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dont worry because i know how much of a joke i am im aware....talentless no skills absolutely horrible nothing to make up for it i should die

im such a joke lol

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im such a joke lol

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age 21 permanently altering my brain functions to the point i can no longer function for the remainder of my life

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lots of hate inside my tiny body, unfortunately!

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i want to rip my skin off

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even thinking about family or going home makes me feel so violent towards myself …. the very thought of it is just. lol.

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lolllll

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i no longer experience any positive emotion. it’s either no emotion or i want to kill myself

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i want myself dead

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my face scrunched up and my body tesned i couldnt breathe i was hyperventilating tears were leaking from my eyes my body felt hot and sweaty

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hope i die soon

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not good at writing not good at art not good at school not good with people people dont like me im not attractive i hate work im not happy doing anything what else do i have.

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sick of crying being the universal form of “emotional release” i’m going to start stabbing myself in the gut with a kitchen knife

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i want to shoot myself or stab myself or maybe both why am i so much morefucking insignificant than everyone else what do other people fucking have lol

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i wish i could stab myself so bad

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it so clearly only gets worse from here. why is it that “it gets better” is an excuse to stop people from killing themselves. it doesn��t get any better. i don’t want to keep doing this i don’t want to be alive

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id scoop my organs out one by one with my hand