target and also wants to lay our heads on each others shoulders when sleepy but also have separate bedrooms but also enjoy spending most of our free time together……. just me? ok