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My mum and I were talking about how I looked ugly and she was like "I don't think you're ugly I just think you have body dismorphia."

I was like:

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If i’m not pretty, at least i’m gonna be skinny

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Supersize vs. Superskinny

Superskinny: I just don’t much care for food, I find it a bit difficult to make time to eat 3 meals every day.

Announcer: Kara is only getting 1,600 calories a day, meaning she under eats each week by nearly 1.5 days- and is nearly a stone underweight.

Me, an eating disordered intellectual: WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY???

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Reblog if you actually hate the way you look!

Not just the «oh I look so ugly today», but you truly feel gross when you look at yourself in the mirror.

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Imagine not being haunted by trauma and mental illness every waking moment of your life. That would be sick.

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What’s it like to be happy with your reflection?

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“Maybe if I was skinny you’d love me back”

— I binged again

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I live for this song 🖤

“I love you much, It’s not enough.”

Amy Winehouse (Back to Black)

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I wish mental illness was how it is in the movies; crying in your bathtub at 2 am and doing all of these wild things, and someone coming along to save you. But in reality you just lock yourself in your room all day and stare at the ceiling; and the world keeps moving around you but you just stand still.

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“You didn’t starve all day to break when you get home”

-Things I wish I’d remember

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I have such a bad relationship with food! Like I either binge or restrict too much and I hate it bc I can't enjoy food the way I used to (and that was long ago) and I'm always thinking about food, calories and my weight and I wanna cry bc when did this all happen?! When did my weight became the most important and stressful thing to me?! Every morning I get nervous before weighing myself bc I don't want the number of the scale to go up bc it makes me feel awful I'm sorry, I just needed to rant...

I relate to this so much. Just know you’re not alone, and I’m so glad you realized that this is ruining food for you. I think some people go through the same thing and they don’t realize what’s wrong before it’s way too late. 

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I thought I was recovering but I was just binging on rubbish foods and now Ive relapsed 😔

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This is the no binge bunny. Re-blog as a reminder not to binge!

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I'm so proud of myself

I dropped 3 kilos in 2 weeks 🙌🏽

I just need to keep going 😁

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11 hour fast ✌🏽

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My snack for today ❤️

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😤

I have this health assignment due and it's about "societal influences on my food choices" which is pretty hard to do when you have an eating disorder 🙃