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Between medical expenses, regular bills, continued vet care for my cat, and paying back the debt we are already in we have gone from $7000 to $4500 in a few months time. And the IRS wants almost $3000 of what we have left.

I can never say it too much: this country doesn’t care about you if you are poor and lower class.

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So update on my stuff. Saw my neurologist and there’s a lot. So I’m going to see an endocrinologist, have my MRI and blood work tomorrow and later this week, and I’ll also be seeing another type of doctor but I can’t remember the word used. My appointment is in May, and I’ll also be seeing a radiologist down town for gamma knife surgery.

Issue is I didn’t expect it all to take this long. I think I’ll have to reopen the gofund me yet again. We have about 7 grand right now, which can get us through May at least, but beyond there idk. I don’t think I’ll be back to work until maybe September if everything goes well. I’m anxious tbh, this is a lot. I also need to do some neurotests to figure out my seizures.

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Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever. It’s comforting to know that. Idk why I need that right now, but it keeps repeating in my head. Maybe someone else needs to hear it too. It’s the one single constant in this broken and tragic world. It’s the one single solid foundation that’s never been or ever will be shaken by anything or anyone. Your sin won’t change Jesus. The world and its wickedness won’t change Jesus. Politicians and dictators won’t change Jesus. False religions won’t change Jesus. And there’s something so necessary about hearing that.

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No More Sorrow In Heaven

by J.C. Ryle

Blessed be God! There shall be no sorrow in heaven. There shall not be one single tear shed within the courts above. There shall be no more disease and weakness and decay.

The coffin, and the funeral, and the grave shall be things unknown. Our faces shall no more be pale and sad. No more shall we go out from the company of those we love and be parted asunder–that word, ‘farewell’, shall never be heard again. There shall be no anxious thought about tomorrow to mar and spoil our enjoyment. There shall be no sharp and cutting words to wound our souls. Our needs will have come to a perpetual end, and all around us shall be harmony and love.

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doodles for PayPal donations

Hey friends! I’m gonna be trying something new. I’m gonna be doing doodles and drawings for PayPal donations! If you donate via PayPal just message me with a screenshot and what you want drawn! For larger donations I’ll do cleaner lines and maybe some color!

all donation money will go towards funding my brain surgery and paying bills while I’m out of work!

PayPal: [email protected]

examples of my work:

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I know what you’re thinking. Maybe. “ oh here we go again. This girl is useless. “ but I promise I’m not. No one needs to help or do anything. Prayers would satisfy me. A few people asked so I’m providing. I’m stubborn. I hate feeling weak and asking for help. My pride hates this. But right now there’s nothing I can do.

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Got something cooking for later this week, so keep an eye out!

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prayer request

Dealing with some incredibly difficult times. I lost my dream job due to my increasingly worse health. My seizures are happening more and more, and they cared about my health enough to see that I wasn’t resting and my body was shutting down. Now I have no job, and I’m terrified. Our bills are lower but we aren’t in that sweet spot yet because my hours were so low. I got less than $200 in 2 weeks because of how slow the bakery was. In the last 2 months I’ve maybe brought in $500. We are managing but now I have no income. My health is killing me and there’s nothing I can do about it. Disability is a year+ long wait and idk how we will survive that long on only my husbands checks.

we need God in a big way right now. I’ve done nothing but cry for the last 24 hours and I’m absolutely In Shambles. One day at a time..

guys. Losing my dream job of almost a year was heart shattering. Seeing my coworkers express anguish in my leaving. Seeing their care for me. And then losing my work family in that moment.. it’s killing my heart to know I can’t go in and see their smiling faces every morning. It made my 5:30am shifts feel happier. My heart hurts so much. My mental health is catastrophic. I’m sore from weeping. Idk what else to say or do but hope.

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"There is no ailment of heart that He cannot cure. There is no form of spiritual complaint that He cannot overcome. The fever of lust, the palsy of the love of the world, the slow consumption of indolence and sloth, the heart-disease of unbelief, all, all give way when he sends forth His Spirit on any one of the children of men. He can put a new song in a sinner's mouth, and make him speak with love of that Gospel which he once ridiculed and blasphemed. He can open the eyes of a man's understanding and make him see the kingdom of God. He can open the ears of a man and make him willing to hear His voice, and follow Him wherever He goes. He can give power to a man who once walked in the broad way that leads unto destruction, to walk in the way of life. He can make hands that were once instruments of sin, serve Him and do His will. The time of miracles is not yet past. Every conversion is a miracle. Have we ever seen a real instance of conversion? Let us know that we saw in it the hand of Christ. We should have seen nothing really greater, if we had seen our Lord making the dumb to speak, and the lame to walk, when He was on earth." – J.C. Ryle

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“If you are waiting for a perfect church, you shall be waiting until Heaven.”

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Charles Spurgeon

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